AT THE BACK OF MY MIND

50first dates, A very long engagement and Notebook..are movies or stories about amnesia or memory loss.. whats ironic about these movies is that you cant just get it out of your head..


Destiny's Child - Bad Habit Lyrics [Kelly]


How many times
Are you gonna apologize about the same thing
And how many times can I take you back
When I'm not the one that's doin' wrong
(When I'm not the one that's doin' wrong, yeah)
I thought maybe if I started prayin'
That we would get better, but
When I would pray the answer would always come back to me bein'
done
But we are so hard headed when we're in love
So I
[Chorus]
I told myself that I would make some changes
But the more I change there's one thing that remains the same
I can't seem to shake ya
You seem to really have a hold on me
And everytime that we break up
We turn around and make up
This can't go on now
I gotta move on now
It's not the fact that I don't love you no more
But I gotta break this bad habit
Can't take his bad habit no more
[Kelly]
I'm totally out of my element
Learnin' new ways to live, while your in a comfort zone
Not even thinkin, (you couldn't think about me) to call
And then when I get mad you buy me gifts
Thinkin' it's gonna solve every issue
From the girl callin my phone, to the pictures that I saw
And every time you would break up with me for nothing at all
I've takin all I could take (I've takin all I could take)
But the way I live has gotta change, oh
[Chorus]
[Bridge Kelly]
Let me break it down
Have you ever loved somebody
So much that you was just to blind to see
Past, all of the pain they was causin' you
Ladies do you feel me (do you feel me)
Have you ever loved somebody
So much that you went against the right things that you should
do
Then it's time to make a change
So I
[Chorus]

late

I would like to say this. Tardiness is not something you can do on your own. Many, many people contributed to my tardiness. I would like to thank the taxi driver whos too old enough to drive probably has alzheimers because i told him to pass by camp 7 so it would be faster but instead he passed by military cut off then Loakan talk about long cut grrr.. I would like to thank sisters who are lazy in cooking for dinner.. and the crew of 7 eleven who doesnt know how to count my change faster after i bought Siopao and C2 for dinner.. i would like to thank the guards at work wala lang thank you lang hehe!

what if its TRUE!???

Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that's CHOICE. Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by CHANCE. But true love that lasts is truly a CHOICE. A choice that we make. Regarding soulmates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this : "Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen." I do believe that soulmates do exist. That there is truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not. WE MAY MEET OUR SOULMATES BY CHANCE, BUT . . . LOVING AND STAYING WITH OUR SOULMATES IS STILL A CHOICE WE HAVE TO MAKE.

I got late today..and i was really worried about my dad coz my folks were really waiting for him to come back home.. only to find out na natulog la

I got this from a post on friendster..and i must admit that i really agree to this.. that it everythings matter of choice..although melai doesnt agree to this..at first of course i had the same perceptions as she had ..but right now i dont believe there is such a thing as soulmate.. evrything boils down to your CHOICE.. well for me i choose not to have a choice coz of course..uhmm not that i wanted to win a dare but because i dont want to loose track or focus.. the fact that ngayon palang feeling ko im really loosing focus.. we had a dare with my best buddy (syempre si melai un) first one to have a boyfriend should be paying for 5 thousand pesos...

constantine

Da vinci code, Angels and Devils, Divine Revelation. i havent read the first two books yet..my sister once dared me to finish the book divine revelation,i only read the first chapter di ko na nakayanan ung susunud eh..really very scary.. in such a way that it will really test your faith.anyways have u guys watched the movie Constantine a movie for smokers.. i wonder why they always give Keanu Reeves movies with the best effects.. compared with other movies.. anyways this movie talks about second chance, about your faith in GOd and the effects of smoking.. ouch ba!.. i like the part when keanu was about to go to heaven but because he gave lucifer (basta parang si LUCIFER) the "F" sign.. lucifer grabbed him instead, back to earth and removed his tubercolossis knowing that keanu will still do the same thing and will sin again but at the end he changed..talk about 2nd chance
anyway last monday was the start of the day off..and actually we had a team building actually its not a teambuilding coz we were only 5 out 11..anyways to cut the story short i slept at melai's place... to tell her everything that been going on..of course as usual i cried over ..w/e.. but im glad im over it thanks for evrything melai.. you really mean a lot.. i just saw my YFC community the other day and i decided to continue my service ive been very down for these past few months and i cant wait to serve the community again.. plus ive been through a lot this past few months.. and im so glad mishi had to hate someone for me of course im not happy about that.. but i think i am hehe.. I don't know what my problem is lately, but pretty much everyone and everything is annoying me. And I know that I am partly to blame for it, especially when all my friends are doing is asking me to hang out and I get annoyed because they should know that SOME people have to get up early and go to work. Is it possible to be annoyed with yourself? Because if so, then I am! And now here I sit at work, still stressed out..down..we just had a talk with my cousin yesterday there had been a lot of issues in our family lately and maybe i should be focusing on those things first..if Constantine had been given a second chance then i'll be giving myself a 2nd chance..

moi!

I hate to admit it, but sometimes I can be 'that girl'. The one that normal guys don't approach in a bar b/c she has that 'unapproachable' look to her and is only checking out the abercrombie types, or the one who preaches to her friends that they should go out on dates even if the guy isn't all that cute, because, really, it's about his personality, not his looks, in the end, that makes a guy attractive while at the same time ignoring her own advice. Yes, I am definitely guilty of being that girl.
I tried being on a date with a guy before that is very nice and we have a decent conversation, but that's it. There's no attraction, no spark, no wow moment. I don't know why I don't give these guys a second chance (naks as if). They are nice, decent, cool people and they want to take the time to get to know me. And I'm just not interested. I think, in the end, the chase is a big part of it. If it's just too easy, getting them to like me for who I am, then there MUST be something wrong with them, because god knows no one who likes me right away is in their right mind, or at least that's what I'm thinking. So I start to pull away and make excuses for blowing them off and in turn, do the same thing to them, that I complain that guys do to me. A vicious cycle, I know. The problem is, I don't know how to get out of it. ( this was a post i copied I know I broke one of the 10 commandments anyways I hope Im like her, some people may say wtf! but I don't know I guess saying this makes me think that I'm cute!????)

last update i told you guys that next update would me sentimental pero saka na.. barely had my breaks @ work. imagine ive been taking in calls for like 7 hours without any breaks at all.. it was payday yesterday and as usual ubos agad..okay gtg and i have to be ready for my 2am shift