Its really hard to have technical friends who knows too much about the runarounds on the internet.. i kept on changing my url and kept on disabling a lot of things here in my blog only to find out that they found it again.. whew *sigh*.. well i know for a fact that its really not a good idea to post an online diary.. i feel like my life is like an open book .. however im still glad that not at all the skeletons in my closet got revealed (but almost all of them). By the way, The HR manager in our center kept on bragging me this past few days to apply for a coach position in Green Dot Com ( a differeNt accouNT) i really wanted to apply however since im planning to study next year im not sure if i would be able to adjust to the new scheduLe.. baka maudLot nanaman pag aaral ko kainis.

Uhmm i met someone hes been my text mate i think for almost 8 mos (im not sure though) all i know is that the #8 is not a lucky number for me.. anyway we didnt have the chance meet like talk the way we use to everytime we exchange sms'.. and here's the funniest part of the story we were so awkward with each other that even though our table was to close he never dared to approach me and i never did as well.. maybe im just not that pretty or maybe im not that approachable but somethings' been different with me this past few days i never felt this kind of spark for a long time for years actually.. But.. yeah i think i like him. Hmm i'll get over this believe me. Nakakatawa pa kasi instead na akong kiligin mga kaibigan ko ang nakikilig sa kin, and they just kept on saying that maybe its about time i let go of what im really focused to which is to get rich and settled~~for my family.. before i think about entering into a relationship.. i dont know i've never waited for something like this but like i said just give me a month and ill get over this feeling.. I wonder why he doesnt look cute like the pictures i see on his friendster acct .. maybe because some people were really born to be photogenic.. too bad i didnt get it :( ..St PauliNes mother superior sent me an email again and said that she will stay here for a week next week. She said as well in her email that she wanted to see me and taLk to me since maybe she thinks Sr Terry doesnt have enough convincing power to let me continue the calling she keeps on saying .. whatever that is . My mom keps on saying that maybe one of these days i might just fall for it .. she said as well that i'll make her the happiest person in the world incase that happens. :) oh God forbid~ i really cant see myself with that veil.

i miss melai very much she even told me once before she left that incase i meet my textmate she should be the first one to know or that i should let her know about it something like that. Whatever happened to that , i texted her that day however she never did reply. well this is my promise to my self i shaLL not yield and that i wont text him anymore. I actually deleted his number however cris saved his number on her phonebook (and she doesnt want me to delete the number,so clever that she changed the name) , she said she might need him in the future since they need an architect. Rob is pressuring her to find a house or to find someoNe to who could help her with their dream house (i think). cris is the luckiest girl i've met so far .. her life is like a fairytale not that im jealous but i really hope she wont forget us and that she wont change.. sometimes money could blind you but as loNg as u look back to the things and the people who helped you grow. You would definitely notice just a single detail as soon as it hits u between the eye. I know she wont change . and ive always been praying for her .. always .. i hope this time God would also give me the Blessing i really wanted .. saglit lang anu bang blessing ang gusto ko!? .. Damn i sound so pathethic always.. aight i gotta go its getting dark now..abi said i need to be careful evrytime i pass by our waiting shed (bad guys just stole a lady"s cellphone yesterday).. i know they cant get anything from me since my celphone is so cheap (im not fond of buying expensice phones) however im too scared that they might just drag me anywhere.. and dilim pa naman sa min..

alright goota go! till next blog *wish me luck*