Ending this YeaR

This year was real tough for me.. there's been a lot of things that really happened. At the first part of the year i always find myself crying and begging God to help me get promoted. And well yeah i got promoted to a Tier2.. then to a coach .. However until now i'm still trying my best to adjust with the new acct coz i dont feel like all the support staff like me. I'm still hanging on .. holding on.. I'ts my 3rd month to work on the new acct im handling and all i can say is that i'm surviving it. After i Got promoted i finally was able to enroll for Law school. The entrance exam was really tough because i never thought i would be able to pass it since i really dont have any idea that i would pass it. hehe! after that i had my braces done and finally got my own credit card which is a pa!n !n D a$$.. i finally got the chance to buy myself the keds that i want. and the tattered pants that i wanted.. I finally enjoyed anime because of midori no hibi.. thats so damn cute! before this year ends i would like to thank evryone who actually believed in me. an d helped me get through my life for this year... Thanksee LoRd!

sheesh! guess i may have have evrything what i want except the guy that i really want.. and its like my life is starting to tumble down.. no kidding! its really starting to.. i can hardly eat, can hardly sleep.. however i have this friend from california, shasha's cousin and hes ben my friend for just 2 weeks.. what i like about him is this man is that hes so sweet.. but i dont have feelings for him yet .. since i got preoccuppied thinking of my textmate.. last saturday i saw him with a girL.. i guess lovely's right... he has a girL.. i really hate this feeling coz this always happens to me .. i sometimes think that he will be for me.. and as my friends say i think to much as and i act as if im his girlfriend the fact that we havent actually met yet.. we just stare at each other.. pero nahurt talaga ako nun saturday kaya ayun nag pshot ako... grrrrr.. neway maybe im just better off thid way alone.. yoko na pinag pray ko pa siya.. i really feel sad.. :( Lord please show me the sun!

ahihi! im back in training.. i was actually begging them that i take my phone certification for this new acct .. however the client said well thats accdg to them , that i will be joining the next waive again in training before i could actually have my phonecertification.. haha! huh im not stupid nor dumb of course i manage to catch up with the lessons we had in our previous training .. but thats okay .. at least i have like 1 month off the phones.. 1 month slacking..





by the way abt my textmate , i found at last saturday that my textmate actually gave my number to his friend ..and im not sure why...well actually i felt like they were tripping on me .. i hate the feeling however i still like him. I dont know why but i havent felt this feeling before.. Anyway Sha-sha gave my number to her cousin ~whos from california.. and believe me he calls everyday .. like twice a day.. he works as supervisor as well and for now their project is making waterproof casings of ipods.. hes so sweet and caring however still i think abt jason all the time.. kahit di man lang kami nag uusap.. i dont know why i'm acting this way.. well maybe because i decided not to be a snob or i decided to entertain aheemm sutors.. haha! i hate the term.. im totally not this.. anyway grabe i still can't feel anything for this california guy.. kahit nga friend hindi eh pero hes so caring and sweet.. my mom and dad,almost everyone at home knows abt him calling everyday..actually i like the idea .. coz i go home around 11pm and he calls me evrytime i get off work .. and stays with me on the phone until i reach home.. ( eh alam mo naman sa streets namin nagtitipid ng kuryente kaya minsan sobrang madilim ).. i cant wait to go out this saturday .. i really wanna see jason.. im not yet ready to talk to him however i just want to see him.. smile , stare ..grrrr.. guess i miss him .. sana nga lang magtext siya kahit simple lang na quote kainis talaga.. bakit kung sinong gusto mo eh ayaw sayo..




melai and i love this song




Mabuti Pa Sila

Mabuti pa ang mga surot, laging mayrong masisiksikan

Mabuti pa ang bubble gum, laging mayrong didikitan

Mabuti pa ang salamin, laging mayrong tumitingin

Di tulad kong laging walang pumapansin

Mabuti pa ang mga lapis, sinusulatan ang papel

At mas mapalad ang kamatis, maya't maya napipisil

Napakaswerte ng bayong, hawak ng aleng maganda

Di tulad kong lagi na lang nag-iisa

Ano ba'ng wala ako na mayron sila

Di man lang makaisa habang iba'y dala-dalwa

Pigilan n'yo akong magpatiwakal

Mabuti pa ang galunggong nasasabihan ng 'mahal'



Kahit ang suka ay may toyo at ang asin may paminta

Mabuti pa ang lumang dyaryo at yakap-yakap ang isda

Mabuti pa sila, mabuti pa sila

Di tulad kong lagi na lang nag-iisa




Mabuti pa ang simpleng tissue at laging nahahalikan

Mabuti pa ang mga bisyo, umaasang babalikan

Mabuti pa sila, mabuti pa sila

Di tulad kong lagi na lang nag-iisa

(Interlude)




Pigilan n'yo akong magpatiwakal

Bakit si Gabby Concepcion lagi na lang kinakasal

Mabuti pa ang mga isnatser, palaging may naghahabol

Ang aking luma na computer, mayron pa ring compatible

Mabuti pa sila, mabuti pa sila

Di tulad kong lagi na lang nag-iisa







wish me luck in my phone certs! hope i could pass it.. oh hehe by the way .. on oct 30 my salary would be officially adjusted .. however i dont want to tell my parents abt that yet..

I think this my worst day of training..ive been asked to take the final exams which is all in all the final assesment, the fact that i havent took up the first 3 exams.. and our trainer didnt even give me the things that i need to review for the exams.. for me this went tough and now im not even sure if im gonna pass the exams it was really hard for me to answer all the questions .. because i really need to read a very thick book.. plus what i really hate about today is that i aint got no money anymore.. this week is starting to get into my nerves their actually plucking my last nerve already. i failed the last exam.. im the coach and shit im the lowest?? yeah i understand that the other coach has been asked to take a lot of exams but i was not informed by the real operations manager that i should be taking this final exam .. and if i fail this there is no way i could go the Operational check.. .. i really cant take it .. but its really unfair because they all know the answers and our trainer already gave them evrything that they need to review.. and all i did was to read the manual im not a cheater and i really hate this. why dont they just throw me back to the old acct i like it there better. i dont want to loose my job because im planning to study and i love that was given to me by our previous operations manager.. i really hate this and yeah im thinking of backing out really thinking of backing out.. okay i gotta go catch you later..

Im here again inside the training room again.. today is quiz day .. i failed the 2nd exam but im still trying to pass the 3rd exam .. i think im not gonna pass this acct im looking but im still hoping for the best.. hmmm i even hate the schedule im not used to this kind of schedule anymore.. im sick with cough and colds because of teh aircon we have inside the training room.. im not gonna stop whinding because it really pisses me off.. and yesterday was the worst day i ever had..my training class is 6:30 pm.. i went of the house around 6:45..hehe! yeah im aware that im late for work.. imagine when i was about to get out of the house it rained so hard..and i really got all wet .. before i went out of the house i actually asked my younger brother to accompany me to the waiting shed so that i would be wearing a slippers and so i wont get all wet. However he was so lazy that is why i got wet and i decided to head back home and chaNge as soon i changed i found out that its actually my first day of the month. So after i changed eventually my younger brother decided to drop me off the waiting shed and wait for a jeep. Now i know im safe because at least im not all wet,however when i was about to pay my fare i found out that i left my money in my other pants pocket. The man infront me i think noticed that i was actually searching all my pockets.. i realized that i still have my coin purse in my bag so i went ahead and checked on it still im short because i only had 9.50 in my coin purse and i had to pay 7.50 for my first ride.. so to sum it all up i need 17 pesos.. expect the unexpected yeah i didnt pay my fare but i acted as if i already paid because the man infront of me keeps on staring at me wondering why i keep on searching my pockets *sigh*.. i was thinking of going back home but i was so late. W When i was about to ride the 2nd jeep going to work i found out the man infront of me was the man who kept on staring me .. i think he knows that i havent paid for my 1st fare grrr.. anyway i came in to work around 7:30pm .. so late .. i really hate what happened yesterday .. anyway wish me luck i need to catch up with alot of things

Ciao!

