I love this song.. i really enjoy listening to Second Hand Serenade.. watch as they serenade you with VuLnerable.

Im losing enthusiasm with everything that im doing~ anyway i actually posted here in my blog pics that i cant actually post in friendster tehee!.. im financially drowning .. i really need to find a better job that could pay me higher. I cant live with just 6 thou a month . I can't hold on any longer. I was agiven more students but the thing is its still not enough .. i still need more .. if only they could give me 22 or 27 (hehe fave numbers eh ) then okay na ko swear. Im not going to demand for anything more bigger.
This wednesday we are going to have a very long quiz in oblicon . Imagine I need to digest the book again. Atty Vergara is really plucking our last string of patience but that's okay. sabi nga nila magandang training ground daw ang ginagawa ng mga prof sa UC. The thing is its really stressing us out. Anyway i'm sure that if I do my part HE wont forget to help me out. tehhee! which reminds me .. i need to buy memoplus again or glutafose.. hay naku , up until now i still cant feel the effect of these multivitamins .. all i know is that i feel more sleepy, haha! specially if i take them now most probably i might just stay in bed all day. #3 days na sipon at headache ko kainis. I'm thinking of sending my faborite student in RSVP an email. Hes name is Mr Baek Seung Kyu .. i miss talking to him .. sobra talagang bait nya, the thing is i actually signed something before i resigned that i should not cut my connection or every dealing i have the moment i leave the company. But i dont care! one of these days mag sesend talaga ako ng email sa kanya.
I hope to get rid of my headache and colds. I need to read a lot of things. Just imagine its consti tomorrow, i havent read the cases yet for our next topic which is on executive dept. And on Thursday we will have our long quiz in oblicon .. just imagine you need to memorize 146 articles. Ah basta kakabisaduhin ko lang keber ko .. wala naman .siguro abnormal na lang talaga un makakamemorize nun ng 1 week lang. Eh iisa lang nga ang memeorize ko na kwento galing sa bible eh. And it took me months to memorize it and just think about it 7 mins lang tapos na siya.. ganun ako ka talino.. kidding .. hehe
Today is pay day but its still is useless. I need to pay my mom, my credit card and i need to bye a blue sandal hehe!.. sana kasya. There's this skirt i have that i really would like to pair with my black skinny only i dont have a cute sandals to pair it with. . . sana makha ako sa people support. I really want to get paid higher. kahit mag work na ko ng 8 hrs okay lang sa kin. I'm going to go back to being a coach, or ill just apply as a trainer (Lord please Forbid). I really need to pay my mom the money i owe her. The money i used for my tuition fee , and the money i used to buy my own cellphone.
One more class and im out. I'm actually thinking of going straight to the lib. But i remember i need to take care of dana. I magine until now there still is no baby sitter. The last time i told my sister-in-law that i cant take care of her. I flunked my quiz. kaya ayoko na. I think i'll just take care of dana tapos i'll just review while taking care of her.
byeah! I'll tell you about Paulo Coehlo naman next blog!

Pictures that i need to keep .. so i'll just post it here .. tehee!

ARRA , NANETTE, and ME
(( To My sisters ::Lav YaH ))

3 more minutes and i need to log out here at work ... Finally!

I was just visiting websites about Noel Malimban UC's bartopnotcher and well i kinda wish i could be like him. Libre lang nga talagang mangarap pero siyempre ksabay ng pangangarap eh dapat diba sabayan mo ng pagdadasal at sipag naks!.

