wat i do everyday is....!!

A moving image:

First Fail (My Head Is Bloody But Unbowed)

After awhile I though this year would be something i could look up to. I just had mytFirst Fail for this year as i came in to work i found out that there were able to ramp up the next tier2's and unfortunately i was not included in the list again.. Siyempre una dedma ang lola mo! and just so hindi nila makita na super bad trip na ko ayun nag cr na lang ako saglit just to compose my self. Grabeh ang sama ng feeling ko, the reason why i really feel bad is because i was very confident about my exam since parang naulit lang yung mga questions nuon although it has been rephrased, and another reason why i really feel bad is because mas na promote pa yung earlier waves kesa sakin. Kaya nga feeling ko wala na kong maharap na mukha.. or am i just being hard to myself.. parang ang labas ko tuloy is capital "S" as in tulad ng customers ko na iba "S t u p i d" .. sabi nga ni mish at halos lahat ng tao "patience is a virtue" and that the Lord has better plans for me.. eh ang nakakainis nga eh di ako malakas kay Lord eh.. I've been praying so hard, pati nga family ko sobra na ang prayers nila para sakinbut still nothings happening.. kakaiyak nanaman.. wala talagang tigil ang ulan sakin bad trip! bakit kaya??!! nakapagtataka..hehe!

Sometimes i think maybe this is Gods sign. Uhmm that i should go ahead and find a different job or move to manila and try to be on my own,kaya lang Dito nga lang sa Baguio i have to confide my friends PeRsoNaLLY about my problems, eh pano kaya kung nag iisa na ko dun dava! taray ko,, eh simple lang naman ung gusto kong trabaho eh maging Flight Attendant or maging singer naks or attorney rin! kaya lang alanganin nga lang akong makapasa sayang!

I met with cris today as usual i have to tell someone about how i feel..im so glad shes always there for me kahit my sarili rin siyang problema. Before Lunch i tried calling the 2 companys na kumukuha sa kin

CHONA IDOL..

aydol chona mae
Monday, July 26, 2004

Trial only

=) Heloh! I'm Chona Mae. I work as a helper for my ate at kuya. I helprich families in cleaning their housold chores and their surroundingstoo. Is my first time here in the Manila. Actwally, is not Manila butValle Verde. My neighbors here in Valle Verde are big houses with richfamilies just like my ate and my kuya. Before in the past I lived inthe province in the town of Romblon but now I'm here in the ValleVerde because my ate (mam tess or ate tess for short) and my kuya (sirarnold or kuya arnold for short) live here. I am a happy person todaybecause my ate and my kuya teach me to use computer in the internet. Idont know internet and computer before coz i am only high school wayback then but ate and kuya entered me in a bocational school. i go tost. chamuel technological institute near the pasig church. its theschool near greenich pizza on the first floor with ukay-ukay on thesecond floor. the school in itself is on the third floor but aircon. ilearn to travel the internet and do website that is why i have this.Anyways, let me tell you somethings about myself. I stand 5'1" feettall and I'm 130 pounds. I am not fat but I am also not thin. Chabyonly. =) I like chocolates and candies. I also like the McDonaldsbecause it is in aircon. I go to school at night but i clean thehousehold chores on days but I stopped in the school coz my ate and mykuya stopped me coz i get tired a lot. i cry and cry coz i luv schoolcoz staying in school is cool and i learn a lot. but it is good thatmy ate and my kuya buy me a old computer. their son )kuya jeff or sirjeff for sure) go to States to study so they give me his old computeror PC (personal computer). i am tired now and i am sleepy so i willsay goodbye in the meantime coz i have to wake up early to clean thehousehold chores and ready the breakfast of the house. i feel sleepyalso. i will just tell you about all the happenings here in the house.bye! that's all folks!

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

i hate mam tess

"Hay naku, chona mae! puro ka lakwatsa! mamamasyal ka lang! kaya ngatinuruan kitang mag-internet di ba? pwede mo silang sulatan sa e-mail!matulog ka na at maaga pako bukas! puro kayo sakit ng ulo!"I cry andcry last night until i sleep. pano ko naman sila susulatan sa internete wala naman kaming PC (personal computer) sa romblon. hindi ngamarunong magmakinilya sina mama at papa e. nami-missed ko na talagasila. sabi ko nga kay mam tess, kung gusto niya, ihahatid na lang akong driver nila na si ambet para siguradong uuwi ako kagad lalo namangnagalit. hindi muna ako hihiling ng kahit ano kay ate kasi baka lalongmagalit. balak ko po namang umadbans sa sweldo sa katapusan kasi gustokong bumili ng bgagong cell. sira na kasi yung 5110i ko e. nahulog sawashing mashing. haaay naku. ang sungit talaga ni ate pag minsan.siguro menopos na. sabi nga nung katipan ni sir jeff pag kaaway niyayung kaibigan nilang si marinel, betch! betch ka talaga mam tess.sungit mo! i'm hate you!