I finally got the coach position but still theres a catch i need to pass training so that i would really be certified. At first i dropped it since i'm planning to study law next semester. I've thought about this and prayed for my decision a million times .. i did not come in last wednesday because i actually called the trainer and advised him that i need to retract from the account . Maybe because i got scared about the information that i need to learn. And since i would be a coach i should know more compared with the agents that are on the floor right. I actually checked on the manual and damn do i hate numbers. I dont know why i applied for this position the fact that some of the coaches under my previous account aLready resigned. I wanted to retract and go back to Bellsouth i've thought about this several times however im still not sure if im doing the right decision or wether im on the right track. They said incase i fail the training i wont be able to work for bellsouth anymore this the hardest risk im willing to take just for my parents. Haha the funniest part is i actually asked advised from someone i dont personally know just so , you know to add up to the advises id been getting from my friends and my teammates .. My mom and dad only knows how to say one thing which is to grab it. whew! Now im being pressured for something i dont wanna do plus i even need to pass the phone certification. Huh things you do for your family. but still i will be studying next semester and iw ill be taking up law couRse by hook or by crook. Whats so different about this acct is that we need to memorize a lot of things. Compared with the previous acct that you dont need to memorize as long as you know a lot about computers you wouLd definitely be able to assist the cu with his concern. I'll miss the team .. and yeah in case i fail this training i wont be having a job anymore that is why i need to do good. And thats why i need to review a lot of times.. i dont know why im so fascinated by my textmate whew i just cant stop thinking about him. The fact that he never did approached me even though he was the one insinuating we meet that day. I'm starting to act so pathetic and last saturday i was with my previous teammates we went to Nevada its a ctually a place that i never wished id be in because for me that place is like hell. But eventually i went there just to see him. G brought his car that day, and well as soon as we went there he actually texted me that he already went home. I cant believe i got turned down that way. That is why im actually planning to change my number this friday. And yeah i will change my number this friday.. ive been using that number for 4 years actually and i really bad now that im planning to let it go.. I'm not sure if im gonna be able to pass this exam wish me luck.

Its really hard to have technical friends who knows too much about the runarounds on the internet.. i kept on changing my url and kept on disabling a lot of things here in my blog only to find out that they found it again.. whew *sigh*.. well i know for a fact that its really not a good idea to post an online diary.. i feel like my life is like an open book .. however im still glad that not at all the skeletons in my closet got revealed (but almost all of them). By the way, The HR manager in our center kept on bragging me this past few days to apply for a coach position in Green Dot Com ( a differeNt accouNT) i really wanted to apply however since im planning to study next year im not sure if i would be able to adjust to the new scheduLe.. baka maudLot nanaman pag aaral ko kainis.

Uhmm i met someone hes been my text mate i think for almost 8 mos (im not sure though) all i know is that the #8 is not a lucky number for me.. anyway we didnt have the chance meet like talk the way we use to everytime we exchange sms'.. and here's the funniest part of the story we were so awkward with each other that even though our table was to close he never dared to approach me and i never did as well.. maybe im just not that pretty or maybe im not that approachable but somethings' been different with me this past few days i never felt this kind of spark for a long time for years actually.. But.. yeah i think i like him. Hmm i'll get over this believe me. Nakakatawa pa kasi instead na akong kiligin mga kaibigan ko ang nakikilig sa kin, and they just kept on saying that maybe its about time i let go of what im really focused to which is to get rich and settled~~for my family.. before i think about entering into a relationship.. i dont know i've never waited for something like this but like i said just give me a month and ill get over this feeling.. I wonder why he doesnt look cute like the pictures i see on his friendster acct .. maybe because some people were really born to be photogenic.. too bad i didnt get it :( ..St PauliNes mother superior sent me an email again and said that she will stay here for a week next week. She said as well in her email that she wanted to see me and taLk to me since maybe she thinks Sr Terry doesnt have enough convincing power to let me continue the calling she keeps on saying .. whatever that is . My mom keps on saying that maybe one of these days i might just fall for it .. she said as well that i'll make her the happiest person in the world incase that happens. :) oh God forbid~ i really cant see myself with that veil.

i miss melai very much she even told me once before she left that incase i meet my textmate she should be the first one to know or that i should let her know about it something like that. Whatever happened to that , i texted her that day however she never did reply. well this is my promise to my self i shaLL not yield and that i wont text him anymore. I actually deleted his number however cris saved his number on her phonebook (and she doesnt want me to delete the number,so clever that she changed the name) , she said she might need him in the future since they need an architect. Rob is pressuring her to find a house or to find someoNe to who could help her with their dream house (i think). cris is the luckiest girl i've met so far .. her life is like a fairytale not that im jealous but i really hope she wont forget us and that she wont change.. sometimes money could blind you but as loNg as u look back to the things and the people who helped you grow. You would definitely notice just a single detail as soon as it hits u between the eye. I know she wont change . and ive always been praying for her .. always .. i hope this time God would also give me the Blessing i really wanted .. saglit lang anu bang blessing ang gusto ko!? .. Damn i sound so pathethic always.. aight i gotta go its getting dark now..abi said i need to be careful evrytime i pass by our waiting shed (bad guys just stole a lady"s cellphone yesterday).. i know they cant get anything from me since my celphone is so cheap (im not fond of buying expensice phones) however im too scared that they might just drag me anywhere.. and dilim pa naman sa min..

alright goota go! till next blog *wish me luck*

Love those who talk about you, because obviously you are the center of their universe

The days went by way too quickly! and i had the perfect birthday gift. 3 hours before my birthday a call was escalted to me it was a call intervention.And whew was it a pressure on my part. At the end of my call. The one who monitored the call blasted an email, whats worst was that everyopne who replied to the email who never monitored the call. Reeplied to that email as if they know what happened. I did not come in to work the following day, i was really sad that day, however i had to mask it because almost all of my relatives will be visiting to celebrate my birthday. It was whalbert's birthday as well.. too bad i forgot to get him something for his birthday. Right after my birthday i went back to work, and yeah all of them were asking for my blowout. Which im not sure would be a blast.

This weekend I'm really looking forward to hanging out with my friend and her soon to be husband. Hes planning to have a business here in Baguio. According to criz hes thinking about building a callcenter for skype account.. which for me is totally impossible. But who knows i might be the site director hehe! incase that happens.

Im not sure if i'd be able to hold on to this kind of job. Sometimes i really feel so tired even if i had enough rest. My friend has his own callcenter and wants me to work for him. Whats good about this center is that its a day job. Although the pay is so low compared with what im getting right now. However he said i could still get the salary i deserve because he would make sure all the benefits and allowances will be added as soon as the business is okay. Hhmmm, how can i tell when would his business be okay..Oh well life is really full of risks . Who knows i might suceed at that job , no one can tell the future. Which reminded.. of jeff cris' long time boyfriend, theyve been dating for like 6 years ( i think)~ before he went abroad to fullfill their dreams,however due to long distance relationship, cris met jerry and they had a cute baby jarrel. jeff and i were just texting each other yesterday after (almost 4 years i think), and he keeps on talking about how he feels about cris. *sayang*..Oh well i think thats what u really get because of not trying your best to at least visit her here in the philippines. Finally i bought myself an Mp3 although its just 2nd hand. But i know that this could at least be mah stress buster. Kainis nga lang laging hinihiram ng kuya ko.

Sana may katulong na kami. Lately talaga im being very irresponsible. And probably that was another factor that is why im losing my enthusiasm with my job.

Sometimes I wonder.

The job, it's ok. I mean, it's a job, but it still doesn't seem like the end all be all that I would stay here for years. I mean, we have good customers and there are some good people that work here, but in the end, it's just a job. And there are so many people here that live and breathe this that I am thinking burn out in the next year. I definitely don't want or need that. Hmmim planning to leave my job next month and join melai and mickey in manila. I hope that would push through.

