i really hate this month not only has it been stressfuLL at the same time this month gave me the true definition of miserable.

Believe it or not i actually thought that being miserable is losing someone you really love~ eventually i was wrong .. it was this month that i felt like a loser, i felt all alone, lost, thirsty, hungry (this is so true) and abandoned.

I actually texted my mom the other day and asked her if its okay for them to have me back once again (what was i Thinking) of course i know they would definitely say yes!!.. maybe because i was just seeking for attention that time and yeah.. it did work.

Since i havent received my atm card yet and since we dont have our salary released yet . I asked my mom to pay for my bills, my credit card!...i'm sure you guys know the story behind my card. It's mah life.. without it .. i'm probably doomed again. i'm still here in the center and i just finished my audits

i'm not planning to stay here for long coz i'll be studying nxt semester. i reallyhave a bad feeling about this textmate my friend gave me.

Grabe parang ayaw ko nang bumalik ng baguio kasi ala naman akong pasalubong .. ala pa kasing sweldo eh huhu!
well anyway God forbid! sana maka adjust na ko

just last week minulto ako eh !

bakit ba ang hilig kong mag eeneter enter

bye for now!

tagal naman kasi ni bing mag monitor eh gusto ko na bumalik ng Baguio1

I just met with cris her in DAU. damn do i miss Baguio I'm here in Dau right now inside a computer shop, imagine there are small rooms here for "longKatus"(prostitutes) that loves chatting with americans i think what they do inside the room is they show their body parts... ewwww.. anyways.. i dont like it here in Pampanga well i can say for a fact that Baguio is still the best place there is. Monday will be our Final Assessment then on Tuesday i will be having my phone certification. I'm not sure if i'm gonna get certified see heres the thing. The Quality Department head underestimates my capabilities. I hate this feeling. I use to feel this back when i was working at Clientlogic with GDC account. I feel that I have to prove something again. I feel like I'm being pushed to show my best. Everytime this happens i do show my best but i tend to give up once i know i have a fallback and thats my Family ... hmmm Baguio. I was able to refer 4 persons in our center and i'm looking forward to staying with them in the same apartment. But hey i wont stay here for long my heart is not here my passion is for Baguio , is for Law school . How come i can't have it , how come i can't get it. I kno it's monet that i need money,but i cant keep on stretching myself beyond my limits. I used to say before that i'm not a person who can live on my own i have to share a room with my sister , sleep beside my sister stay with my family and keep tract of everything that's going on in our Barkada.

The Picture you see hereb is a pic of my College fRiends . I use to be that Bad Girl before. Well i know everyone had their dark side of life. This people taught me how to have fun everyday without thinking of tomorrow. Yep! that used to be me. I'm not saying that i used to be a cranky beoch who doesnt care about anyone , but what im trying to say here is i learned from these people. They molded me and made me who i am right now.. based from their experiences though.. and since those were their experiences its like i count myself as part of it. I still wonder why some people would say "uyy alam mo ba ang bait niyan ngayon grbe di yan ganyan dati".. its like they always tend to remember the bad side of the person and the thing is the before side still weighs more. they say life can be learned through mistakes but i just cant get it.. why cant they see how u grown to be. i mean its not that yer gonna stay that way forever no matter how bad a person can be no matter how laid back or broke they ass believe me they still imagine how they wanted they life to be. It's just they dont know how to start making it the want it. A lot of factors and a lot of things bug their minds. Good for me i had my friends my family, YFC and God that really inspired to live life the way i want it.

Now i can say well i gOt what i wanted but not quite how i planned it. Anyway you know i'm not just that fickle minded gurL, oozy as they say( just help me spell it right, im in a hurry!)... ill tell you more about mah lyf next blog.. damn i cant believe im opening this part.. well maybe because i feel down :( as always!!

oh by the way last thursday.. june said the wOrds and i cant believe he said those words cause i dont't like him yet.. andim not ready for any commitment.. hmm maybe 2 years from now! nasan na kasi si olongapo boy ahehe!

Yep im here in pampanga already and its actually my 5th day of training. I was assigned as a QA for hughes acct -email account. Totally different from what i used to do .. i hope i would enjoy this job and this place as well. Owww i actually did something unusual this week. If you read my blog last October you would remember this guy that used to text me (or the guy that i used to text). UHmp! I actually texted his friend! just that. On second thought he was the one who texted me, wonder how he got my number. Anyways, i hope this time the acquaintance would be better compared with the acquaintance we had before. But believe me im not expecting anythung anymore not even befriending them.

Grbe! I can't wait to go back to Baguio . I miss home. And after this shift i'll be going back there, I'm so glad we have 3 days off.

I'm still thinking about my studies. Should i continue studying here in Pampanga or should i go back to Baguio. Just last tuesday I found out that "UC" topped the bar exam (ahemp **my SchooL**)..we nailed it again .. yep ehemp! we.. iw as so excited that i actually texted my clasmates

ciao!

Pray for moi!