posted by Chona Mae @ 3:19 PM

Reynanteng pangit

Thanks God sa wakas tapos na rin ang trabaho ko. hindi na masyadonggalit si mam tess sakin. binigyan pa nya ako ng mga luma nyang damitkaya lang di ko rin naman magagamit kasi lagi naman akong naka-uniformhindi pa ako pinapayagang lumabas. maghulog nga lang ng sulat sa poseoffice e kataku-takot na sermon na ang inabot ko kahapon. haaay naku.ang hirap talagang magpalaki ng amo. ito pa ang isang nakakainis. inisna inis talaga ako dun sa tagadiliver ng gasul na si Reynante.chinansingan na naman ako kanina. hmp! kainis! nagpapa-cute di namancute. tuwing iaabot ko yung bayad, lagi hinihimas yung kamay ko.kainis talaga! tapos ang sabi pa lalo daw ako gumaganda pagnakasimangot ako kaya ngumiti ako para mapangitan sakin tapos nungngumiti ako, sabi kinikilig daw ako pakipot lang daw ako. kainis!pangit mo reynante ampangit pangit mo. tae ka! tae mo, ang baho-baho!i'm not crush with you! mas pogi pa sayo si sir jeff no!posted by Chona Mae @ 5:37 PM

Wednesday, July 28, 2004

Malling

Heloh to all! I'm so exciting today coz mam tess is going mallingtoday. she wants me to join her. i think she's no longer angry with mecoz she smile at me this morning and she is taking me to the mall. shesays that she wants to buy shopping. akala ko nga masusuot ko na yungdamit na bigay nya kaya lang she wants me to wear uniform para disentedaw. here at home when i clean the household chores i wear the skirt uniform. monday wendsday and friday is the sky blue one but ontuesday, thursday is the green one. on saturday and sunday i wear thedark blue but mam tess teach me that it is royal blue not dark blue.basta yun. but on parties and events here at home i wear the pantsuniform that is all white so i look like a nurse in saudi. when we gomalling mam tess want me to use the pants uniform. i'm so exciting butsad also at the same time coz i cant watch marina in the TV but itsok. sana we go to glorietta or greenbelt and rackwel too. coz its nicetheir. sawa nako sa megamall at greenhills and there are many actorsand actressess from TV and movie also in rackwel. that's all folks!tawag nako ni mam tess. i wish that she buys me one blouse or t shirtor sandals too especially the step in sandals. =)

posted by Chona Mae @ 5:50 AM

Thursday, July 29, 2004

shopping in greenbelt 3

mam tess and myself are go to greenbelt 3 yesterday. mam tess buysdressess in mix. i thot that she will also buy me one but i sure thatshe gives them to me next year. she also buys shoes but mam tess dontwant step in sandals. i saw a beautiful step in sandal and i say toher: "mam ito po maganda" but she gets angry and she tells me that "e!ang pangit! ayoko nyan. ano ka ba naman?" hindi na lang ako nagsalitabaka magalit lalo. pero maganda naman talaga yung step in e. dah!their pretty kaya. i get tired walking and walking and following mamtess all over the mall in greenbelt 3 and bringing all her shoppingmaterials coz mam tess dont want to carry her paper bags. she onlywant to carry her sholder bag.i see many pretty people in the mall andamericans too also. mam tess order cofee at the cofee shop. i wantcofee also but she did not buy me. i'm hungry already but mam tess isnot yet hungry that is why i dont eat. hindi ko naman pwede sabihin nagutom ako kasi sasabihin maarte ako. haaay.mam tess finished shoppingalready and she meets her friends but they are not actwally friendsbut amigas. they are watch a movie. i was exciting when her amiga mamjosie ask her to watch a movie. i love watching movies and this is myfirst time to watch in a class mall but mam tess did not invite me.she give me money and she ask me to eat at jollibee in greenbelt 1 andwait for her at the cofee shop. i dont like jollibee coz my favoriteis mcdo. she give me 100 pesos. i went to jollibee coz mam tess islooking while i am walking but when i see her that she is not lookingi go to mcdo coz i love mcdo. i'm go to mcdo and i order quarterpounder. i eat many coz i'm very hungry. other girls are looking at mepero di ko alam kung bakit. i think its that pants uniform i wear cozthey think i'm a nurse in saudi but the paper bags i bring are allfrom expensive stores and the resibo are staplerd in the outside ofthe paper bag. i dont get shamed coz i have many shopping materialsand they are all class. i went to the cofee shop after eating in mcdo.i wait there for long coz the movie is long. im tired and the driverwill only come to us after mam tess calls the driver on the phone cozthe driver is joining sir arnold in the office. mam tess finally cometo me at the cofee shop but her amigas are gone. mam tess say that thedriver is already in the parking lots so we have to ride the elevatorto go up. i follow mam tess and the driver is there and we went home.the traffic is long and heavy but we come here at the house after along time. home sweet home. i go to sleep coz i'm tired.