Okay i gotta go now i cant wait for the doctor, my dad was suppose to help me for my check up since i was absent last aug 16. Ive been waiting for the doctor for hours now. Hes not in again and i dont want togo to another doctor.

*To everyone who greeted me last Aug 16 thank you. After all that happened to me.. what the hell Life goes ON.. :)

By the way i like this song!

MAKE ME WHOLE

Darlin' I want you to listen

I stayed up all night so I can get this thing right

And I don't think there's anything missin'

Coz a person like you made it easy to do

I've waited for so long

To sing to you this song

CHORUS

Coz your eyes are the windows to heaven

Your smile could heal a million souls

Your love completes my existence

You're the other half that makes me whole

You're the only other half that makes me whole

I think the angels are your brothers, yeah

They told about me, said "you're just what she needs"

And I find myself thanking your mother

For giving birth to a saint

My spirit flies when I say your name

If there's one thing that's true

It's that I was born to love you

CHORUS
You make my dreams come true over and over again

And I honestly truly believe

That you and me are written in the stars

I'd live my whole life through

Just giving thanks to you (?)

CHORUS

*Kinikilig ako sa txtmate ko ..baduy noh!

wheeew! still safe

A few more days and i will be celebrating my birthday.. u dont know how things has been going since i got promoted first our coach moved to manila..then i handled the team for almost 3 weeks i think.. after that i took the coach assesment exam and luckily i passed.. however im still a supervisor since there are only few agents here in the center .. and i cant see myself handling a team of my own.. but still im hoping that someday id be handling my own team.. the saddest part of this blog article is that meliza left for cebu.. she really decided to work there.. since a lot of things has been happening not just with entong.. things has been so complicated.. and im so glad GHE was there to help her out since cris and i are both busy with work.. and incase you noticed yeah i was able to find time to update my blog again .. finally.. well thats because im not doing anything here in work right now.. and well i just feLt that i shouLd update my bLog.. plus something surprising happened today my cousin whom i have never seen for almost 20 years added me up in yahoo.. and we were so excited to chat with each other.. i found out that my cousin yolanda cant stay up late.. the fact that we sleep at home around 2am wheew!.. i really hope i had her lifestyle.. well even though i do.. i would still remain a vampire forever beacause of my job :( stressfuLL right) .. okay gtg till next blog..

Still HAngiNg On!!

Its my 3rd week on split shift. I magine i spend almost 250 evryday for taxi and food. And i donth think i'd really be able to stick with this schedule but im trying my best, actually planning to apply for 2 more jobs .. since im on split shift theres this center 3 blocks away that teaches koreans how to speak in english since i'll be getting off work at around 2:00 I'm planning to work for just 3 hrs and teach english .. kahit medyo alam kong sablay ako sa english. I think they get paid 200 an hour im not quite sure though.. but 100/hr would be a big thing for me. The other sideline im actually thinking of is singing again .. but only during saturday and sunday.. just like old days they use to pay me 150/hr before .. 2 hrs woud be okay .. but im still not sure if id be able to pursue my plans .. coping up with the schedule i have right now is really tough .. what more if have 3 jobs. God permit!

I dont usually talk about stuffs here that should not be posted but i almost talk about everything since i dont have anything against anyone .. so far. But i'll be talking about something that really surprised not only me but all my friends as well .. its about my friend who hooked up with my other friend. For me it was really a big deal because they should know how far they should go.. they should know that crossing the thin line would really destroy something.. But their still lucky though because at least were all open minded.. and though its really hard for us to accept it .. well eventually the issue got closed .. but of course im sure they were really annoyed by everything that we said .. it might have hurt both of them .. but knowing that their really willing to change and admit what they have done was really a big thing,plus it actually made our friendship stronger.. kahit na di na nila ako tinetext.. i know sooner or later what we all used to have before will still be there.. even stronger. nakakaiyak tuloy! but whatever i said to both of you guys im really sorry you know me. at least we were able to get both sides of the story .. were not here to judge anymore,being friends for years is really tough to beat.. once again im so sorry in case we offended you.. i may not know the real explanation to your actions,.. anyway im sorry, were sorry!

Leonard went to Cavite for vacation, Melai said he will be going back to canada on june 9 , before he goes back there i really hope we would all be able to go to the beach, or to a simple resort. I think they wont be getting married till melai finds a job, but still we were all advising her to go ahead and marry leonard so she could work in canada, she loves him anyway and shes also willing to marry him . Melai is an engineering graduate and in sure there's a lot of oppurtunities there that she could try, compared here in the Philippines. But of course still everythings up to her..

I received a letter last week from Pauline Association, well incase you forgot i already posted here before about having a vocation.... being a nun???.. I really miss those sisters, the last time i went there was last year (august), that when i bought them a cake for my birthday. I miss Sister Terry and their funny Mother Superior who really shares a lot of experiences before she became a nun.. what i really miss about them is their being chirppy, happy .. no wonder they look younger than their age. But of course i know they are also dealing with a lot of struggles . Life is full of that. However all you have to do is to lift up evrything to Him.. and youll look younger as well.. gee nowonder i look older.

My coach just informed me not too expect to much. Well i'm not expecting to be promoted.. i think i cant be a coach yet..not yet ready .. and im pretty much contented and happy with what i have and with team as well. Altough i feel sad about the agent that got terminated .. because he looks like my cousin ,russell (however russell looks more cute) whos really close to me.. my cousin is on his 3rd year highschool,hes always a top student in class since he entered as a basketball player in city high.. he never thinks about girls and he always thinks about his dreams.. although sometimes i think hes gay! just kidding!.. well about his termination my coach said i have to be discrete with all the emails i receive and that sometimes some emails has to be kept confidential.. which i do agree.. but i just cant seem to wonder why i should not tell the agent that an email has already been blast.. regarding his termination.. well what would you feel if you see someone coming in to work without him knowing that he already got terminated.. and worst is the coach is not around to inform him that except me.. but this case has been closed,he was terminated anyway because hes been constantly acting that way since.. and for me im not sure if he would be given a reconsideration .. considering the fact that a lot of agents get terminated everyday due to stats, attitude and LTI..who knows i might be next.. hope not!

Last sunday was MOthers day! and i just kissed my mom.. monday was payday.. and since i was not able to get her anything im planning to treat her on saturday.. for a facial or dinner,,im still thinking about it shes always busy during weekends..by the way i also greeted My brothers' wife , shell be having a baby next week,im so excited! the first and last baby in our family. ahihi!

Tammie just added me on her friendster, she was my friends back in college.. "was".. and still my friend.. as long as she keeps in touch ..not unlike valerie who never answers my emails.. I really treasured this person back then .. and until now.. whatever happened to good ol' days.. i think the reason why valerie never emailed me back is because shes scared that i might open a topic abt her that would really make her feel bad..of course i wont! until now i still hold on to the memories we used to have..

CIAO!

stay away!!

A CLEAR PICTURE OF ME

Here is a clear picture of me!

i am julia styles in the movie Ten things i hate about you.. but im not quite the ending though.. nada! cant picture myself kissing in the carparki am reese witherspoon in the movie legally blonde.. since i always wanted to be a lawyer and sometimes i when i think almost everyones pulling me down i revenge..but its a good thing though coz i dont do the usual revenge you see in violent movies. i am amanda bynes in the movie what a girl wants i really attempt to prove that love can conquer all, and being highly respected in the society is my dream.. well all i can pursue so far in order to have that dream is singing .. who knows i might be like her, hey im very much open to adventures,hehe! okay enough of that.

