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Saturday, December 31, 2005

as of noW!

Heres a post that really strucked me..

I dreamed I had an interview with God.
“So you would like to interview me?” God asked.“If you have the time” I said. God smiled. “My time is eternity.”“What questions do you have in mind for me?”“What surprises you most about humankind?”God answered...“That they get bored with childhood,they rush to grow up, and then long to be children again.”“That they lose their health to make money...and then lose their money to restore their health.”“That by thinking anxiously about the future, they forget the present, such that they live in neither the present nor the future.”"That they live as if they will never die, and die as though they had never lived.”God’s hand took mineand we were silent for a while.And then I asked...“As a parent, what are some of life’s lessons you want your children to learn?”“To learn they cannot make anyone love them. All they can do is let themselves be loved.”“To learn that it is not good to compare themselves to others.”“To learn to forgiveby practicing forgiveness.”“To learn that it only takes a few seconds to open profound wounds in those they love, and it can take many years to heal them.” “To learn that a rich person is not one who has the most,but is one who needs the least.”“To learn that there are people who love them dearly, but simply have not yet learned how to express or show their feelings.”“To learn that two people can look at the same thing and see it differently.”“To learn that it is not enough that they forgive one another, but they must also forgive themselves.”"Thank you for your time," I said humbly. "Is there anything else you would like your children to know?"God smiled and said, “Just know that I am here... always.” -author unknown

After 23 years, I've finally realized the following things:
1. I'm turning 24 and still single
.2. The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
3. Life is ultra short.
4. Deception is prevalent.
5. Vanity is a choice.
6. To believe is to see.
7. Letting someone go does not mean you love them.
8. Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.
9. Love was never blind; its just ignored.
10. Shopping disperses anxiety. I strongly agree
11. Smoking is bad for one's health but can negate tension.
12. Boys don't cry. Men do.
13. A child never lies.
14. History does not repeat itself. Man makes history, therefore man repeats history.
15. Leaders are both born and made.
16. Experience is the greatest teacher.
17. Excercise can be addictive.
18. Never underestimate your enemy.
19. Overfamiliarity indeed bred contempt.
20. College is a blast.
21. Honesty is the best policy.
22. I like people with glasses.
23. Texting can be deceiving.
24. Hygiene is extremely important.
25. Liars go straight to hell.
25. Loving someone too much is called madness.
26. Cheating is different from comparing. hehe! palusot number 1
27. Always bring a condom. para kay donna at sa aswa niya
28. Guilt exists to sharpen us.
29. Say "I love You" before its too late.
30. Never let your guard down.
31. Age does not matter.
32. Talking with someone for 6 hours does not constitute that they like you.
33. When I get something I want, frustration sets in..
34. Patience is a virtue.. for my job patience kills
35. I cry when it rains.
36. Never tell your secrets to total strangers
37. Masturbation is a sin.
38. The truth will always set us free.
39. When in doubt, the best thing to do is pray.
40. Jazz relaxes my soul.
41. Prevention is better than cure.
42. Silence is therapeutic.
43. Sexual intercourse is sacred.
44. With great power comes great responsibility.
45. A compliment can be sarcastic. exactly!
46. A little knowledge can be dangerous.
47. Love never fades. It just grows.
48. Looks can kill.
49. Jealousy can be beneficial.
50. Sensible people are rare.
51. The more you hate, the more you love.
52. Grades are just numbers.
53. Tough guys wear pink.

Am i happy who i am??

Am i happy who i am..did i make the right choices, sometimes i would like to go back and change things specially the ones i hate.. this year for me has been a nerve racking year whatever they call it.. and im still not sure if id be able to get through another year again.. well i hope it'll be better i really have a lot of plans next year .. specially my plan to fullfill my dream being a flight attendant that im not sure will ever happen to me.. Looking back im still glad God gave me a chance to learn from the things thats been going on.. from the problems id had which im not sure if it really includes my love life.. well anyway i was planning to make the last days of my blog (for this year,, im not ending it if thats what you think) sort of like a prayer kaya lang kakatamad din eh! joke sabihin ko na lang kay Lord bakit ko pa kailangang ipublish..
>>>>I'm back to work still as a a call back agent..whew imagine 2 more days and its 2006 im starting to think what would happen.. or what should happen to me next year.. i miss someone but im not sure if i really miss that SoMeOne ELse!

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

perfect Christmas??

here are some updates of what happened during my 3 days vacation..
  • first i didnt join the team building after work .. coz i have to do my last minute gift wrapping..and uhmm shopping!
  • after that i helped my mom cook for Christmas.. Leonor should be spending her Christmas in our place but the thing is she wants me to fetch her arnd 11:00, The mass ended arnd 10:30 and theres no way wed be able to fetch her since we have to do more things back at home like pray for the Advent Wreath and get ready for Christmas..
  • I stayed at home during Christmas but i still managed to visit cris who eventually told me something abt uhmm im no sure if i can say his name here.. well anyway i promised my cousin Kim that ill be spending the night in their place coz i really miss my grandma and grandpa (na lasenggo nanaman daw).. i decided ot to sleep there kasi man ang gulo gulo dun lalo akong di makaisip
  • Dec 26 i went out with Felix and we ate at Pizza Hut i dont think its date.. besides we only treat each others as friend any way i gave him something na sana alagaan niya a small white pillow (more like a stress buster yah know a better design for stress balls) and the fact that i always see him sleepy .. yun na binigay ko.
  • after that i met with cai and ate caloih we stayed at alacarte for like 3 hours just talking about cai's kev .. and abt love life as usual i cant share them anything .. so shared my friends experiences without giving names just to make her realize that kev is nothing! he really is !
  • i slept at joans place after that.. andami ko ngang kagat dahil sa "ticks" ng aso leche!..eh napakasensitibo pa man ng balat ko kainis..tapos ayun akala ko man shes really feeling down after her break up with rez only to find out na may fafa nanaman siya dun..
  • the next day Nag Lord of Pardon kami
  • at ngayon andito ako kila cris para tapusin itong blog ko..

There s been a lot of things that happened this year lagi nga kong nasa baba eh.. pero magiging memorable pa rin tong year na ito sa kin kasi kahit papanu umabot ako ng december.. my off started from Dec 24-28 ang bilis nang araw gusto ko talaga i spend ko sa family ko sa friends ko at kay Lord kaya lang ala ko kasama mag confess...bukas kaya?? uhmm i'll see what i can do about that tomorrow..

"by the way if ever sya ill call him pillow"

Saturday, December 24, 2005

ChRisTmas NA!


O di ba ang saya lapit na nang pasko kaya lang di ko pa rin mafeel eh kainis..ano kayang gift nila sa kin .. hayy naku feeling ko bibigay na katawan ko panu pasaway din kasi ako instead na umuwi na ako at matulog dumiretso pa ko kila Cris at nakipagchikahan at naku biglang dumating pa si Mami Len eh di sobrang chika ito.. Its actually my Dads birthday today.. feeling ko nga sasama luob sa kin nun eh.. kasi man wala nanaman ako susi ng bahay kaya dumiretso ako sa Lola ko di ko tuloy siya nakita.. di bale later na lang sana wish ko lang magustuhan niya yung gift ko sa kanya.. I still need to buy more gifts for my nieces and nephews hayy ang gastos talaga ng Pasko kahit minsan lang dumating sa isang taon parang "nakakapanghinayang pa rin" uyy joke lang ha baka isipin niyo kuripot ako... pero minsan oo at least kahit papano aminado ako.. pero pagdating sa Keds ko na Fettish ko naku kahit gastusan ko pa.. kaya lang ang papangit ng bagong styles nila ngayon di ko feeerrr!!

