The End of My BLog... :(

My Blog ends here now ... damn its so hard to let go of the only treasure that I have ...

Anyone who reads this would eventually know who the real me is.. although its true that the stuffs before 2005 was not here still this is how i get along with life.. ang drama ko noh.

Why should I end my Blog?

Well its because Ive been thinking from the time na binasa ko talaga siya... na iba rin pala ako makwela nakakatuwa.. sobrang senti na kahit papano di nag tatanim ng galit.. ngaun di ko lam kung magatatanim ako ng galit.. I'll just continue and move on....sana di ko na lang binasa sabi ko ibang tao lang mag babasa nito eh ... at di ako.. anyway kahit papano I got to know the real me... exam namin ngaun ahehe.. tapos ayun balak ko mag people suport pero aral pa rin ako .. yun nga lang sa UB na kasi kahit masakit sa loub ko ...tuloy ko na lang ..

I'm going to keep my Blog open now for people to read .. I don't care if they laugh about my wrong spellings or grammar.. I never edit my blog .. I write down what I feel that day and publish it... my mga kinopya man akong blog articles sa ibang blog... eh wala lang trip ko lang din...aheheh .. To my GG tuloy parin ,,, no matter what people would say.. she knows everything about me na... and It was really hard for me to tell those things masecreto man ako I make sure pa rin na sinasabi ko sa mga close friends ko... my mom always tell me to have friends that I should trust .. sila cris at melai un and I tell them everything... I cry over

small things hehe ako lang talaga yun ...

Ang hirap pakwalan itong blog ko ito sobra... naiiyak talaga ako .. iniisip ko nga lang kagabi eh naiiyak na ko.. pero di bale na .. bahala na.. I'll keep this open na diba.. bahala na yung makabasa okay lang sa kin.. masaktan na ang masaktan ... at least kahit papano alam nila .. pero I love them all kahit ganun ahehhe...

sige na alis na ko review na ko...

BYE TILL THEN

SHALLOW

To shallow..
To shallow..


But shallowness could still drown you It's just simple If you just walk.. But if you tip over and try not to get back on your feet fast It will eat you..


See my greatest fear is if its dark although its shallow Since you get scared, you get stuck and then you feel like drowning.

I have you.. and you let the light shine on me Sometimes I wish that it would shine more brighter Because I feel like it blinks once in a while

And then I remember I still have myself and I have to get up while i'm savouring each moment that I see your light.

cute ba .. la lang ..... kun makarelate ka di okay.

hehe.. hindi nagrhyme... bad trip na lng talaga .. kainis ang mga tao.. di na nga nag papaapekto kasi kababawan leche madali lang aminin kung true yun eh .. eh di naman.. hayyy nagiging big deal tuloy ...

Oh by the way kahapon pala nag exam kami ng property.. Mag UUb na ko next semester.. masama man sa luob ko pero okay na rin para kasama ko siya.. eh wala naman daw sa school eh ... nasa passion lang talaga.. try ko kaya mag top dun aheheh.. baka mag pamisa mami ko sa lahat ng simbahan pag nangyari yun.. speaking of my mom.. hayy miss ko na sila.. dibale after exam babawi ako sa family ko... sa sarili ko at sa GG ko .. uhmmmp sa friends?? tignan natin check ko kung may time pa .. joke.. eh puro busy na lahat ng kaibigan ko si Donna lang talaga inaalala ko .. she used to be different she never drinks since nag ka anak na siya.. kainis na joel yan sabi na nga ba malas sha eh.. hehe I remember I sent him a message simula nun nalaman ko ginwa niya kay donna ... sabi ko "PANGET" .. kasi totoo naman .. na takot pa si mel kasi YM niya so I told him.. "SI Aice 2" .. and I never talk to him that way.. formal kami mag usap nun eh joke.. di ko siya kinakausap gaano for short una pa lang ayoko na kay Donna yun eh .. kainis kasi naman dun pa eh mas okay na si mike at Gomer sa kanya kahit ayoko kasma si Gomer nun kasi hehe... di ko feel itsura nya.. bad ko nuon.. pero bago na ko ngayon..