I am also doree in the movie finding nemo.. i do have short-term memory loss.. so where did we end again?? hehe! oww yeah i am also jennifer garner in the movie 13 going 30 ..coz i love rushing things up which i know is bad thing.. plus i may look like 23 but i think like a 17 or 19 year old girl.. well thats what i heard from my folks.. i dont think its a bad thing at least i know how to think hehe!,let me rephrase that.. at least i know what is bad from wrong.. ang layo sa una noh!.. i am piper perabo in the movie cayote ugly.. uhmp i know how to sing confidently infront of my friends and family but as soon as i get on stage or as soon as i get hit by the spotlight i gag! i get sick!? (only once though) or i run.. cant do it! but im learning to get over it!.. I am Anne Hathaway in the movie princess diaries.. i hate to admit it but i am clumsier than her..and i am a very emotional person kaya nga lang the problem is i cant find the right one to share my emotions with except with my friends. like Anne Hathaway i am sometimes a kind of person who dresses whatever i want, But can still be elegant, elegant in the sense na as much as possible i want to be the star of the crowd.. (kapal) kaya nga lang kasi im always one of the crowd.well if you notice most of the movies are chick flicks , but for this next movie youll really get surprised coz before i was sara foster and Jordana brewster in the movie D.E.B.S..of course now im not them anymore..I hope so..alright ill cut it out! im starting to get confused again hehe!..Im was cameron diaz in the movie in her shoes, well that was before,back in college..it only lasted for 4 mos though.. men i really did partied a lot that time..but i realized that life is not always about happiness and meeting people.. but its about making use of your time wisely.. so i studied and eventually graduated with a degree im still trying to love hehe!.. I am also keanu reeves in the movie constantine matigas ang ulo ko hehe!.. I am also hillary duff in the movie raise your voice .. i can do something better specially when there is someone who really believes in me.. kahit isa lang okay lang sa kin pero nga lang tulad din sa movie sinusuyo rin siya.. ako yung taong tipong gagawin ko lalo na pag sobra yung panunuyo.. I am also Hillary duff in the movie perfect man kasi mahilig ako sa blog.. i am beyonce in the movie Fighting temptations kasi i love performing and winning of course i know everyone loves that .. but i really love perforning on the stage with a choir that really sings lively christian songs .. grabe tapos ako yung star.. and like beyonce im also a person na malaki ang pride pero ayun super iyak ako pag mag isa ko.. ah basta.. I am also julie andrews in the movie the sound of music i love teaching kids and being with kids lately.. and if id be given a chance to teach music to children.. i would definitely grab it!!.. I am also johhny depp in the movie Pirates of the Caribbean i can be too weird sometimes you wont really understand me.. and in the movie the window sobrang paranoid po ako but i dont have dual personality..i am also lindsay lohan in the movie Mean Girls i can get along with anyone i can be low profile sometimes i can act as a highly profiled person.. does this contradict what i just said about dual personality hehe! basta im sure u'll get what i mean. Plus i can also be lindsay lohan in the movie freaky friday.. i can really hate a person so much.. and be real bad ...but when its time to reconcile i think of the best way on how to reconcile this includes the right tool, it may be a letter or a thing that would really touch the persons ego i mean heart hehe, this also includes the right timing and the right words.. see i can be sweet! I am Jessica Alba in the moviehoney, coz i believe that the best way to suceed is not about getting it the easiest way, sure you can get it the easiest way but belive me you could never compare the happiness you'll feel in getting something that you really worked for. (like when i got promoted) although im planning to quit though.. but thats a different story. I am Adam Sandler in the movie 50 first dates. Coz i can make someone fall in love with me uhmp everyday.I am also Drew Barrymore in that movie , when i think i'm being a burden to someone i let go! but thats if i'm really being a burden.. marami pa eh! but im so tired typing already..

well to cut the story short im aice! someone who values her family and friends to much someone who really tries looks up to trials in life but kneels to God..my strenght and hope.. someone who finds time to unwind but still values time for work.. someone who forgets and misses things or events but really finds time to catch up..someone who hates people who looks down on you .. but what the hell i still care about them..after all life is not about taking things negatively.. hey i practice how to convert a negative action to a positive action ang hirap pala.. hope someone gets what i mean gulo ko noh! ok bye for now!

i need this for next post:

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tanga ko talaga

I got certified yeah, however i made a stupid decision last week.. i actually took the offer to be a dedicated product specialist for a certain team.. this job is more complicated im still a tier2 supervisor however i might be doing coaches job like edit agents punches.. send emails regarding agents concern, attend long meetings.. but im not concerned abt that, what im really concerned about is that the team is on forever "split shift".. meaning i have to come in around 8pm-12 am .. and then come in again at 9am-1pm.. im not sure if i can deal with this kind of schedule...kaya lang kasi i already said yes .., i havent had enough time for myself all i do is wake up get ready for work and then work and then work.. shesssh.. Lord help me with this.. anyway yesterday melai said she actually decided to get married no later than june .. it was a very quick decision that really surprised me.. and made me sad at the same time.. since ill be left alone.. no boyfriend and nothing at all whats left of me is my stupid job thats making me look ugly super haggard and shessh whatever .. life is really full of struggles.. if only i have the money to study law ..i will pursue my dream ..i really wanted to be a lawyer it all started in college.. im not sure if id be able to reach my goal.. evrything im doing is for my family's own good but i dont even feel being treasured not even thanked at all.. ang hirap talagang mag kapera.. buti na lang wala pa kong sariling pamilya hayy and lonely ko nanaman.. although melai said naman that shell be making me her maid of honor.. so im still looking forward to their wedding if ever nga matuloy.. im sure matutuloy yun... okay i gotta go now ..pray for moi!

Certified!!

I passed!!!.. finally i made it my only problem right now is how to act as a supervisor .. since i dont look like one..hehe.. i really hate the new dog we have shes very loud and very annoying.. my sister even named her after a showbiz star.. "cass" ..a starlet who joined the big brother first season.. i just heard today that melai and leonard are going out .. literally going out...all i have to say about this is uhmmm its really suprising and very much challenging for both them.. we all know how long distance relationship works and leons is really "hard to handle"..uhmp pretty much unpredictable but only when hes drunk.. although im sure they would be able to handle it..of course they should know how to handle it know that a better commitment blossomed between them.. love doesnt get better with without flaws..i cant believe in talking bout love.. i cant even remember the last time i fell in love.. coz i totally erased it from my memory..talk about "selective amnesia"....okay let me change the topic our salary will be increased within 3 mos.. God how i wish it will really increase..imagine i hardly get my breaks from work ...and the things is the job is really tough .. actually tougher that i thought it would be.. i really miss hanging out with my team i always find time to visit my previous team.. there should be alot of changes now .. altough im still not sure if ill be posting sad stories here but lets just see what happens after this.. oh by the way i already picture myself alone in the future.. i dont know,but i never get attracted to anyone anymore...not even to girls hehe.. maybe coz i really let myself concentrate on what i really want in life .. after trying to be a supervisor who knows i'll be applying for a better job and better position.. but of course being a singer should not leave the picture.. hehe! .. (do i dream too much???)...its my day off again and i need to do alot of things,as usual..my laundry uhmp and my laundry and....oh did i mention laundry??.. and if ever that dog gets into my way i dont care whatever happens to her or "it" but i might just kick it hard..sowe i really hate dogs.. (i just hope my sister wont see it*)..gosh i hate this comp shops' keyboard im having troubles typing..oh by the way april 19 was melizas bday.. and im so glad it was celebrated during my day off.. unfortunately i didnt stay that long since i had to review for the supervisors' exam.. which was really hard pass.. what the hell do i know about a mac computer.. i know the basic settings or options, but configuring it? forget it!!.. unless you would like me to experiment on it and act as an expert well.. i'd be more than glad to...MESS IT UP!! .. i have a new friend her name is Leizl she also acts like me ..shes really fun to be with..really funny actually .. just like me!!too bad i wont be able to see her for 5 days since she has to attend to her grandmas burial.. or berievement whatever you call it.. ill really miss her.. i wonder why mishi's not answering my ym geeesh shes always busy!! but i understand..and of course i know shes happy about the promotion i got.. i'm assigned as a KM which means i should always be in my best attire.. my best attire is sneakers, a shirt and a pair of jeans.. really stressfull..okay lets leave the work part..however, theres nothing more to discuss i gotta go now!! see you next post

why cant i

** i wonder why i always hear this soundtrack in every movie that i like, nowonder the lyrics is good, the message and the tune*** i just want to share it with you guys!!