I only hjad 2hours of sleep galeeng ko talaga noh tapos i have to work for 10 hrs i have to think of an "alibay" para makatulog ako sa Clinic ano kaya gasgas na yung masakit ang ulo ko eh.. saka puson.. ah alam ko na nahihilo ako.. kasi di ako nakatulog kasi birthday ng dadi ko ayy yoko yun bad na nga Sablay pa.. bala na!

DREAM WORK KO ITO!! Since I was 7 years Old aside from Being a Singer sana matupad Lord!

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

hell again

5 more days and its Christmas. I just had my 2 days off im so glad to spend it with my 3 friends.. First with andrea..too bad we were not able to watch the fireworks.. coz we had to finish our banana split...the moment we went out the restaurant we saw the last firecracker.. well any way after that i went home around 10pm.. ayun galit na naman mom ko.. the next day we went to sm to do our christmas shopping..i cant believe i spent 4k just for their gifts..after that we went to starbucks nag kape at nag emote kasama ko si ate carol. I'm still glad to have someone beside me listening to everything i say, my problems, my dreams etc..its work day again today...hell day again !!.. im still on callback support but i still get inbound calls just to say bring up my productivity her in the center.. kainis di man lang ako nakahabol sa QA sayang!

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

another update!!

Bad day as usual..i wanted to end my life kaya lang kasi daming sagabal.. i hate my brother, my friends, my co-workers well some .. maybe its just me im just not in the mood for anything at all .. everything annoys me , small things, specially big things syempre.. especially when im not able to finish my call backs on time..Well i was assigned to be the call back agent for a month.. imagine its always him that they pamper too much nung nasa manila siya pinaggastusan siya.. and now they have to spend their bonus for his wedding..the fact na hes not even sharing his money eh pareho lang naman kami ng rate every month..i really miss melai i get my strenght from her everything she may not be that strong but she listens to evrything i say .. too bad i wont be able to see her for 2 mos..kainis talaga! I'm planning to go to Pampanga this thursday but im still not sure if my coach would allow me too..feeling ko hindi. I just had a chat with Nelmie today and she said, she thinks im isolating my self too much from the team , well the thing is im just not in the mood to chat with them to have fun with them because theres been a lot of things i have to take care of.. pero parang im not doing anything naman.. grrr!i cant wait till february i really have to look for a job before that month comes.. I really miss sending marichelle an email.. this years' been the tough year id ever had..considering the fact na ngayon lang ako nagkawork na sobrang natagalan ko...
Till next tym

Friday, December 09, 2005

7 things

7 things that will scare me:1. spiders.
2. Snakes.
3. Losing my loved ones.
4. Getting results for exams.
5. Walking alone at night.
6. Ghosts.
7. When my dad got one of his mood swings.
7 things that i love the most:1. My family.
2. My Grandma.
3. My Friends.
4. Music.
5. My blog.
6. My Cds.
7. My Keds.
7 important things in my room:
1. My pillow.
2. My things.
3. My photo's.
4. My bears.
5. My bed.
6. My bolster.
7. My mirror.
7 random facts about me:
1. Am contented easily.
2. Bad temperament.
3. Get irritated easily.
4. I love my family.
5. Hates it when people comment bout what i do without finding out the facts.
6. Loves to meet new people.
7. Have a fetish babies.
7 things i plan to do before this life ends.
1. Repent.
2. Meet the one.
3. Get married.
4. Be a millionaire. haha.
5. Have children.
6. Give my parents an easy life.
7. Go around the world.
7 things i can do:
1. Go crazy with my friends.
2. Sleep.
3. Get angry over small matters.
4. Sing the whole day.
5. Disturb people.
6. Be on the computer the whole day.
7. Listen to songs the whole day.
7 things i can't do:
1. Ask for a guy's number.
2. Propose to a guy.
3. Jump down from the 25th floor and survive.
4. Be without my parents.
5. Draw.
6. Stop being with mah friends.
7. Be as noble as my mum.
7 words i say the most:
1. $h3t!
2. ay nye7@!
3. hahahahaha.
4. aight!
5. okay~
6. hmm.
7. whatever.
7 idols of mine:
1. My mum.
2. My grandmother.
3. Jessica Alba.
4. Usher.
5. Beyonce.
6. Jennifer Lopez.
7. m. carey.
7 people whom i expect to do this:
1. My sister.
2. Melai.
3. Cris.
4. Red.
5. Donz.
6. Dada.
7. Leonard.
There. Thats it for today.
Toodles.

**I only had 3 hrs of sleep today kainis!.. and i had to get hot compress from our clinic because of my monthly w/e... its really hard to do the call backs first of all its affecting mah productivity.. and i always get privacy directors/answering machines grrr..im so glad to see my grandma again today..but not my uncle..i hope tomorrow i'll feel better.. ** c ah

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

SHES OUT OF MY LIFE???

this year was really tough.. until now im still an agent almost all of my waive mates got promoted here i am still an agent.. I m planning to move to manila by february as soon as i get my 13 month pay and my tax refund goodbye Baguio. Kaya lang kasi ayaw ako payagan eh, pero basta matutuloy pa rin ako. Melai is not here in Baguio anymore she decided to spent 2 mos vacation at Surigao and Cebu.. (buti pa siya), nakakalungkot nga eh kasi naman shes the only girl i call every day off.. tapos lalabas kami gimmick ngaun wala na .. so meaning i'll be staying at home on day offs di ko man kasi kayang lumabas na kasama yung ibang friends ko kasi nga puro may asawa eh yung iba man puro may boyfriend. hayyy kakamiss talaga ..
anyway before this year will end ill be doing a revelation portion .. kasi theres been a lot of things that happened like...uhmmm... basta things i never thought would happen to me things i never i never thought I'd do..
hey good news wellbe getting our 13 mo pay today .. i hope ill be getting 10k baba noh! well im planning to start my Christmas .. kainis kasi i still dont know what to get my mom and dad .. any suggestions??..
The Centers Hiring for qa buddy! (quality analyst) ,, almost everyones telling me to apply kaya lang parang ayoko na ayoko nang madeny .. i dont think they will consider me for that position.. parang i'll just do good with my stats na lang.. anyway i wont be staying here for long .. hayy naku sakit sa ulo ang Call Center at ang pagiging isang call gurl .. puro na lang "i cannot connect to the internet"..
Whatever....
I'm Gonna Make A Change,For Once In My Life
It's Gonna Feel Real Good, Gonna Make A Difference Gonna Make It Right . . .
As I, Turn Up The Collar On My Favourite Winter Coat This Wind Is Blowin' My Mind
I See The Kids In The Street, With Not Enough To Eat
Who Am I, To Be Blind? Pretending Not To SeeTheir Needs
A Summer's Disregard,
A Broken Bottle Top
And A One Man's Soul
They Follow Each Other OnThe Wind Ya' Know'
Cause They Got NowhereTo Go
That's Why I Want You ToKnow
I'm Starting With The Man InThe Mirror
I'm Asking Him To ChangeHis Ways
And No Message Could HaveBeen Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The WorldA Better Place
(If You Wanna Make TheWorld A Better Place)Take A Look At Yourself, AndThen Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself, AndThen Make A Change)
(Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,Na Nah)
I've Been A Victim Of A SelfishKind Of Love
It's Time That I Realize
That There Are Some With NoHome, Not A Nickel To Loan
Could It Be Really Me,Pretending That They're NotAlone?
A Willow Deeply Scarred,Somebody's Broken Heart
And A Washed-Out Dream(Washed-Out Dream)
They Follow The Pattern OfThe Wind, Ya' See
Cause They Got No PlaceTo Be
That's Why I'm Starting WithMe(Starting With Me!)
I'm Starting With The Man InThe Mirror(Ooh!)
I'm Asking Him To ChangeHis Ways(Ooh!)
And No Message Could HaveBeen Any ClearerIf You Wanna Make The WorldA Better Place
(If You Wanna Make TheWorld A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself AndThen Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself AndThen Make A Change)
I'm Starting With The Man InThe Mirror(Ooh!)
I'm Asking Him To Change HisWays(Change His Ways-Ooh!)
And No Message Could'veBeen Any ClearerIf You Wanna Make The WorldA Better Place
(If You Wanna Make TheWorld A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself AndThen Make That . . .
'(Take A Look At Yourself AndThen Make That . . .)
\Change!I'm Starting With The Man InThe Mirror,
(Man In The Mirror-OhYeah!)
I'm Asking Him To ChangeHis Ways(Better Change!)
No Message Could HaveBeen Any Clearer
(If You Wanna Make TheWorld A Better Place)
(Take A Look At Yourself AndThen Make The Change)
(You Gotta Get It Right, WhileYou Got The Time)
('Cause When You Close YourHeart)You Can't Close Your . . .YourMind!