Joanne and I are okay naman ayun nahanap na niya blog ko.. and yesterday was the first time I actually read almost everything in my blog.. ganda pala kahit papano I learned na masayahin din pala akong tao kahit papano.. I just hate some of my friends now.. because they don't look at me the way they used to see me.. I never changed .. just because of a rumor that's not true.. they see me different.. after my last break-up na sobrang heartbroken ako I tried my best to live on my own kasi ayoko na .. the truth is ayoko magaya sa mga kamag anak kong.. na babaliw aheheh dahil sa love.. dami ko pa gusto gawin sa buhay ko noh pwede ba.. nag papaligaw pero as much as possible i try my best na patagalin ang panliligaw nila naks para makita ko kung okay nga sila.. eh nawawala naman nag gigive up.. tsk yabang..malamng na T.T.O. ata (malay) hehe.. pero nahuhulog din ako aaminin ko pero i never show it kasi i know i could get over that after a month or 3 months... hehe...

I hate this site coz some of my posts are not here I make sure I enter details about whats going on with my life at least every month yun na yung least.. kainis talga.. I've been trying to find the post I enetered about paulie.. so I could read and remember what kind of feeling I used to have back then .. baka andito lang.. di ko lang mahanap.. magulo lang.. makikita ko rin yun.. kaya lang kasi as much as possible ayoko na basahin blog ko.. gusto ko ipasa na lng pag kailangan ipabasa...

There's this book I once read about Anne Frank I remember she said in her Diary that they will be choosing the best diary to be read by the people after the war. She kinda hoped that it would be her diary and eventually her diary was published. Well as for my diary I want it published din pag na dedsu na ko.. impossible nga lang ..

Melai quit her job and cris finally has her own "secret business" .. Mag tutubig hehe.. I'm so happy for her. But sometimes I miss hanging out with the old her laid back lang tapos .. we talk about stuffs that we should do. She really good when it comes to business, honestly I got surprised and shes doing a good job as well. Except sa part na lagi silang away ng away ni Rob.


I really hate caloi.. I hate her grabe nainis na talaga ako at punong puno na sakanya.. leche siya.. no wonder few na lang friends niya.. tapos babwasan pa niya kaibigan ko kainis tlga .. kainis sobra.

I told Joanne not to read my blog anymore not unless I ask her to.. and i trust her on that.. sana naman di niya mabasa ito.. I know my life may be full of negativity pero she's the only person na nag parelize sa kin na kung panu dapat gawin ko.. kasi naman yung "The Secret" na libro na yan .. kainis wala.. I shoudl have not let her read my blog.. kasi balak ko ibigay yung book na "the Missing piEce" nun mansary namin.. I said to myself I bibigay ko yun sa taong talgang na faLL ako.. eh sa blog ko ibigay ko sana kay Jeff .. pero ayaw ko nga ibigay.. kupal yun.. the thing is Ican't find the book and its hard to find that book sobra.. kulang na lang eh mag beg na ko sa mga friends ko sa manila.. hala andami kong di nagagwa ngaun .. di ko na mamail friends ko .. na gusto ko anjan pa rin at nalalaman na Buhay pa ko.. aheheh Ganito PaLa.. pero hindi rin magagawa ko rin yun.

Grabe I love her.. talaga minsan nga gusto ko mag give up.. pero ewan ko ba somethings telling me not to.. I know I'm a shallow person .. pero sabi ko kay Lord if ever he gives me one I'll try my best not to be one..