Artist: Liz Phair Lyrics
Song: Why Cant I?

Get a load of me, get a load of you

Walkin' down the street,

and I hardly know youIt's just like we were meant to be

Holding hands with you, and we're out at night

Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right

And I've got someone waiting too

> is, this is just the beginning

We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you

It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it

So tell meWhy can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Isn't this the best part of breakin' up

Finding someone else you can't get enough of

Someone who wants to be with you too

It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch

Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch

But wouldn't it be beautiful

Here we are, we're at the beginning

We haven't fucked yet, but > heads spinning

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you

It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it

So tell meWhy can't I breathe whenever I think about you

I'd love for you to make me wonder

Where it's goin

'I'd love for you to pull me under

Somethin's growin'> for this that we can control

Baby I am dyin'

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you

It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it

So tell me

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

key points of life

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you..
2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

4.. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

pics

right after

Right after i posted these pictures ... i went back to work and we had our first day orientation for tier2 (supervisor).. the first day wasn't bad at all since we had a lot of breaks .. and we were really enjoying the moment of not taking in calls hehe.. second day went really tough.. we were oriented for the first 4 hrs the next 4 hrs was our first time to take in escalations.. i think my first call was about a router .. i actually conferenced the call with another callcenter or company...since its an unsupported issue oh well being a tier2 is really about going the extra extra mile. First week was really dreadfull imagine i even had a customer asking for a supervisor the fact that i already told him that im a supervisor (heller dont i sound like one! on second thought maybe i dont) with this kind of scenario we have to convince the customer that were the highest support they could get huh! (so wala silang choice).. saturday came again and i went back to la union this time to witness my cousins?? wedding im still not sure if shes my cousin my mom said she thinks shes my aunt hehe!! (now tell me bout philippine culture!! always close sa tao kuno) after eating lunch we went to a resort.. i actually didnt bring any shorts, underwaear,nor shirts .. so my aunties' sutor went ahead and bought us things we need to swim hehe! imagine we just went to san juan with my friends and this time with my realatives.. too bad my mom and dad didnt come with us since they had to stay and look after my uncle and my other cousins drinking...okay now about the resort...uhmp i actually forgot the name of that resort pero grabe this is so far the ugliest resort ive been to..imagine the pool doesnt look .. and the crowd grabe 8 girls na uhmp not that im judging pero they really look uhmp cheap...the outfit the way they talk and the way they act.. (at least i found a better word for po*po*).. see i shouldnt have posted these part pero they were really laughing at us since we cant swim.. first, they were with an old foreigner who left them hehe after hanging out with "the short girl"... my aunts' sutor even joked us saying that waters' already contaminated .. anyway we only stayed there for almost 3 hrs.. we decided to go back to the wedding and head back home to baguio.. i havent had the time to review as well i just spent the entire day off sleeping..
Then came 2nd week of being a tier2 supervisor.. ive been getting the worst issue to the weirdest issue.. but hehe wadya know i was still able to handle it!!.. except for the internet security software thats really pissing us all off. After 2 weeks our new coach said we will be taking a certification exam .. we have to pass this exam so our ssalary would be increased.. and incase we fail it we might be back to tier1 again ..which would of course be embarrassing on our part.. i wonder why i always feel tensed still everytime i take escalations.. then came saturday again hehe..me and cris were looking forward to coming back again to san juan this time with our friends.. i wasnt really sure if id be coming because of the pressure ive been dealing with as a tier2 plus i have to get ready for an exam which they said would be given by saturday.. i havent had the time to go on confession this holy week .. which is bad.. i usually find time to confess every holy week.. maybe ill do it by next week (i think). Well!! eventually natuloy ang swimming we went back to san juan this time not just with me and cris but with donna and melai.. donna even brought her 2 cute babies..and melai brought leonards memory with her (umuwi na kasi siya naks!!) hmp napansin ko nga monitored ang babaeng ito eh, well believe me after a year im sure they're goin to get married (everythings planned accordingly)..and moi still alone, still lonely sabi na nga bat akong tatandang dalaga dito bad trip kainis.. okay letv me tell you more about what happened last saturday since i feel lazy typing everything let me just narrow evrything down;
*ang taas ng alon.. kulang na lang ihagis talaga ako sa shore
*ang daming fish ...sorry po walang karne
*ang haba ng hair ni melai hehe
*ang bilis mag drive ng driver ng van namin
*ang sarap ng mangga at ang sarap mag kamay (inggit kayo noh)
*uhmp pacute ako sa pics
*napagalitan ako pag uwi ko (although i sure did asked permission from parents)
*hindi ako nakareview hehe
*hindi ako tumulong mag luto (i have to review eh)
*hindi ako umutim (daw!)
*haha this is the best !! for the first time i didnt left anything as soon as we left the place.. improving diba!..
** by the way before we went to san juan..we slept at cris place actually i havent slept at all.. hindi na talaga ako makatulog sa ibang bahay kahit katabi ko si melai.. uhmp cris had 3 boarders.. ung isa super duper dead kay mel .. oh well these pictures will tell u the whole story.. wish me luck with my exam ill probably take it by thursday.. God please help me pass this!

4 my former pillow

talaga yatang wala ng pag-asa
upang ako'y ibigin pa
pano mangyayari gayong
ako'y di mo pansin
pano mo malalaman sayo'y may pagtingin

lagi na lamang sa aking isipan
sana nama'y iyong maramdaman
masabi ko na sana
na minamahal kita
doon mo lang malalaman
pag-ibig ko'y hanggang

pangarap ka na lang ba
o magiging katotohanan pa
bakit may mahal ka ng iba
ngunit di bale na
kahit mahal mo sya
mahal naman kita

** i already deleted his number** = (

FINaLLy!!

FINaLLy!!
finally i got the promotion.. Thank you Lord although,the problem is the job would be more stressfull and harder.. as soon as i heard abt the news last march 31 .. i texted andrea since i really need to meet with her and go to church para at least naman diba mag pasalamat man lang ako kay Lord.. i havent had enough sleep again today as usual ..ang sad sad ng nangyari nung march 29 mah "pillow" texted me na may gusto raw siyang ligawan na kateam mate niya..sayang pingapra2y ko pa man siya.. ayaw siguro talaga ni Lord so may 7 taon na talaga akong single.. kainis kasi eh sana di na ko nagpakipot pero okay lang yun.. if hes not meant to be i dont care nah!! sayang kala ko ready na ko di papala siguro.. kakainis.. hayy ang dami kong pinuntahan nung day off. First i went to jarrells bday ayan nga eh dami kong pinost na pics diba.. mag eenjoy na naman si entong hehe kasi my picture ni melai.. hehe!! senxia na di ako photogenic pero at least nag improve na ko kasi nag popost na ko ng pics nun eh dati post tapos delete hehe,tanggap ko na di ako pretty eh...hehe. tapos after nun bday we went home arnd 3am.. nagising ako mga 8am.. dapat pala nagising ako mga 6 kasi nag tetext na si dona ng swimming hehe.. umalis ako ng bahay mga 9:45 para byumahe papunta sa san juan, la union .. hehe swimming ito ang saya..nga lang di ko kasama si dona kasama ko si cris pero okay ang ganda ng beach.. ang dadi ko galit na galit .. bakit matanda na man na ko diba.. wala man akong gagawing bad eh..
ang hirap pala sobra.. ui nanalo si keana reeves idol..he i actually voted for her.. kasi talagang she became true to herself and if ever rustom padilla didnt decide to do leave PBB.. malamang the competition would really be tough between keana and him.. and if ever naku ivovote ko si rustom padilla.. ang hirap kaya nun aminin mo na gay ka.. ako nga nahihirapan eh joke lang.. hehe.. ill tell you more tomorrow ciao!!

wedding with my parents

• my friends (donna, cris and melai)