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

ala lang!

Im down to 2 days!! and finally i'll be on vacation for 4 days!! ala ko makwento eh next post na lanG!

Sunday, September 04, 2005

BLOG THIS

Help me create a journal for this month.. Leave a message,

a poem, a question, a story, or whatever you may like.

Just be clean, be civil and be nice!

thanks!!

I'LL BE LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS!

IM RESIGNING

I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult.
I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of an 8 year-old again.

I want to go to McDonald's and think that it's a four star restaurant.

I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make a sidewalk with rocks.

I want to think M&Msare better than money because you can eat them.

I want to lie under a big oak tree and run a lemonade stand with my friends on a hotsummer's day.

I want to return to a time when life was simple, when all you knew were colors, multiplication tables, and nursery rhymes,but that didn't bother you, because you didn't know what you didn't know and you didn't care. All you knew was to be happy because you were blissfully unaware of all the things that should make you worried or upset.

I want to think the world is fair.
That everyone is honest and good.

I want to believe that anything is possible.

I want to be oblivious to the complexities of life and be overly excited by the little things again.
I want to live simple again.

I don't want my day to consist of computer crashes, mountains of paperwork, depressing news, how to survive more days in the month than there is money in the bank, doctor bills, gossip, illness, and loss of loved ones.

I want to believe in the power of smiles, hugs, a kind word, truth, justice, peace, dreams, the imagination, mankind, and making angels in the snow.

So . . . here's my checkbook and my car keys, my credit card bills and my tax statements.

I am officially resigning from adulthood.

And if you want to discuss this further, you'll have to catch me first, cause........



....."Tag! You're it."

Monday, August 01, 2005

JUST So YOU KNOW!

ite been awhile since i havent updated this blog probably coz i've been pissed of my life till now.. so heres a quick recap of what happened to my life
  • i gave my mom a cake for her birthday last July 24
  • i lost my atm when my wallet got snatched along Centermall.. and im still suffering from what had happened
  • i almost had a fight with a close friend coz as usual my friends are asking me to hang out and I get annoyed because they should know that SOME people have to get up early and go to work. i always find time to hang out even when they know i have a shift in a couple of hours..but it seems like the time i hang out with them is not enough and precious for them well as for me it is.
  • my mom just asked to give an additional share from my salary.. goodbye salon!
  • my dad thinks im really rich when in fact i really value each cent
  • my dad bought my sister a new cellphone ,, well anyway its just a cheap one hehe! j/k
  • i was with my YFC org last sunday men do i miss fellowship and worship (too bad i dont know the new songs anymore well infact i used to teach them of the new songs we had before)but i had to admit they really do miss me...and im glad to be back ..
  • my brothers benn annoying me these past few days
  • our friend came back home from canada but i havent seen him yet..anyway hell be staying here till november.. so hopefully ill be seeing him if only i got the time.
  • Finally our center thought of giving "hard to have incentives"..
  • its actually my cousins birthday today....my so sentimental cousin ...she always reminds me about family problems.. and about "The Right Track" .. sure shes on the right track even if shes not happy with her job.. still time can tell .. who knows one of these days shell be the one wholl actually redeem our Family from poverty hehe! joke.. wish ko lang noh!
  • i just found out that a girl from work has big crush on me.. . pretty much flattering
  • oww before i forget ill be posting our new pics here a few days from now...still thinking about it.
  • our I.T. personnel just installed friendster on our comp..and ym.
  • just requested my X add me up on his friendster acct.. and im still actually waiting for him to confirm it.. still looking forward to it
  • i came to work very groggy.. hehe! and it wont happen anymore.. phuleeeze stop me!
  • i love the movie D.E.B.S..... my co -worker thinks i'm crazy!

LOVE THIS SONG!!!

PAYONG

ako ba ang nais mong sukuban?ako ba ang nais mong hagkan?pag-ibig ko ba ang nais makamtan?ikaw ay aking papayungansa lahat ng bagyong darating sa iyong buhay,nandito lang ako
susubukang mabihag ang puso mosa payong ng pagmamahal kohanggang sa mapagod akosa kakapayong sayo...
ako ba ang sinisigaw ng damdamin?ako ba ay hinahanap-hanap?hindi ko na alam kung ano ako sayo
susubukang mabihag ang puso mosa payong ng pagmamahal kohanggang sa mapagod akosa kakapayong sayo...

I WILL ALWAYS STAY THIS WAY IN LOVE WITH YOU

I have never lost the love that I have given you With all the things that we have all been through I've never stayed in love before As much as I have stayed in love with you You, you never thought the feelings Meant for you were true

�coz everytime we're all alone you wonder If I'll really never change And if I'll really stay in love with you

Love, it needs just you and me to stay together Even if there's nothing more The best is there forever Love, we have to stay this way in love forever Even if you change your ways I'll always stay this way

�coz I, I will always stay this way in love with you I will always stay this way in love with you I will always stay this way in love with you
You, you never thought the feeling Meant for you were true �coz everytime we're all alone you wonder If I'll really never change And if I'll really stay in love with you

Love� It needs just you and me to stay together Even if there's nothing more The best is there forever

Love� We have to stay this way in love forever Even if you change your ways I'll always stay this way


�coz I, I will always stay this way in love with you I will always stay this way in love with you I will always stay this way in love with you I will always stay this way in love with you

Monday, July 18, 2005

AT THE BACK OF MY MIND

50first dates, A very long engagement and Notebook..are movies or stories about amnesia or memory loss.. whats ironic about these movies is that you cant just get it out of your head..


Destiny's Child - Bad Habit Lyrics [Kelly]


How many times
Are you gonna apologize about the same thing
And how many times can I take you back
When I'm not the one that's doin' wrong
(When I'm not the one that's doin' wrong, yeah)
I thought maybe if I started prayin'
That we would get better, but
When I would pray the answer would always come back to me bein'
done
But we are so hard headed when we're in love
So I
[Chorus]
I told myself that I would make some changes
But the more I change there's one thing that remains the same
I can't seem to shake ya
You seem to really have a hold on me
And everytime that we break up
We turn around and make up
This can't go on now
I gotta move on now
It's not the fact that I don't love you no more
But I gotta break this bad habit
Can't take his bad habit no more
[Kelly]
I'm totally out of my element
Learnin' new ways to live, while your in a comfort zone
Not even thinkin, (you couldn't think about me) to call
And then when I get mad you buy me gifts
Thinkin' it's gonna solve every issue
From the girl callin my phone, to the pictures that I saw
And every time you would break up with me for nothing at all
I've takin all I could take (I've takin all I could take)
But the way I live has gotta change, oh
[Chorus]
[Bridge Kelly]
Let me break it down
Have you ever loved somebody
So much that you was just to blind to see
Past, all of the pain they was causin' you
Ladies do you feel me (do you feel me)
Have you ever loved somebody
So much that you went against the right things that you should
do
Then it's time to make a change
So I
[Chorus]

Friday, July 08, 2005

late

I would like to say this. Tardiness is not something you can do on your own. Many, many people contributed to my tardiness. I would like to thank the taxi driver whos too old enough to drive probably has alzheimers because i told him to pass by camp 7 so it would be faster but instead he passed by military cut off then Loakan talk about long cut grrr.. I would like to thank sisters who are lazy in cooking for dinner.. and the crew of 7 eleven who doesnt know how to count my change faster after i bought Siopao and C2 for dinner.. i would like to thank the guards at work wala lang thank you lang hehe!

