sheesh! guess i may have have evrything what i want except the guy that i really want.. and its like my life is starting to tumble down.. no kidding! its really starting to.. i can hardly eat, can hardly sleep.. however i have this friend from california, shasha's cousin and hes ben my friend for just 2 weeks.. what i like about him is this man is that hes so sweet.. but i dont have feelings for him yet .. since i got preoccuppied thinking of my textmate.. last saturday i saw him with a girL.. i guess lovely's right... he has a girL.. i really hate this feeling coz this always happens to me .. i sometimes think that he will be for me.. and as my friends say i think to much as and i act as if im his girlfriend the fact that we havent actually met yet.. we just stare at each other.. pero nahurt talaga ako nun saturday kaya ayun nag pshot ako... grrrrr.. neway maybe im just better off thid way alone.. yoko na pinag pray ko pa siya.. i really feel sad.. :( Lord please show me the sun!

ahihi! im back in training.. i was actually begging them that i take my phone certification for this new acct .. however the client said well thats accdg to them , that i will be joining the next waive again in training before i could actually have my phonecertification.. haha! huh im not stupid nor dumb of course i manage to catch up with the lessons we had in our previous training .. but thats okay .. at least i have like 1 month off the phones.. 1 month slacking..





by the way abt my textmate , i found at last saturday that my textmate actually gave my number to his friend ..and im not sure why...well actually i felt like they were tripping on me .. i hate the feeling however i still like him. I dont know why but i havent felt this feeling before.. Anyway Sha-sha gave my number to her cousin ~whos from california.. and believe me he calls everyday .. like twice a day.. he works as supervisor as well and for now their project is making waterproof casings of ipods.. hes so sweet and caring however still i think abt jason all the time.. kahit di man lang kami nag uusap.. i dont know why i'm acting this way.. well maybe because i decided not to be a snob or i decided to entertain aheemm sutors.. haha! i hate the term.. im totally not this.. anyway grabe i still can't feel anything for this california guy.. kahit nga friend hindi eh pero hes so caring and sweet.. my mom and dad,almost everyone at home knows abt him calling everyday..actually i like the idea .. coz i go home around 11pm and he calls me evrytime i get off work .. and stays with me on the phone until i reach home.. ( eh alam mo naman sa streets namin nagtitipid ng kuryente kaya minsan sobrang madilim ).. i cant wait to go out this saturday .. i really wanna see jason.. im not yet ready to talk to him however i just want to see him.. smile , stare ..grrrr.. guess i miss him .. sana nga lang magtext siya kahit simple lang na quote kainis talaga.. bakit kung sinong gusto mo eh ayaw sayo..




melai and i love this song




Mabuti Pa Sila

Mabuti pa ang mga surot, laging mayrong masisiksikan

Mabuti pa ang bubble gum, laging mayrong didikitan

Mabuti pa ang salamin, laging mayrong tumitingin

Di tulad kong laging walang pumapansin

Mabuti pa ang mga lapis, sinusulatan ang papel

At mas mapalad ang kamatis, maya't maya napipisil

Napakaswerte ng bayong, hawak ng aleng maganda

Di tulad kong lagi na lang nag-iisa

Ano ba'ng wala ako na mayron sila

Di man lang makaisa habang iba'y dala-dalwa

Pigilan n'yo akong magpatiwakal

Mabuti pa ang galunggong nasasabihan ng 'mahal'



Kahit ang suka ay may toyo at ang asin may paminta

Mabuti pa ang lumang dyaryo at yakap-yakap ang isda

Mabuti pa sila, mabuti pa sila

Di tulad kong lagi na lang nag-iisa




Mabuti pa ang simpleng tissue at laging nahahalikan

Mabuti pa ang mga bisyo, umaasang babalikan

Mabuti pa sila, mabuti pa sila

Di tulad kong lagi na lang nag-iisa

(Interlude)




Pigilan n'yo akong magpatiwakal

Bakit si Gabby Concepcion lagi na lang kinakasal

Mabuti pa ang mga isnatser, palaging may naghahabol

Ang aking luma na computer, mayron pa ring compatible

Mabuti pa sila, mabuti pa sila

Di tulad kong lagi na lang nag-iisa







wish me luck in my phone certs! hope i could pass it.. oh hehe by the way .. on oct 30 my salary would be officially adjusted .. however i dont want to tell my parents abt that yet..