**my parents**











**my brother eric and michelle,aileen and michelles grandma**









**my brother and michelle**









*dont we look.. uhmmp intoxicated.. this was taken during jarrels birthday*

not photogenic

~~~actually these pictures shouldnt be posted.. this is a collage of my worst pics.. super haggard ako nito.~~ now tell me do you know anyone whos tough enough like moi!

picture perfect

First 2 pics were taken at donna's place...
the last 2 pics were taken at the resort !! san juan, la union

dreaming

dreaming for a promotion .. oh Lord please allow me to have this chance ill make sure ill take care of it promise...

j_ st L_k_ H_eaV_N

I watched Just Like Heaven...*sigh!* :) ganda ng movie and it got me thinking, about how and why people meet. Some kinda like destiny. I mean why would God want you to meet people who are so different from you and why do these people sometimes become part of your lives. Parang sa movie, why hasn't she moved on and more importantly, the right question was bakit yung guy lang yung nakakakita sa kanya? I think at some point in your lives parang ganon nangyayari, we feel more alive with just one person who i guess is supposedly the "right" one for that time. Just as we feel more enthusiastic doing the things that we love, kasi it echos somewhere deep inside na that was what you were suppose to be doing during that time. We get some sort of completion knowing what you need and getting that during the time that you need it. All differences are set aside. But there will also come a time that you will realize that both of you've changed already. You've learned what you were suppose to learn and it's time to move on. Parang if that was where you were suppose to be 5 years ago, syempre this time, it's all but natural that you will be in another place na. It's like growing apart kasi both of you aren't headed in the same direction. It's probably God's way of preparing for other things to learn. So bakit kaya just like heaven title ng movie and blog ko? Kasi sa heaven, you meet all kinds of souls, and they all become part of who you are. And correct me if i'm wrong but isn't happiness all about being able to accept yourself in totality, for all the good and bad you can do? :)

Ang cute talaga ni Mark Ruffalo wala akong ma say!! hes facial expressions and evrything really turns me on!!

(*sigh*) sana ako rin...

if only

Today, today I bet my life
You have no idea
What I feel inside
Don't, be afraid to let it show
For you'll never know
If you let it hide



I love you You
love me
Take this gift and don't ask why
Cause if you will let me
I'll take what scares you
Hold it deep inside
And if you ask me why I'm with you
And why I'll never
Leave
Love will show you everything



One day
When youth is just a memory
I know you'll be standing right next to me


I love you You
love me
Take this gift and don't ask why
Cause if you will let me
I'll take what scares you
Hold it deep inside
And if you ask me why I'm with you
And why I'll never
Leave
My love will show you everything
My love will show you everything
My love will show you everything
My love will show you everything


**this is a song sang by jennifer love hewitt in the movie if only.. my friends say that i actually look like her ...i dont believe in that coz she looks prettier than moi! ..anyway the movie for me is all about giving importance to the one you love....everyone appreciates small things ..i do!!.. This movie got me thinking.. Live your life the best you can cause tomorrow it could all be over.you can never make too much efforts to show someone how much you love them.at first this movie seems too unrealistic but it's true that something big needs to happen before we start thinking about our actions. somthing small and silly could have so much meaning and we just don't see it. this movie really opens eyes. I'm glad i found this movie and I wont hesitate to pass on it's message. its actually one of my favorite movies...****all my team mates expect me to be promoted next week to tier2 im not feeling it anymore.. id probably drop it as soon as i find out i got promoted.. plus our new siebel tool really sucks!!!.. whoever invented that tool is really stupid (mr siebel).. the idea of opening tickets is cool.. but the tool is really slow and is very inconvenient for us agents.. i really hope someone would actually start a petition to boycott this tool.. God please dont give me any surveys today i was not doing good with my calls ..using that siebel tool really locked my confidence..but anyway im still glad because its our day off today.. hehe! at least i wont be getting any surveys for 2 days.. and i just came from my 3 days leave.. i was actually planning to go down to Manila and find a better job.. but a lot of people just keeps on bragging me not to go there.. the main reason why i would like to work in manila is because i would like to try being independent.. alone.. it would probably help me be more responsible!!.. whatever lets just see what happens next week... i'll just keep my fingers crossed ..again!!!.. bahala na si Lord.. but just incase i ound out that my name is not included in the list of new tier2s thats okay with me.. tanggap ko na!!.. ill just keep on trying...too bad im not a kiss ass person .. i still believe that you can pursue whatever you want through patience and through hard work some agent only got promoted because their the kind of people who loves kissing asses.. im not that!! something tells me that i should but like i said "i shall not yield".. ciao!!

in her shoes

i carry your heart with me

i carry it in my heart

i am never without it

anywhere i go you go, my dear;

and whatever is done

by only me is your doing, my darling

i fear no fate

for you are my fate, my sweet

i want no world

for beautiful you are my world, my true

and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

here is the root of the root

and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;

which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide

and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart

i carry it in my heart

—-E. E. Cummings

*** for those of you who havent watched this movie uhmp well all i can say is i loved it its nice to see cameron diaz act that way..."In Her Shoes" starts out with the materials of an ordinary movie and becomes a rather special one. The emotional payoff at the end is earned, not because we see it coming as the inevitable outcome of the plot, but because it arrives out of the blue and yet, once we think about it, makes perfect sense. It tells us something fundamental and important about a character, it allows her to share that something with those she loves, and it does it in a way we could not possibly anticipate. Like a good poem, it blindsides us with the turn it takes right at the end.****

ayoko na mag post!!

Magmahal Muli

Sam And Say

Umaasang magmamahal muli

Ang buong akala ko’y siya na

Kabiguan ang napala...Paghilom ng puso’y hindi madali

Ang malamang mahal mo’y Walang pag ibig sayo

Ang umasang magmahal muli

Siyang magagawa

Huwag hanapin ang pag-ibig

Ito’y darating

Ito’y daratingIto’y darating sayo

Hanggang sa tayo’y matuto

Sa kabiguan natamo

Kaya ako ay maghihintay

Sa tunay kong mahal

Isipin ang bukas at kalimutan ang nakalipas

Ang umasang magmahal muli

Siyang magagawa,Huwag hanapin ang pag-ibig

Ito’y darating sayo

Aking naranasan Ohhhhhhh

Ang pagluha ng tulad sa ulan

Ang umasang magmamahal muli

Siyang magagawa

Huwag hanapin ang pag ibig

Ito’y darating

Ang umasang magmamahal muli

Siyang magagawa

Huwag hanapin ang pag ibig

Ito’y daratingIto’y darating

Ito’y darating sayoOhhhhhhh…..ito’y darating sayo

tomorrow

tomorrow will be my brothers wedding = ( .. im not sure if im happy for him ..a lot of things happened this past few days.. im actually still working as a low profile call center agent.. last month i flunked 2 crift surveys probably it was due to the promotion process that happened during the first week of january.. plus i wont be coming in today , i cant and i should not come in coz tomorrows my brothers big day.. and hes actually expecting me to sing,, i really hope that they will allow me to be absent today.. baka kasi magalit sa kin ung team at nakakahiya talaga sa kanila.. kelan kaya ako makakarest ng maayos kainis.. till then

wat i do everyday is....!!

A moving image:

First Fail (My Head Is Bloody But Unbowed)