Monday, July 04, 2005

what if its TRUE!???

Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that's CHOICE. Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by CHANCE. But true love that lasts is truly a CHOICE. A choice that we make. Regarding soulmates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this : "Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen." I do believe that soulmates do exist. That there is truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not. WE MAY MEET OUR SOULMATES BY CHANCE, BUT . . . LOVING AND STAYING WITH OUR SOULMATES IS STILL A CHOICE WE HAVE TO MAKE.

I got late today..and i was really worried about my dad coz my folks were really waiting for him to come back home.. only to find out na natulog la

I got this from a post on friendster..and i must admit that i really agree to this.. that it everythings matter of choice..although melai doesnt agree to this..at first of course i had the same perceptions as she had ..but right now i dont believe there is such a thing as soulmate.. evrything boils down to your CHOICE.. well for me i choose not to have a choice coz of course..uhmm not that i wanted to win a dare but because i dont want to loose track or focus.. the fact that ngayon palang feeling ko im really loosing focus.. we had a dare with my best buddy (syempre si melai un) first one to have a boyfriend should be paying for 5 thousand pesos...

constantine

Da vinci code, Angels and Devils, Divine Revelation. i havent read the first two books yet..my sister once dared me to finish the book divine revelation,i only read the first chapter di ko na nakayanan ung susunud eh..really very scary.. in such a way that it will really test your faith.anyways have u guys watched the movie Constantine a movie for smokers.. i wonder why they always give Keanu Reeves movies with the best effects.. compared with other movies.. anyways this movie talks about second chance, about your faith in GOd and the effects of smoking.. ouch ba!.. i like the part when keanu was about to go to heaven but because he gave lucifer (basta parang si LUCIFER) the "F" sign.. lucifer grabbed him instead, back to earth and removed his tubercolossis knowing that keanu will still do the same thing and will sin again but at the end he changed..talk about 2nd chance
anyway last monday was the start of the day off..and actually we had a team building actually its not a teambuilding coz we were only 5 out 11..anyways to cut the story short i slept at melai's place... to tell her everything that been going on..of course as usual i cried over ..w/e.. but im glad im over it thanks for evrything melai.. you really mean a lot.. i just saw my YFC community the other day and i decided to continue my service ive been very down for these past few months and i cant wait to serve the community again.. plus ive been through a lot this past few months.. and im so glad mishi had to hate someone for me of course im not happy about that.. but i think i am hehe.. I don't know what my problem is lately, but pretty much everyone and everything is annoying me. And I know that I am partly to blame for it, especially when all my friends are doing is asking me to hang out and I get annoyed because they should know that SOME people have to get up early and go to work. Is it possible to be annoyed with yourself? Because if so, then I am! And now here I sit at work, still stressed out..down..we just had a talk with my cousin yesterday there had been a lot of issues in our family lately and maybe i should be focusing on those things first..if Constantine had been given a second chance then i'll be giving myself a 2nd chance..

Saturday, July 02, 2005

moi!

I hate to admit it, but sometimes I can be 'that girl'. The one that normal guys don't approach in a bar b/c she has that 'unapproachable' look to her and is only checking out the abercrombie types, or the one who preaches to her friends that they should go out on dates even if the guy isn't all that cute, because, really, it's about his personality, not his looks, in the end, that makes a guy attractive while at the same time ignoring her own advice. Yes, I am definitely guilty of being that girl.
I tried being on a date with a guy before that is very nice and we have a decent conversation, but that's it. There's no attraction, no spark, no wow moment. I don't know why I don't give these guys a second chance (naks as if). They are nice, decent, cool people and they want to take the time to get to know me. And I'm just not interested. I think, in the end, the chase is a big part of it. If it's just too easy, getting them to like me for who I am, then there MUST be something wrong with them, because god knows no one who likes me right away is in their right mind, or at least that's what I'm thinking. So I start to pull away and make excuses for blowing them off and in turn, do the same thing to them, that I complain that guys do to me. A vicious cycle, I know. The problem is, I don't know how to get out of it. ( this was a post i copied I know I broke one of the 10 commandments anyways I hope Im like her, some people may say wtf! but I don't know I guess saying this makes me think that I'm cute!????)



last update i told you guys that next update would me sentimental pero saka na.. barely had my breaks @ work. imagine ive been taking in calls for like 7 hours without any breaks at all.. it was payday yesterday and as usual ubos agad..okay gtg and i have to be ready for my 2am shift

Monday, June 27, 2005

things that happened after!

uhmm right after my teammate left the team.. a lot of things happened.. spurs won with Duncan as the MVP,, w/e.. i found a site that can locate and show where my customer lives..(isnt it amazing to see where my customer lives while where talking on the phone).. ow before i forget gumimik kami sa soundcheck ..our coach got drunk over Jägermeister hehe!..Melai thought she won the dare.. of course i will win the dare i cant remember if i told you guys about the dare.. maybe i will soon. And before i forget Mishi thought the c.r.'s her bedroom..lmao! about me well as usual im still wishing its payday again.. About melai shes taking nursing at BCU.. i wonder if she passed her canyao class.. My mom just found out that my sister lost 2 cellphones.. And my mom keeps on telling me to buy my own cellphone.. Uhmm im still thinking about it. Coz i dont think i need one, well, before i cant leave the house without it.. But now im still thinking about it.. I dont want to get too many text messages from mom my saying "len wer r u?".
Felix and Sonny resigned *hope i got the spelling right*.. About Mishi again she treated us for lunch last thursday (ata un ) at Don Henricos, sobrang busog nga ko eh thankx gurl! .. my stats are so low right now and honestly nahihiya ko sa coach namin.. im trying my best but it seems like the surveys dont go to the right persons.. too bad!! Im still waiting for the results of Andrea's board exam sana ok na lahat! its my day off today and i gtg guess ill be seeing you next blog! my next blog would be avery emotional one so watch out for it!

Saturday, June 25, 2005

Here are some random things that not many people know about me!


  • I am able to link everything that happens in my life and others to an episode of 'Friends'.

  • I am a frustrated singer
  • I have a picture taken with Jericho Rosales huh !wahta a hunk

  • I won first place at a singing contest when i was in grade 1 ( natalo ko highschools)

  • I wish i can play the piano

  • My dream job would be to be a singer a very sucessfull singer

  • I spent 24 hours straight watching every singing contest

  • I was a mcdonalds singer when i was in grade 5 but it didnt last for long

  • I am a very clumsy person i trip over anything of course specially when im drunk

  • I used to be one of the top 10 in class when i was in elementary uhmm highschool?? 4rget it!

  • The most romantic thing anyone has ever done for me is take me to a secret dinner (romantic na ito ha) ..(although looking back I wish I would've put poison on his food)

  • I have never had a broken bone, but i tried having scars all over my body really gross

  • i'm still thinking of going to law school

  • I have only been in love once (although I used to think it was a lot more)

  • My friends and I used to hang out in ie garden back when i was in college sometimes di na kami pumapasok

  • I hate roses but i really love Daisies

  • I love "knowing people" pero nahirapan akong pakisamahan yung mga conyo

  • Even more, I love knowing the dirt before anyone else. I believe I was a gossip columnist in a former life

  • I have a feeling my kids are going to be payback.. on second thought I can't see my self having kids.. :-(

  • When I drink, my phone should be kept in an unknown location

  • My favorite beer is san miguel light, always has been, always will be

  • I REALLY hate caffeine, and spicy foods, i usually get constipated.. but sometimes i just cant help it.. specially when i feel sleepy i need COFEE!