Heheh .. madami kong gusto ikwento.. nun birthday ko pala .. exam namin sa sales... bagsak ako dun sa subject na yun kainis... 70 lang ako.. si pearl .. sus 82.. the exam was so easy pero kasi preoccupied ata ako nun eh.. I know .. I should have not done this.. pero I've been telling you before na 2 and 7 lucky number ko diba.. so ayun nun 27 na ko something happened before the exams na ang saya saya ko.. kasi la talga akong care nun parang basta iba.. I told her everything na .. some of it wala sa blog ko kasi before 2005 pa.. pero everything na feeling ko big deal.. pero bakit ganun di man naging big deal sa kanya.. saya.. hayy sabi na nga ba eh babaw ko talagang tao. So anyway. to cut the story short at nobela na ito saka na lang ako kwento sa next blog ko.. uhmpp naging kami nun 15 .. after a long time sa wakas naka kiss na rin ako..wahehe.. hmpf.. sana di mabasa nila cris ito tatawanan ako pero okay lang din kwekwento ko rin lang eh .. anyway ang saya ko nun grabe .. sobra.. kaya siguro di rin ako nakakaconctrate sa sales nun kasi sales subject nirereview ko nun eh. Hala maiinis sa kin ng konti friends ko pag nalaman nila ginagawa ko sa school ko .. gumagaya na ata ko kay joana.. (di man siguro).. joana finally decided to enrol her law subjects na kala nun parents niya na natapos na niya kasi graduate na siya. Loko yun papuntahin pa ko sa graduation niya eh di man siya nag graduate parang niloko ko rin mom niya.. pero okay lang din kasi kutuwa yun ginawa niya.. nag drama na nag tatae daw hehe kaya hindi nag march nun day na un... and at least she's trying her best to move on after Res.. saya puro names na ko sa blog ko.. kasi naman sabi ni Joanne bakit hindi daw names .. eh kasi naman puro technical ung mga kawork ko feeling ko binabasa pa rin nila blog ko eh wala na ko dun sa sitel.. malaman pa nila kadramahan ko sa buhay .. haayy

Tulog si Joanne and she knows I'm doing my blog .. sana ako napapanaginipan niya.. kainis kasi eh lagi daw siya nabbangungot feeling ko tuloy ako nga nasa dream niya.. waahh baka nakikita niya scary face ko wahehe.

Bow!

Sorry.....

Sowee. . . . . . . :(
To my family I'm sorry coz I'm failing in School But I'll do my best to get myself back on the right track I'm sorry coz I don't have a job yet the reason is because I want to finish this semester and catch up in school however I guess I really can't catch up anymore To Joanne I'm sorry coz i'm getting you into trouble and I'm letting you absorb my negativity and stress.. (well i'm not letting you absorb it but I know you get affected because of it). iofor making me more stronger. To my sisters coz I don't go home hehe (always overnight, coz I'm trying to review, but i just can't get my focus) To my classmates for not being that responsible unlike before. To my close friends for not always being there but thank you for at least being there for me. To my other friends (not that close).. I told My GG everything. Sorry because I can't really accept something I really didn't do and I'm gonna fight for this in my own way, If you don't believe me that's fine with me I'm willing to risk our friendship since I tried my best to explain my side, I love myself more than I love the friendship we had even now that she help me realize who I really am. I love her so much and I know you want to push me away from her --- that's okay, just keep on doing it because it makes me more stronger and us stronger. (yeah were working on it). pag napuno na ako... makikita niyo.
To myself for most fo the time forgetting what I should do... I'm sorry coz I know this is not me , but in the process I'm starting to know who I really am at least...
To SFC for not winning the competition, believe me ... I really felt bad at that time - missing the most important talks where I know I could feel more stronger..actually made me feel bad And finally to God , I know I lack prayers, I know should have prayed more..

... defending her from my family I guess wouldn't be that hard my dad and mom are open minded and at least I would know what to tell them since they are the ones who really see the efforts I do for myself eversince, kahit pasaway minsan ...but Defending my love to HER friends that would be really tough coz although they are my friends as well still they don't know who i really am... That's just it!