I'm really thinking of resigning again. I know I havent stayed here yet for 2 mos, The thing is i know sooner or later i would really have a few students and if i only have a few students then i wont be able to get a bigger pay. We just had 3 days vacation because of Chinese New Year!. I know my job is so easy ... but believe me its really hard to get up every morning at 4:30. Sometimes i use 3 cellphones for my alarm clock, because i have this "5 minutes more" sickness, that i add 5 more minutes to my sleeping time before i actually drag myself to get up ( sometimes my five minutes becomes 10 or 20 mins ... worst was 2 hrs! and yep i almost got fired) anyways.. I dont know if i will still continue my studies next sem. I know University of Cordilleras i one of the best Law Schools here in the Philippines. But sometimes i feel that I should be earning more money not for myself but for my family. Just like old days, I used to give them almost like 6 thou a month , i know thats not big enough considering the fact that i get 22k a month (BEfore!... oh i miss those days). Anyway the thing is sometimes i feel like i maybe the reason im studying again is because i just want to escape from my responsibility. Though some of my friends say that its not actually my responsibility to give them money , I actually attempted not to give them money before ... but i cant.. konsensya ko pa rin un nag sasabi na ang selfish ko naman. Kaya lang nag tataka lang ako sa mommy ko minsan kasi she tells me na di daw ako nagbibigay. Eh from what i remembered before i go shopping for what i want , i make sure na natabi ko na un pera na bibigay ko sa kanila. Siguro ulyanin lang siya.

On feb 22 i'll be applying again in a callcenter. I think I told you before that never am i gonna back to being a callcenter employee. But becasue i need money for my studies and i need to help my parents with the bills and yeah ... my Citibank bill. I need to go back and work again in a callcenter.

I really miss my college days, Ang hirap pala ng graduate school. Especially Law School. Actually last night I was going through my exams during my First semester in Law School i found out that my answers before where actually better than my answers today. Last sem talaga di ako nag concentrate eh . I still cant believe na sumabit un isang subject ko . Di ako yun . Sometimes i hate showing my face in class (the hell do i care) they are not the ones paying for my tuition fee anyway. teehee!

I envy Cris.. well kinda.. but im really happy for her.. she finally found what she want. I just hope that Rob and Cris will learn to settle their differences maturely. Sometimes I think that Rob is acting as if he is younger than cris. Cris never goes out the house , seldom do we see each other. But still he accuses her of something so absurd. I know one of these days he will realize hes wrong.

Sometiems i hate my sister. Especially when she sees me reviewing . Its as if shes telling me that no matter what i do I cant pass my subjects. The reason im actually studying is not because i want people to see me as a smart person , nor for people to see me that my life is productive, not even because i want to show people that I can make sense. But because I want to be a Lawyer, I want to do this for my dream and my family. It was my mom who told me that when my uncle died justice was not served, they were not even able to find the person who murdered him, my uncle was a taxi driver, and at that time i thought that maybe i could find the answer to it. which i know is impossible. kasi matagal na yun wh. Anyway I need to answer a question that has been buggling my mind these past few years that lead me to pursue my dream. How can music lead you to success?, the thing is i really have a strong passion for music and i really wanted to be a singer when i was a kid (not granted). What i noticed was most people who succeeded in their llives where at first musicians. A 3 year old kid i watched in Tv knows how to play a certain piece in his little piano , Most of the attorneys in our school are into music , well i know most people are. Anyway all i wannna know is how could a person be successfull with just music. I hope you get the gist of it.. geez im confused now.

Okay i gotta go now.. take care! and see you soon

hmm wich me luck on Feb 22.. 25 rather!

I thought i'm okay .. i dont know if its really true that man doesnt sem to be contented. The thing I was actually one of the first who worked here however i still wonder why i have the most few student. If i were to gauge my skills, i feel like my skills are okay. Sometimes i even hear my co workers use ny tactics . I dont know why is hould suffer to have only few student. Anyway I actually passed the audition . We have to no work from wednesday to friday, on friday i will be attending the workshop.. im kinda not in the mood to tell you all that happened last week. But i'll just try to let all my thoughts out. Oh by the way last week i found out that i have ulcer. I'm starting to lose hope and drift away again I hate this but i dont know how i am going to keep up with my feelings Lord please give me a reason to move on. I guess i really need to finish Cris' bus proposal. Good for her all she worries about is travelling. Yesterday my mom was getting mad at me again because of the money i owe her. I dont really want to quit this job... honestly i dont ... please lord give me a reason to stay. well actually i have lots of reasons but i feel like somnetimes i still need a bigger reason . Lord, please give me a reason to hold on. What pissed me off big time yesterday was that my sister cant find the letter that i actually wrote to myself. I promised to read that letter again come 2008. It's 2008 now but where am i . blood, bowed, i dont know i just hate it , i hate this , ciaO gtg .. see you when im alive