After awhile I though this year would be something i could look up to. I just had mytFirst Fail for this year as i came in to work i found out that there were able to ramp up the next tier2's and unfortunately i was not included in the list again.. Siyempre una dedma ang lola mo! and just so hindi nila makita na super bad trip na ko ayun nag cr na lang ako saglit just to compose my self. Grabeh ang sama ng feeling ko, the reason why i really feel bad is because i was very confident about my exam since parang naulit lang yung mga questions nuon although it has been rephrased, and another reason why i really feel bad is because mas na promote pa yung earlier waves kesa sakin. Kaya nga feeling ko wala na kong maharap na mukha.. or am i just being hard to myself.. parang ang labas ko tuloy is capital "S" as in tulad ng customers ko na iba "S t u p i d" .. sabi nga ni mish at halos lahat ng tao "patience is a virtue" and that the Lord has better plans for me.. eh ang nakakainis nga eh di ako malakas kay Lord eh.. I've been praying so hard, pati nga family ko sobra na ang prayers nila para sakinbut still nothings happening.. kakaiyak nanaman.. wala talagang tigil ang ulan sakin bad trip! bakit kaya??!! nakapagtataka..hehe!

Sometimes i think maybe this is Gods sign. Uhmm that i should go ahead and find a different job or move to manila and try to be on my own,kaya lang Dito nga lang sa Baguio i have to confide my friends PeRsoNaLLY about my problems, eh pano kaya kung nag iisa na ko dun dava! taray ko,, eh simple lang naman ung gusto kong trabaho eh maging Flight Attendant or maging singer naks or attorney rin! kaya lang alanganin nga lang akong makapasa sayang!

I met with cris today as usual i have to tell someone about how i feel..im so glad shes always there for me kahit my sarili rin siyang problema. Before Lunch i tried calling the 2 companys na kumukuha sa kin

CHONA IDOL..

aydol chona mae
Monday, July 26, 2004

Trial only

=) Heloh! I'm Chona Mae. I work as a helper for my ate at kuya. I helprich families in cleaning their housold chores and their surroundingstoo. Is my first time here in the Manila. Actwally, is not Manila butValle Verde. My neighbors here in Valle Verde are big houses with richfamilies just like my ate and my kuya. Before in the past I lived inthe province in the town of Romblon but now I'm here in the ValleVerde because my ate (mam tess or ate tess for short) and my kuya (sirarnold or kuya arnold for short) live here. I am a happy person todaybecause my ate and my kuya teach me to use computer in the internet. Idont know internet and computer before coz i am only high school wayback then but ate and kuya entered me in a bocational school. i go tost. chamuel technological institute near the pasig church. its theschool near greenich pizza on the first floor with ukay-ukay on thesecond floor. the school in itself is on the third floor but aircon. ilearn to travel the internet and do website that is why i have this.Anyways, let me tell you somethings about myself. I stand 5'1" feettall and I'm 130 pounds. I am not fat but I am also not thin. Chabyonly. =) I like chocolates and candies. I also like the McDonaldsbecause it is in aircon. I go to school at night but i clean thehousehold chores on days but I stopped in the school coz my ate and mykuya stopped me coz i get tired a lot. i cry and cry coz i luv schoolcoz staying in school is cool and i learn a lot. but it is good thatmy ate and my kuya buy me a old computer. their son )kuya jeff or sirjeff for sure) go to States to study so they give me his old computeror PC (personal computer). i am tired now and i am sleepy so i willsay goodbye in the meantime coz i have to wake up early to clean thehousehold chores and ready the breakfast of the house. i feel sleepyalso. i will just tell you about all the happenings here in the house.bye! that's all folks!

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

i hate mam tess

"Hay naku, chona mae! puro ka lakwatsa! mamamasyal ka lang! kaya ngatinuruan kitang mag-internet di ba? pwede mo silang sulatan sa e-mail!matulog ka na at maaga pako bukas! puro kayo sakit ng ulo!"I cry andcry last night until i sleep. pano ko naman sila susulatan sa internete wala naman kaming PC (personal computer) sa romblon. hindi ngamarunong magmakinilya sina mama at papa e. nami-missed ko na talagasila. sabi ko nga kay mam tess, kung gusto niya, ihahatid na lang akong driver nila na si ambet para siguradong uuwi ako kagad lalo namangnagalit. hindi muna ako hihiling ng kahit ano kay ate kasi baka lalongmagalit. balak ko po namang umadbans sa sweldo sa katapusan kasi gustokong bumili ng bgagong cell. sira na kasi yung 5110i ko e. nahulog sawashing mashing. haaay naku. ang sungit talaga ni ate pag minsan.siguro menopos na. sabi nga nung katipan ni sir jeff pag kaaway niyayung kaibigan nilang si marinel, betch! betch ka talaga mam tess.sungit mo! i'm hate you!

posted by Chona Mae @ 3:19 PM

Reynanteng pangit

Thanks God sa wakas tapos na rin ang trabaho ko. hindi na masyadonggalit si mam tess sakin. binigyan pa nya ako ng mga luma nyang damitkaya lang di ko rin naman magagamit kasi lagi naman akong naka-uniformhindi pa ako pinapayagang lumabas. maghulog nga lang ng sulat sa poseoffice e kataku-takot na sermon na ang inabot ko kahapon. haaay naku.ang hirap talagang magpalaki ng amo. ito pa ang isang nakakainis. inisna inis talaga ako dun sa tagadiliver ng gasul na si Reynante.chinansingan na naman ako kanina. hmp! kainis! nagpapa-cute di namancute. tuwing iaabot ko yung bayad, lagi hinihimas yung kamay ko.kainis talaga! tapos ang sabi pa lalo daw ako gumaganda pagnakasimangot ako kaya ngumiti ako para mapangitan sakin tapos nungngumiti ako, sabi kinikilig daw ako pakipot lang daw ako. kainis!pangit mo reynante ampangit pangit mo. tae ka! tae mo, ang baho-baho!i'm not crush with you! mas pogi pa sayo si sir jeff no!posted by Chona Mae @ 5:37 PM

Wednesday, July 28, 2004

Malling

Heloh to all! I'm so exciting today coz mam tess is going mallingtoday. she wants me to join her. i think she's no longer angry with mecoz she smile at me this morning and she is taking me to the mall. shesays that she wants to buy shopping. akala ko nga masusuot ko na yungdamit na bigay nya kaya lang she wants me to wear uniform para disentedaw. here at home when i clean the household chores i wear the skirt uniform. monday wendsday and friday is the sky blue one but ontuesday, thursday is the green one. on saturday and sunday i wear thedark blue but mam tess teach me that it is royal blue not dark blue.basta yun. but on parties and events here at home i wear the pantsuniform that is all white so i look like a nurse in saudi. when we gomalling mam tess want me to use the pants uniform. i'm so exciting butsad also at the same time coz i cant watch marina in the TV but itsok. sana we go to glorietta or greenbelt and rackwel too. coz its nicetheir. sawa nako sa megamall at greenhills and there are many actorsand actressess from TV and movie also in rackwel. that's all folks!tawag nako ni mam tess. i wish that she buys me one blouse or t shirtor sandals too especially the step in sandals. =)

posted by Chona Mae @ 5:50 AM

Thursday, July 29, 2004

shopping in greenbelt 3

mam tess and myself are go to greenbelt 3 yesterday. mam tess buysdressess in mix. i thot that she will also buy me one but i sure thatshe gives them to me next year. she also buys shoes but mam tess dontwant step in sandals. i saw a beautiful step in sandal and i say toher: "mam ito po maganda" but she gets angry and she tells me that "e!ang pangit! ayoko nyan. ano ka ba naman?" hindi na lang ako nagsalitabaka magalit lalo. pero maganda naman talaga yung step in e. dah!their pretty kaya. i get tired walking and walking and following mamtess all over the mall in greenbelt 3 and bringing all her shoppingmaterials coz mam tess dont want to carry her paper bags. she onlywant to carry her sholder bag.i see many pretty people in the mall andamericans too also. mam tess order cofee at the cofee shop. i wantcofee also but she did not buy me. i'm hungry already but mam tess isnot yet hungry that is why i dont eat. hindi ko naman pwede sabihin nagutom ako kasi sasabihin maarte ako. haaay.mam tess finished shoppingalready and she meets her friends but they are not actwally friendsbut amigas. they are watch a movie. i was exciting when her amiga mamjosie ask her to watch a movie. i love watching movies and this is myfirst time to watch in a class mall but mam tess did not invite