Time

I am.. and I will have more time for you.
I Will write soon I just need to finish 2 books today!

Beginnings

Robin Sharma, worked as a judicial law clerk for the Supreme Court. He's young and an awesome writer. He's tips for a stunningly great life is what caught all the readers attention. In a world full of superficial things the best way to live a meaningful and purposeful life is to look into your heart.
Most self-help junkies, would attest that authors such as Paolo Coehlo, Robert Kiyosaki, etc are definitely great  authors that can help empower  you to live a fruitful life.

* RaNdom Me*

It's true, my life unusually changed since the time Joanne left. The thought of her leaving already took a toll on me I was struggling as I tried to train a class that I would consider the worst - best class I ever trained. I have to be positive about my failures, so yeah "worst- best" is a phrase I would really love to use for this type of experience. Until now I hunger and thirst for good old days, indeed we had a lot of nice memories. I tried to keep my balance and yet I find my self thinking of the setbacks I had and am currently dealing with, I feel like      these series of baffling events started because of the feeling I insinuated since the time I found out Joanne leaving this time was for real. Like everything was a ripple effect.

As I look back I realized, I would have really savored the good old days. I should have lived in the present. I know it's not too late, I also realized that I am able to do what I want when she is around. I plan for myself, I plan our week ahead, I finish a book, unlike now.

So is this now considered a meltdown for me?, I guess yes. It's a good thing I read Robin Sharma's book The priest, The surfer and the CEO. I realized a lot of things.

Oh well although I feel sickly, paranoid, and more strict in class. I think my bhavior may have done something nice. But still, I am starting to become the person I fear of becoming. I just really hope I'd be able to get through this phase as fast as I can. There are still a lot of things I would like to accomplish. Aside from living and staying forever with the one I love (Joanne). I know forever is impossible but faith is what keeps us together, faith is what helps us believe in forever.