  • I used to be EXTREMELY shy

  • My longest relationship lasted 8 months well almost a year

  • I have a distinct distaste for hairy guys

  • I never had a boyfriend for almost 6 years

  • I am amazed that ANYONE can find Kevin Federline attractive

  • I have a big crush on pharrell williams and wade robson

  • I once had a waitressing job for 1 day

  • I once had a cashier job for 1 day

  • i cry 3 days before pay day

  • I would die without my cell phone before pero na over come ko rin

  • My favorite kind of music is.. mariahs music

  • I use to sing (shout) when im drunk

  • I wish i was dead i as soon as i get back to my senses

  • The only way they work is if they have a good name

  • I cannot draw to save my life

  • I have been accused of talking when im sleepin

  • I always deny it

  • I have had crushes on bosses-

  • i really regret it

  • I buy things for my crushes, but i never give them

  • I recently bought this box for my crush pero nagsisi talaga ako buti na lang wala na.. ok lang hanggang crush lang

  • I used to sing at 3 restaurants

  • I can be very emotionally religious sometimes

  • I love YFC.. this community helped me grow
    I hate doing my laundry..grrr! but i also hate it when someones doing my laundry i dont want them to mess up my clothes

  • Im afraid of commitments
  • pwede na siguro akong mamatay pag merong makapag edit sa blog ko

Monday, June 20, 2005

ang hirap magupdate

ive been so busy this past few days..dami nangyari eh! birthday celebration pala namin ng coach ko bukas..imagine pagbilhin pa ko ng birthday card pero okay lang naman ..20 lang naman pintak ko eh hehehe!..i more week and were out of split shift.. wish ko nga eh maging out na rin ako sa team ang init init na rin dun..dami nang nawala may dumagdag na dalawa pero di ko kilala! enyway..last payday i went out with my best buddy melai..lagi naman siya eh!..ayun pizza volante tapos gimik..siguro un na lang talaga ang talagang past time ko..ok lang naman eh coz i do enjoy her company..a lot!! well as for my old crush kinasal na siya nung june 18..i'll get over him sooner or later..i really want to be promoted to a higher position okay na ung tier2! my mom said its okay if they'll be paying me the same salary..whats good about it is at least i can tell people that i got promoted to a higher position... i guess i can see her point there! yesterday was fathers day and i wasnt able to think of a better gift for my dad but anyway we were able to give him a very sentimental token that he could read from time to time.. its a very small box na ang laman nung luob eh mga messages namin sa kanya.. we even told him to leave this box on his office table and advised him to read the messages whenever he feels down..simple pero sweet! I was thinking of giving the same gift to my coach pero wag na baka sabihin pa nila crush ko siya! diba delikado na..its my day off today but i wasnt able to rent a cd eh kasi sarap matulog eh.. i really hate this split shift sched whoever thought of this schedule is really so STUPID.. imagine i have to spend 150 everyday.. san na mapupunta ung sweldo ko!
we were not able to go to st paulines last sunday ang kukulit na nga ng mga madre eh..feeling ko lang sobrang pinagprapray talaga kami nung mga un! Last saturday was arra's capping..nakakaiyak ung ceremony ng UB ..too bad ni hindi man lang namin na charge ung video cam nun sayang talaga.. kala kasi namin ung typical lang na ceremony.. I'm really so proud of my sister sana galingan niya pa! para matapos na paghihirap namin naks senti!
okay i gtg now and ill be updating you this thursday!

Monday, June 13, 2005

why

wala na mishi! mamimiss ko talaga un. Imagine yesterday was her last day and ayun di pa rin ako tinigilan sa pangaasar sa coach nila.. napakapasaway.. yoko nga dun mas feel ko pa ung dati kong crush ung kinasal na.. i almost got late today, maybe because i got used to take a cab always eh since ala na kong pera i have to ride a jeep.. ang gastos talaga. I was suprise about how my little cousin approached me awhile ago..aba finally i heard her say my name although it wasnt clear at all (ate wen-wen for lenlen), ive been forcing her to memorize my name for several times and finally she remembered it ..shes turning 2 this year.. Is it fathers day today?? im confused hehe! i just finished my call @ exactly 12am.. ill be taken a cab on my own.. mishi's not here anymore eh and what i really hate about it is ill be taking a cab with nino my mortal enemy.. we just had a meeting awhile ago about the cook out that will happen this tuesday im not sure if ill be there.. but ill try my best..if i change my mind.. i wasnt able to attend the search in vocation at st paulines today.. kc naman nahilo talaga ako kagabi.. sr terry even texted me twice to remind me about that.. siguro talagang di para sakin un =( ..ok gtg

2nd shift

so as i said i took a cab with my mortal enemy..i wonder why hes not teasing me anymore..ambunan ko kaya ng maraming coach-ins tong coach na ito..actually im thinking of applying for tier2 supervisor, but im still concerned about my stats last may.. ow b4 i forget their coach decided to just give our share of the money no more cookout etc.but thats ok coz i need this money badly..

Saturday, June 11, 2005

4 more days and its payday again

pigang piga na ako as in to the last cent ito..ang gastos ko kasi eh! i just bought this ab roller thing the other week just right after payday.. kasi nga namatayan ng aso sister ko (arra).. pati kaya umiyak super lambing nung aso na un eh too bad he died of sars joke!!...and to keep her busy i thought i should buy her something she really wanted.. at first we didnt know how to use it..my dad even asked me to send it back to sportshouse..ayoko nga 50% off din un eh.. after a few days i learned how to use it, my mom an obese hehe! actually tried it and said that if my dad asks me to bring it back again,,she will back me up..mishi's leaving the team and me she just got the promotion for PS (product specialist) good for her.. i've been offered this position.. but im still petrified about the super technical issues i'll be getting from customers.. Its okay if they put me in the call back team.,.i wanted to experience calling irate customers feeling ko kasi e-epekto yung pagiging malambing ko at sinungaling ko minsan kaya lang kasi baka mahuli eh! masibak pa ko sa work.. saka feeling ko i lack communication skills.. hehe! at least im honest..ill miss you mishi!

Thursday, June 09, 2005

series of unfortunate events

im so sorry i wasnt able to update you for almost a month i think.. probably the reason behind this is because i lost mg GG.. este my crush .. anyway he just got married yesterday..i think this year is so far the worst year ive ever had.. ive been getting low stats, ive been having problems regarding money the fact na okay naman ang salary pero kasi magastos eh.. minsan pa nga feeling ko rejected ako ng bagong coach namin.. o yes before i forget we already have a new coach the last coach/supervisor just resigned di niya kami nakayanan hehe! namimiss ko na talaga yung unang coach namin si boots wala akong makasundong supervisor.. grrr!! these past few days i became interested with this star wars movie cguro dahil sa nalaman kong last na yun at tapos na iyong star wars 4,5,6 kaya naging interesado na lang ako ng ganun..im starting to feel petrified about this rumour my co-workers are telling me..that theyll be terminating agents based on stats.. pero kahit naman papano # 1 ako sa SAT sa whole center (cust satisfaction and crift) pero kasi di lang yun ung basehan eh! anyway incase that happens pupunta akong manila! promise..were on split shift right now so that means we have to work for 4 hours that'll be (8-12am) then the next day (8-12pm).. some of my team mates enjoy this schedule but i dont..at all! specially now that were having lots of rains and thundering here ano ba yan para na ba kong (tagabaryo), and the fact that i have to spend my salary on my fare and on my fare oh did i say fare. hopefully well be having a regular schedule by june 18.. malapit na rin un .. konting tiis na lang.. kainis!
twake kuware! (",)