me.she give me money and she ask me to eat at jollibee in greenbelt 1 andwait for her at the cofee shop. i dont like jollibee coz my favoriteis mcdo. she give me 100 pesos. i went to jollibee coz mam tess islooking while i am walking but when i see her that she is not lookingi go to mcdo coz i love mcdo. i'm go to mcdo and i order quarterpounder. i eat many coz i'm very hungry. other girls are looking at mepero di ko alam kung bakit. i think its that pants uniform i wear cozthey think i'm a nurse in saudi but the paper bags i bring are allfrom expensive stores and the resibo are staplerd in the outside ofthe paper bag. i dont get shamed coz i have many shopping materialsand they are all class. i went to the cofee shop after eating in mcdo.i wait there for long coz the movie is long. im tired and the driverwill only come to us after mam tess calls the driver on the phone cozthe driver is joining sir arnold in the office. mam tess finally cometo me at the cofee shop but her amigas are gone. mam tess say that thedriver is already in the parking lots so we have to ride the elevatorto go up. i follow mam tess and the driver is there and we went home.the traffic is long and heavy but we come here at the house after along time. home sweet home. i go to sleep coz i'm tired.

posted by Chona Mae @ 3:51 PM

Monday, August 02, 2004

tired

Is been many days since i last write here coz i am very busy with workcoz weekend is major cleaning in the house. i'm so tired. very much.the house is very big and i am the only one person cleaning all thehousehold chores. mam tess always say: "bukas lilinisin nating angbuong bahay ha. gumising ka ng maagap tapos grocery tayo sa rustans"but she doesnt clean the household chores she is only shouting andshouting and telling me instructions."magsimula ka sa kwarto ng sir jeff mo" and then i go there to clean. on my way up as i am climbing theupstairs of the house, i hear again mam tess saying:"o? chona? asan ka na? di ba sabi ko eto munang kusina? ano bangpinagkakaabalahan mo dyan? computer na naman ano?"heloh! dah! sabi mo kwarto ni sir jeff tapos magagalit ka at biglamong sasabihin na sa kusina muna. layo nun sa kusina no. the kitchenis in downstairs and the room of sir jeff is in the upstairs. heloh!are you drugs? inis! tapos bintang kagad may masabi lang. bakit pakasi di na lang ako hayaang dumiskarte. diskarte ko na to mam. sino bakatulong dito? ako di ba? amo ka e. amo! do you clean? no! you are notclean! i clean! you only pay me! is sir arnold pay you to shout at meand make epal in my cleaning? no! you are not! he is not! i know thatif it is weekend, i do major cleaning all over the house. i clean allrooms and the cabinets and do floorwax and mopping. i wipe allappliances and clean the car but i think the driver should clean thecar coz i am not use it. did i? i also wash your clothes and yourlaundry and then iron them tomorrow. in cleaning the household chores,i know that i clean all over the house so if it is my room first thati clean, is the same coz after the day, when it is already night, allover the house is clean and tidy. my hole body is painful. i miss mamaand papa and sir jeff too coz he is in the states. =)p.s. i have new knowledge. i know how to slide letters already likethis and double write them so its thick letters not thin lettersanymore like this.

posted by Chona Mae @ 11:53 AM

i have email!

hi! is me again, chona mae banaag but you can call me chona for sure.i say this coz many people are asking and for you also to know my fullnames. i post a picture of mine tomorrow maybe but if not, maybe nexttime maybe. i am surprise coz many people are exciting in this site.they cannot wait for me to write again. i just want to say hi to allof you. you know who you are and thank you for visiting me like Je,cesxy, teki, trina, patricia, gwen, dark winter (is that weather?),psycholoves, and to anonymous also. i try to go to your sight in theinternet but cannot understand sometimes coz the english are deeperalso. mine is deep but yours are deeper. hope you write me also yourexperiences with your sir and mam so we can relate and i will alsowrite them hear. you can write to in the internet by email. my emailadd is (emailnichona)@yahoo.com coz i get sad a lot coz mam tess dontwant me to go to the pose office to write to my mama and papa. i wantpenpals. i cannot have textmate coz my phone is destroyed when itfell. they say that i also have chat in YM but i dont know how to chatin YM but i will write to you once i have new knowledge. thanks for dspace.

posted by Chona Mae @ 4:12 PM

Tuesday, August 03, 2004

To Anonymous:

someone write in the comments and say that i am a poser. no. i am nota poser. i am a helper but before, i dream and ambitioned to be amodel and pose in posters and magazines and newspapers (small and big)but it didnt come true. sometimes i pose on picture takings especiallyin christmas here in valle verde coz mam tess dont let me go home toromblon sometimes coz she needs help to ready the party of the houseand if i leave, no one will clean the household chores and the housewill be dirty. i am not a poser but i pose sometimes. ok? peace.p.s. ianswer teki's questions maybe later maybe coz i'm busy. but just alittle bit. =)posted by Chona Mae @ 10:40 AM question and answer portionmany of you are ask many questions. i dont know why. but hear are myanswers to all of the questions that you are asking. first, i answer teki's questions and the question of her helpers coz they say teki is the boss:

Questions:

1. hindi kasi ako marunong magplansta. kahit naplantsa ko, nagugusotpag suot ko na. May tips ka ba pano magplantsa?

2. nagagalit ako sa labandera namin. una, ang bilis bilis nya maglabatapos parang may mantsa palagi yung mga white blouse ko. Kayanagpapalaba na lang ako sa laundry shop kahit mahal. Ano kaya angdapat gawin ko?

3. marunong ka bang magluto? pano magluto ng menudo?

4 crush mo si sir jeff no?

5. sino kamukha ni mam tess?

6. kelan ulit tayo magshopping ni mam tess

Answers:

1.im not an expert but i know little only. but mam tess say im good.nagugusot talaga ng konti ang damit pag sinusuot but i think youshould be steady in wearing your clothes or dressess coz if you move alot, magugusot damit mo but my uniform (the skirt and the pantsuniform) i almirol them so they wont get gusot. even if i move a lotof times and clean the household chores, it is still hard but itchysometimes but its ok. but mam tess clothes and dressess are alwaysstraight. hindi nagugusot i think that is coz she is class.

2. dont be angry with your helper. i know she is doing her best andher all to wash your clothes and clean your laundry but maybesometimes it is not enuogh. you should study to wash your very ownclothes but dont get angry at yourself if there is a mistake in yourown washing coz is your fault.

3. i know how to cook. im all the round. i know how to cook menudo cozit is sir jeff's favorite food. =)

4. im not crush with sir jeff. heloh? he's pogi but im not crush withhim. and its ok if i have a crush in him coz crush is paghanga onlybut im not crush with him. =)

5. mam tess look like butch anson roa the actress. i think she is also a senator.

6. i dont know when mam tess will go shopping again but i dont know ifyou can join us coz its only mam tess and myself. sorry... =(

posted by Chona Mae @ 11:01 AM

bwisit ka reynante!

i'm really hate with reynante. filling masyado. filling pogi. ampangitnaman. i was cleaning the kitchen. wiping the kitchen showcase of mamtess and then someone doorbelled. i go out and i see reynante. i sayto him:"kakadiliver mo lang nung isang araw di ba? di naman ako tumatawagsayo a. ba't ka andito?"and then reynante just smile and say:"miss na kita e. bakit? bawal ka bang dalawin? miss mo nako no?"i close the door with a bang and i leave him outside. i bang the doorso that he knows that i'm angry with him. hmp! inis! nakakagigil!pangit pangit! after a short time, he doorbelled again. i go out againand he is gone but he left flowers at the floor near the gate. he left3 flowers. i get the flower coz mam tess and sir arnold will be comingsoon and they will get mad coz there is trash in the gate. i get the flowers but i see that the flowers are from our outside garden.reynante destroyed the flowers of mam tess coz he gets three fromthem. asar! papahamak pa ko! bwisit! magagalit na naman si mam tess.naku! reynante ikaw ang bwisit ng buhay ko! asar! pangit! baho mo!

posted by Chona Mae @ 10:10 PM