posted by Chona Mae @ 3:51 PM

Monday, August 02, 2004

tired

Is been many days since i last write here coz i am very busy with workcoz weekend is major cleaning in the house. i'm so tired. very much.the house is very big and i am the only one person cleaning all thehousehold chores. mam tess always say: "bukas lilinisin nating angbuong bahay ha. gumising ka ng maagap tapos grocery tayo sa rustans"but she doesnt clean the household chores she is only shouting andshouting and telling me instructions."magsimula ka sa kwarto ng sir jeff mo" and then i go there to clean. on my way up as i am climbing theupstairs of the house, i hear again mam tess saying:"o? chona? asan ka na? di ba sabi ko eto munang kusina? ano bangpinagkakaabalahan mo dyan? computer na naman ano?"heloh! dah! sabi mo kwarto ni sir jeff tapos magagalit ka at biglamong sasabihin na sa kusina muna. layo nun sa kusina no. the kitchenis in downstairs and the room of sir jeff is in the upstairs. heloh!are you drugs? inis! tapos bintang kagad may masabi lang. bakit pakasi di na lang ako hayaang dumiskarte. diskarte ko na to mam. sino bakatulong dito? ako di ba? amo ka e. amo! do you clean? no! you are notclean! i clean! you only pay me! is sir arnold pay you to shout at meand make epal in my cleaning? no! you are not! he is not! i know thatif it is weekend, i do major cleaning all over the house. i clean allrooms and the cabinets and do floorwax and mopping. i wipe allappliances and clean the car but i think the driver should clean thecar coz i am not use it. did i? i also wash your clothes and yourlaundry and then iron them tomorrow. in cleaning the household chores,i know that i clean all over the house so if it is my room first thati clean, is the same coz after the day, when it is already night, allover the house is clean and tidy. my hole body is painful. i miss mamaand papa and sir jeff too coz he is in the states. =)p.s. i have new knowledge. i know how to slide letters already likethis and double write them so its thick letters not thin lettersanymore like this.

posted by Chona Mae @ 11:53 AM

i have email!

hi! is me again, chona mae banaag but you can call me chona for sure.i say this coz many people are asking and for you also to know my fullnames. i post a picture of mine tomorrow maybe but if not, maybe nexttime maybe. i am surprise coz many people are exciting in this site.they cannot wait for me to write again. i just want to say hi to allof you. you know who you are and thank you for visiting me like Je,cesxy, teki, trina, patricia, gwen, dark winter (is that weather?),psycholoves, and to anonymous also. i try to go to your sight in theinternet but cannot understand sometimes coz the english are deeperalso. mine is deep but yours are deeper. hope you write me also yourexperiences with your sir and mam so we can relate and i will alsowrite them hear. you can write to in the internet by email. my emailadd is (emailnichona)@yahoo.com coz i get sad a lot coz mam tess dontwant me to go to the pose office to write to my mama and papa. i wantpenpals. i cannot have textmate coz my phone is destroyed when itfell. they say that i also have chat in YM but i dont know how to chatin YM but i will write to you once i have new knowledge. thanks for dspace.

posted by Chona Mae @ 4:12 PM

Tuesday, August 03, 2004

To Anonymous:

someone write in the comments and say that i am a poser. no. i am nota poser. i am a helper but before, i dream and ambitioned to be amodel and pose in posters and magazines and newspapers (small and big)but it didnt come true. sometimes i pose on picture takings especiallyin christmas here in valle verde coz mam tess dont let me go home toromblon sometimes coz she needs help to ready the party of the houseand if i leave, no one will clean the household chores and the housewill be dirty. i am not a poser but i pose sometimes. ok? peace.p.s. ianswer teki's questions maybe later maybe coz i'm busy. but just alittle bit. =)posted by Chona Mae @ 10:40 AM question and answer portionmany of you are ask many questions. i dont know why. but hear are myanswers to all of the questions that you are asking. first, i answer teki's questions and the question of her helpers coz they say teki is the boss:

Questions:

1. hindi kasi ako marunong magplansta. kahit naplantsa ko, nagugusotpag suot ko na. May tips ka ba pano magplantsa?