Monday, May 16, 2005

a tribute to NUNS.. tagalog ito

ang saya kanina sa St Paulines kahapon, i really like the way they take care me, im so glad "ecel" (perchance) is the only gurl who knows about my online diary..puro kakornihan ata saka katatawanan yung nandito eh.. thanks a lot for your comment. My GG is not here again.. pumunta ako sa st paulines kahapon, bilib talaga ako sa mga madre grabe nakakaaliw pang 3 beses ko na ring pumunta dun at maghangmangha pa rin ako.. they always do search in every 2nd sunday of the month ang talagang suki dun ung sister ko si arra, she goes there every thursday.. pero ako every 2nd sunday lang talaga ako.. di ko pa rin nakikita ung self ko na magmamadre eh parang malabo talaga.. but what i like about these sisters eh sobrang aalagaan ka kulang na nga lang lagi kaming itext ng mga sisters ko.. aliw kasi sila kasi 3 kaming gustong magmadre??? sila lang noh! pero ako superduper alanganin.. pero theres nothing wrong about it.. naisip ko lang kasi pano ko pa mafufull fill ung dreams ko na magkaroon ng maraming pera..baka ma-washout lang lahat ng pangarap ko.. sabi naman ni sister okay lang naman daw yun eh pag para kay Lord. I'm still thinking about it??? ...hmmm alanganin talaga eh!

Kala ko nuon iyong atmosphere duon parang napaka-solemn tapos pag magsalita sila yung' super duper mahinhin..pero ang gagaling din pala nilang makipag biruan kaya nakakaaliw din..and take note super ang sasarap ng mga fuds duon grabe talagang parang gusto mong tumira duon.. ilang weeks na rin akong nililigawan ng mga madre duon eh pero ayoko kasi alam ko di lang ganun ganun yun,, kailangan talagang nararamdaman mong magiging madre ka nga talaga hindi yung basta basta.di ko man mafeel kuing magdamit pa nga ako minsan eh sexy saka nyak di ko makita,, sobrang di ko makita.. nung bata ako pwede pa. Gusto ko talaga nuon singer or Madre naks.. pero ngayon malabo..singer nga malabo pa eh, un pa kaya diba! i just found out lately that my crush will be having a baby and im the second one to know about it,,here at work.. How did i know about it?? her girlfriend is my teammates sister. And she told me that the reason why he hates my crush (GG) is because he keeps on saying that he is single the fact that hes been in a relationship for 3 years.. See i thought this man was really perfect i mean not that perfect but at least different from most guys but i was wrong big time.. Parang naiyak nga ko nung nalaman ko eh.. i dont know what to do anymore .. And its about time i should really move on. Kainis move on na lang ako ng move on--mag 6 years na kong walang Bf.. magmadre na lang kaya ako..grr baka di rin ako tanggapin dun.. Siguro talagang ganito na lang muna ako..kainis talaga.
1 more shift and its my day off finally! maka pag confess nga sa wednesday okay till then! magahahanap ako ng bagong crush ko.. di na lang ata bata pa naman ako diba! (".)

Sunday, May 15, 2005

shame on me!

finally! im on p3 hehe! so that means i wont be getting too many calls anymore compared with p1.. and i've been on p1 for almost 5 mos i think..and finally im on p3..but i have to be careful because they might put me on training again and if i fail training im outta here! of course i dont want that to happen coz i have to look for a better job first before they kick me off this job! yesterday was friday the 13th but nothing special happened. Except the part where my co worker talked to me about my crush and how obvious things are between me and him grrr! i can hardly look at him anymore.. not unlike before like he used to wink at me, everytime he catches me staring at him..whatever!!starting from now on i wont be looking at him anymore, unless he turns hes back on me.. coz he probably thinks super dead na dead na ako sa kanya di pa naman medyo lang.. okay gtg.. i have to go to St Paulines chapel and submit my assignment!! im still crossing my fingers for this coz i dont i have a vocation for ....secret.. never, i just like the way they take care of me.. at saka aliw na aliw ako sa mga madre!! hehe! take care..

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

HoNey!!

Mishi {co-worker} didnt report for work today .. i miss her .. last sunday i watched the movie Honey and Ladder 49.. the movie honey for me is just like legally bond. The movie talks about motivation basically its about how we guys can fullfill our dreams. Jessica Alba really looks beautiful and sweet very lite..I wonder whos shes dating right now!? We were looking for the cd oceans 12,, but unfortunately we didnt notice we got the oceans 11 cd.. well im about to bring back the cd but im not sure if im gonna be able to return it and exchange it with a diff cd..coz for sure oceans 12 is OUT again grrr!! Caren {co-worker} just told me that my crush is selling a "shitzu" worth 6k.. hayy how i wish ill be holding him like a treasured pet,, nyak what am i talking about.. but what im saying is like a pet ill be pampering him the way he should be pampered.. ah basta ewan bahala na hanggang dream lang naman lahat eh!! im really not sure if id be able to make it this sunday.. coz i aint got no money anymore plus im sure sunday will be a work day for me and not a day off.. but im sure they'll understand it specially melai.. Anyway about the MOvie HoNeY..i think dancing is my frustration next to my biggest Frustration which is Being a SingER!! hehe.. i didnt know jessica alba knows how to flow that way she really got me crazy!! i wish i was her..{ayan na nanaman eh}..We have a new coach again and his name is Rj actually his an OIC,, and awhile ago i just got pissed off bec of him imagine ive been taking in calls for more than 4 hrs and i havent taken my break yet,the fact that he asked my other teammates to take their break after 2 hrs call bad trip un diba.. but eventually i forgot everything abt it the moment my GG passed by my station hehe!! okay i gtg..pls cross your fingers for me,,i hope by next week id be able to sing again

Sunday, May 01, 2005

MAY 1

finally another month today is may 1..and i should start the month right even if i feel bad about things.. hehe! yesterday was payday and promise ill be careful in spending my money this time.. Too bad di kami natuloy sa beach kasi may sakit si jarrell eh (my friends baby),,,but thats okay! kaya lang what im concerned about is how am i goin to tell them that i wont be free this sunday anymore.. I was just given an invitation by carol to attend her baby's christening.. and take note my crush will be there.. Of course ill be there hehe!! i'll be telling you soon in details the highlights of the occassion..i mean my highlights of that occassion whew! okay bye for now till then!!

Saturday, April 30, 2005

Quick PinCh

Hes wearing red right now.. i think its same red shirt i saw the last time. j/k..i havent seen him for 2 days and i dont think if i really miss him..i really hate my calls today.. imagine this is so far the worst day of the year..maybe because im really concentrate too much on my calls or on my job.. after january 2006.. i will be finding a new job.. ill just have to wait for the tax refund etc and im outta here.. okay i gotta go ..just found out that ill be having my day off on sunday.. and our barkada will go out this sunday.. and ill still be there after all.. he didnt notice me today but i hope tomoroow he will

Thursday, April 28, 2005

no money no movie

every day off i usually rent cds for us to watch a movie at home ..but too bad i got no money anymore. we just won a nikko remote control sports car.. they say its worth more than 3k. My grandpa just gave me 100 bucks to spend for this day, and the thing is i told him not to tell my parents or anyone that i borrowed money from him. I always wanted to watch this movie honey and ladder 49. okay i gotta go now.. ill be visiting my friend criz again. I always visit her during day off, and i wonder when will she be visiting me?.. take care!

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

finally

i dont know if i'll feel happy today or if ill feel sad.. Im happy coz tomorrow is our day off finally its our day off. Imagine weve been working for 8 straight days.. and the last thing i want is to take in calls. Our supervisor just came in again FINALLY!! yesterday a diff supervisor talked to us about our stats and about a corny game that will be doing today and of course our favorite subject: "about ou supervisor".. we told him everything he needs to know about our sup..starting from how he handles the team until why hes handling our team!!???... While i was doing this blog my supervisor passed by my station (buti na lang nasara ko kaagad) hehe!as usual we were not able to play our game anymore, but thats okay id rather choose to take in calls.. andy, nelmies cousin just sent his picture. I think hes okay! hmmp 4 more days to payday,.,,and i cant wait! my GG is wearing red today..and hes so cute. I just found out awhile ago that i was being monitored on my call. i think it would be better if that person didnt inform me about it,,coz i did stammered big time and i even lost my concentration..sobrang inis nga ko sa taong yun eh! sana di na siya magpakita..Promise ko sa self ko ill never talk to that person,ever sobrang kahit kailan...i hate him! i wonder why i cant see him here on the floor where did he go!?? we just had a meeting with my long lost supervisor, i thought this will be an open forum,but maybe because we really felt so bad abt our coach we were not able to cry out our cocerns..kasi nga daw critical na daw yuns sakit niya.. okay bye gotta go till then

Monday, April 25, 2005

change of mind

last post i did say im over him totally for real.. But just today i found out that his cousin just died i feel bad for him really bad.. and then all of sudden i feel like i like him again hehehe!! really so confusing. I dont know i just feel bad about what happened and i cant help seeing him always wearing black, he used to smile always. But now his totally different i really pray hell get over it soon. Its really hard to loose a relative. I once promised myself that before i die i should have fullfilled all my dreams, my friend even made a joke out of it and said, im so lucky to live forever. Hmp thats what she thinks! as soon i turn 40 i'll make sure that WORLD BANK will be mine.. even if its impossible to own it. As usual my supervisor is absent again, imagine hes the one who keeps on telling us that hes goin to give IR's (incident reports) the moment were absent.. and take note hes been absent for 5 straight days.. I really hate our schedule imagine we were asked to work for 8 straight days.. And ill be getting my day off on wednesday and thursday.. when it was suppose to be on sunday and monday.. And this sunday our BARKADA will be going to the beach, and they're expecting me to be there, coz i was the one who planned for it not actually the one who planned for it, but i was the one who thought of it.. April 30 is payday again hehe! its only monday and i dont have any money anymore.. Maybe i should start thinking of a way on how to save money ..lets see when will i start thinking about it?? hehe!.. another supervisor asked us to report to her after work, probably this is about our irresponsible supervisor. We really wanted to kick him off the team hes gay and very noisy.. not that im saying that just bec his gay we hate him or HER w/e.. i enjoy being with gays i mean you can talk to them about anything, anytime, and they really open and frank.. but this gay supervisor is really totally different to the max.. that why we hate him grrrrr.. Hes not even allowing us to apply for other positions.~~~~~~~~~~chaNge ToPic~~~~~~~~
I think i still like him after all!! halp!!

Friday, April 22, 2005

PERcHaNce!!~

hi PErChance thank you so much for dropping by, finally someone did bother to check out my blog my online diary.. I was abit upset yesterday coz i created a very long post unfortunately i wasnt able to paste it because system was down for like 30 mins grrrr too bad i lost it. Yesterday I wasnt really feeling well, the nurse even gave me like 2 medicines to take in. What i really feel bad about is my supervisor didnt even bother to put me on P2 or P3 (so that ill be getting lesser calls). And ive been on p1 for like 5 mos sH*T!! sometimes i really wish hed be uhmm ,,..NevahminD!

Well about my crush starting from now on im not goin to mention anything about him anymore.. cozZ i'm over him..and this time its for real. I dont know what changed my mind but im over him and i have to move on naks! Maybe because of my co worker.. mish is a very hard working person she has 2 jobs first she works as a call gurl for like 9 hours! (like me, call center agent) , then she teaches piano for another 5 hours.. i used to do 2 jobs before before i go to work i spend almost 3 hours singing in a restaurant here in baguio and belive me ang hirap! sobra the best part of it is You MAKe A Lot of Money. Hmmp okay i gotta go thank you again perchance!!

you might wanna check out this song a song by KitcHie NaDAL cute nito eh

SAME GrOunD

My love
It's been a long time since i cried
And left you out of the blue
It's hard
Leaving you the way When i never really wanted to


Self denial
Is a game so strange i never really should've wanted
Til there was you
Cause i have learned that love was beyond
What human can imagine
More it clears
The more i gotta let you go

'cause what i don't understand
Is why i'm feeling so bad now
When i know it was my idea
I could've just denied the truth and lied
Now why am i the only one standing stranded On the same ground

My love
It's been a long time since i cried
And left you out of the blue
It's hard
Leaving you the way When i never really wanted to

Self denial
Is a game so strange i never really should've wanted
Til there was you
Cause i have learned that love
Is a word just thrown
A litlle bit too much of this
Excuse to fill this infinite of desire
And nevere ever have to fade

Cause what i don't understand
Is why i'm feeling so bad now
When i know it was my idea
I could've just denied the truth and lied
Now why am i the only one standing
stranded On the same ground

If all else failWould you be there to love me?
When all else failsWould you be brave to see right through me?

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

another bad day..until when LORD HeLp!!

i still dont feel happy today even if melai gave me my med certificate imagine i called work and i was asking them my schedule for tomorrow coz im very confident that its my day off today. Only to find out that i have a 10:00 schedule..but when i checked on my supervisors table coz i was wondering why i was the only person working on our station..it shows in our schedule that my schedule is 1:30 am tomorrow! and im here working instead of sleeping..now how bad is that? im really so F**K*D up..I dont care abt my crush anymore i dont care if hes here or where he is wherever he is i dont care..I really hope id be a break but not "BUM break" im sure nobody wants that..I'm the only agent here and im starting to freak out,,what if ill get a very complicated issue naah i dont think so..i believe i can handle it after all im a pro.. well i should...see ive been doing this job for almost a year. i just had a commendation today my customer was really really happy about the way i handled her concern..but id dont think i did great for that parang the usual.. i promise to myself i wont be thinking of him anymore eh it wont do me good naman eh! i thought that having that big crush on him can inspire me but not at all.. Thats why i think it would be better if i just concentrate on work and my family friends?? i know theyll always hang in there for me well they always do.so where was i yesterday?i was just talking about this butterfly effect movie...well honestly i was having a hard time seeing ashton kutcher play roles out of his usual character and so called real life personalities..i though before that if an actor can be funny he cant be serious as well..but Ashton did good hes really a good actor and if i was to do do a critic job on this id rather review it and not suck the fun out of it. my coach just told me that tomorrow will be my day off again..but if im able to fix my things and wash my clothes today well id be present tonight and do another rest day OT..from now on i promise i wont look at my crush anymore pwamise yoko na nigugulo niya life ko eh.. :]

Monday, April 18, 2005

Bad Hair Day

Im feeling bad today grrr financial reasons..i really can't believe I spent almost all of my salary for just one day. I can't even tell whether or not  I enjoyed. Well as for my girlfriends graduation birthday party it turned out fine i got her a cd of mymp that includes the song Love Moves .. and the song especially for you.. i really hate the way I spend money nowadays sobrang inis na ako. Well I was suppose to be work last saturday but i called MOd {manager on duty} and told them that im having a migraine and dysmenorrhea.. of course that's not a good reason to be absent. So melai told me that shell be giving me a medical certificate this monday to back me up..but honestly, i was really having a bad head ache. My dad even thinks that I'm starting to act the way i was acting the before. I just watched this "butterfly effect" movie today. You really have to concentrate on each scene. it's the kind of movie that lets you think of what you wanted to change if only you can turn back time. But towards the endof the movie,  you sson realize that NOTHING IS PERFECT.

If only i can turn back time I'd go back to the day i was in grade 4. How bout You?  "If only you can turn back time what would you change in your life??". Well, i bet you would  tell me that you won't change anything coz u learned from your mistakes.. But for me honestly, of course I will change my life. Not that im saying that I'm not contented with what I've become. But, for me there is still something missing. Well, i guess I'd be able to find that missing piece as I cross the bridge..chow..I'm so sentimental today.. bear with me guys

Saturday, April 16, 2005

Graduation of a Friend

Today is a fine day and I'm so happy coz its pay day hehe!! ,yesterday was my bestfriends'birthday..she just turned 24 i was not able to see her for more than 6 mos i think. Damn do i miss her..my cousin juts gave a tip on how to win your crush a stupid tip see she said.. If everyone knows about you having a crush on him it would be better if you ignore him as in totally ignore him but ignore him in a way that he will notice you. My cousin even gave an example.. A FUNNY example. But i dont think i can do that. Its Melizas graduation tomorrow and i'm so glad finally where all college graduates ..except for my other friend who chooses to go abroad instead of studying..I really hate my job see if only i can find a job who can pay me higher than the salary I earn here,  I'd go for it but the problem is I cant find a job that can pay me higher or at least as much as i get here.

I wish i can study again take masters or law. But too bad i dont have the money to do the things I want to do,..grrr! and its hard to earn that money even if I have a job.. I once promised myself that when I turn 28 i should be having my own car, house and my adopted child hehe!but, I don't think im gonna be able to keep my promise at all =( .. I hope, I can manage my money this time, how I wish I could be able to do that..wish ko lang..sarap gumimik bukas.. Di pumasok yung GG ko absent kainiz

Saturday, April 09, 2005

TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN!!!!>>>>(",)

I know you're out there.  I'm waiting for you.
 I want you to know Im dreaming about you.
 I want you to know I haven't given up on finding you, my Mr. Perfect.
 Every day, I get one step closer to you, to us. I cant wait till we finally meet and this year of being single will all have been worth it.
 I cant wait, all the things Ill do.
All the little conversations well have, all the things I cant wait to tell you.
I want you to know Ive learned alot, and I think I can be the best lover possible.
 I can't wait for roses to have a meaning again, I can't wait to take you out to dinner and obsess over the way you pick at your food or hold a glass.
 I can't wait to talk to you till 4 in the morning and lose sleep cause I cant get enough of you.
 I can't wait for  you to utter that famous phrase I met a girl.

I know you're out there, and I know youre looking for me.
I know you're looking for Mr. Right, and while Im nothing close to perfect I promise I'll give you everything I have.
I'll put my soul into you, I'll make up for all the nights of waiting,
 I'll make up for coming into your life so late.
We have a lot of catching up to do, we have so much ground to cover and so much still ahead.
I can't wait to begin my life with you.

I want you to have faith until we find each other.
I want you to believe that love is possible.
 Even if you've been like me, crying into the godless moon, making small puddles on pillows.
 I haven't given up on you, and hopefully, you haven't given up on me.
 Hopefully you'll still smile at me when we finally meet.
 Im just around the corner, Im just a day away.
Please my dear, dont give up hope of us meeting.
Don't close your heart when we finally do.
I fear this letter may reach you too late, I fear it may never find you at all.
Which is why I blindly write this, to encourage you when your faith is perhaps thin from too many nights alone.

I am here, I am suffering in loneliness also.
Patiently waiting for that phone call or that chance meeting.
 Patiently waiting to start our life together.
 I know youre out there, and I cant wait.
I'm going to spoil you, to make up for having no one to spoil.
I'm going to love you, to make up for having no one to love.
I'm going to be that perfect lover I always talk about.
 I'm going to be the amalgamation of all my prior loves.
All lessons learned, all experiences condensed.
I'll be everything I was, plus everything Ive learned while being single for so long.
All I ask is that you let me be the lover I am; let me touch you, let me love you, let me be everything that is dying to get out.
 Let me bring you into my world.
I know you're out there, and Im patiently waiting.

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

I DON'T EXIST at ALL

I'm feeling sick today!! But in a way, I feel great coz i saw him again.. heheh!! I just read his friendster acct and imagine more than a hundred testimonials. Which really gives me enough reason why were not meant to be! naks. Well I"m planning to look for a different job coz i dont wanna be a call gurl anymore. But the problem is, I wont be seeing him anymore. Well, I think this is for good since, i feel like for him, "I DONT EVEN EXIST at ALL".  I have to move on find  and myself a different life! We just had a heart to heart talk with my cousin at Dev and after all she's not the kind of person I thought she was, I even felt bad for her. She  cried because, she wants  a better job that would pay her  more bigger and at the same time a job that she will enjoy, a job that will help our family FINANCIALLY. I feel for her,, coz i feel exactly the same way,,starting from now on I'm going look for a better job.. I dont want to work as a call gurl forever i want to have a business of my own. Or even a job that i can call mine. Whats really different about my life is i never had a boyfriend for almost 6 years ..coz for me having someone only makes u loose your focus..but yet until now i still dont see myself established..very very sad.until now i still think that i'm loosing focus. Maybe, I should start thinking of something worthwhile aside from what im doing right now.

But hey believe me this is the first time I ever felt this way about someone and to think he's only my crush! O diba napa kafunny kaya nun! but one things for sure the next person I'm going to fall for, would be the luckiest guy in the world.. See I cant believe I'm taLKINg about a guy now.. I think I changed a lot, influenced by my co-workers. I dont know what will happen next week, I'm  planning on resignig and I'll be leaving him for good. About my crush, he doesn't notice me anyway,. But there was a time he said hi! hello.....hmp! It was prolly because a friend of him was right beside me, because I didn't look at the person behind me, It's like I got Hypnotized. 

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

ANoThEr UpDAtE..The LAst FloWer FeSt! not bad after all

  • Today is tuesday another work day. LasT sunday i watched the awaRding of the winners for Flower Festival. Rumour says that UB will win the marching band competiton but SLU took the pitch. Thats' because UB let one person join their group and that person did not enroll for this semester. The same situation that happened last year. They never learn,.my sister is a band member for SLU.. and my youngest sister is also a band member for UB. After they announced that SLU is the winner my youngest sister said most of the UB members really,actually cried. And they almost had a fight with SLU.. I watched the competition and I really thought that UB will win it..SLU's presentation is not that good but they sounded really nice compared with UB.. However, UB's presentation was really  the best, talk about their acrobatic moves, the steps and the colors and the majorettes..they were also doing shoulder stands lang naman, pero mahirap din un. It was also suprising that we already have cheering competiton for Flower Festival. Sana noon pa..I was also a member of a CHEEriNG SQUAd before.  Men Its really hard to do STUNTS!. SLU won the cheering competiton.. my youngest sister said our STUNTS where  more higher and were  more better compared with SLU's StunTS.
  •  However, we cant do handstands unlike what  UB did, UB has also good stunts coz they were able to do the handstand without any spotters..the only problem is they lack choreography and Practise, they dance like a bunch of elementary students hehe! talk about being rude. I think maybe if i'm still studying at SLU right now, i'll be part of that the CHERRING SQUAD team coz most of the performers are YFC (Youth For Christ) members. But too bad i'm already a graduate..hehe!!
  • Before I talk about good news let me talk about bad news..they the guards at work were   asking me go home and get my id e.. the guards said that once i don't get to use my ID the 2nd time, I have to go home and not report for work.. screw them..anyway they still told me to report for work. Coz everyday is queueing day. Mel! pls give me back my ID. OKay heres the GOOD NEWS I saw my Crush Today and he smiled at me naks kilig naman ako noh! Hes not cute but he looks cute to me, he looks smart, very uhmm, i hope you get the picture. Finally, this time i have a crush on a guy...but maybe not for long. hayy!! wink wink c",)