2. nagagalit ako sa labandera namin. una, ang bilis bilis nya maglabatapos parang may mantsa palagi yung mga white blouse ko. Kayanagpapalaba na lang ako sa laundry shop kahit mahal. Ano kaya angdapat gawin ko?

3. marunong ka bang magluto? pano magluto ng menudo?

4 crush mo si sir jeff no?

5. sino kamukha ni mam tess?

6. kelan ulit tayo magshopping ni mam tess

Answers:

1.im not an expert but i know little only. but mam tess say im good.nagugusot talaga ng konti ang damit pag sinusuot but i think youshould be steady in wearing your clothes or dressess coz if you move alot, magugusot damit mo but my uniform (the skirt and the pantsuniform) i almirol them so they wont get gusot. even if i move a lotof times and clean the household chores, it is still hard but itchysometimes but its ok. but mam tess clothes and dressess are alwaysstraight. hindi nagugusot i think that is coz she is class.

2. dont be angry with your helper. i know she is doing her best andher all to wash your clothes and clean your laundry but maybesometimes it is not enuogh. you should study to wash your very ownclothes but dont get angry at yourself if there is a mistake in yourown washing coz is your fault.

3. i know how to cook. im all the round. i know how to cook menudo cozit is sir jeff's favorite food. =)

4. im not crush with sir jeff. heloh? he's pogi but im not crush withhim. and its ok if i have a crush in him coz crush is paghanga onlybut im not crush with him. =)

5. mam tess look like butch anson roa the actress. i think she is also a senator.

6. i dont know when mam tess will go shopping again but i dont know ifyou can join us coz its only mam tess and myself. sorry... =(

posted by Chona Mae @ 11:01 AM

bwisit ka reynante!

i'm really hate with reynante. filling masyado. filling pogi. ampangitnaman. i was cleaning the kitchen. wiping the kitchen showcase of mamtess and then someone doorbelled. i go out and i see reynante. i sayto him:"kakadiliver mo lang nung isang araw di ba? di naman ako tumatawagsayo a. ba't ka andito?"and then reynante just smile and say:"miss na kita e. bakit? bawal ka bang dalawin? miss mo nako no?"i close the door with a bang and i leave him outside. i bang the doorso that he knows that i'm angry with him. hmp! inis! nakakagigil!pangit pangit! after a short time, he doorbelled again. i go out againand he is gone but he left flowers at the floor near the gate. he left3 flowers. i get the flower coz mam tess and sir arnold will be comingsoon and they will get mad coz there is trash in the gate. i get the flowers but i see that the flowers are from our outside garden.reynante destroyed the flowers of mam tess coz he gets three fromthem. asar! papahamak pa ko! bwisit! magagalit na naman si mam tess.naku! reynante ikaw ang bwisit ng buhay ko! asar! pangit! baho mo!

posted by Chona Mae @ 10:10 PM

sick like a dog

Plan to Do Before I Die:

Seven Things I...
1) Buy my dream home and car
2) Meet my future husband, B _ Y _ _ (ok, if its not meant to be him, the one God planned for me).
3) Travel all over US, and Europe. Definately go back to the Philippines!
4) Have babies :)
5) Love without fear
6) Be a Singer
7) Compose a Hit Song

Things I Can Do:
1) Complain
2) Sing
3) Eat
4) Talk sh*t
5) Express myself clearly w/ facial expressions
6) Drive other people crazy
7) Kiss


Things I Can’t Do:
1) Love without fear
2) Be normal
3) Be secure
4) Stop worrying
5) My job
6) Draw
7) Listen to music without singing or dancing

Things I say most:
1) Whatever
2) I hate post-its!
3) Flippin'
4) Dude
5) How many points does that have?
6) I'm going bananas!
7) I'm SICK of my job!

***im sick and i hope i'll feel better tommorrow .. i miss my pillow.. hehe! maybe ill feel better.. if ever my pillow remembers me***

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oh how i wish anak ko ito~heres cris and melai ulit kulit kasi ni entong eh gusto niya ipost ko ata lahat~~~~ take care!! oh yan na pagpantasyahan mo.. heheh!

Walang Kwentang Post

sometimes we fall into depression

And many times it lets our day down

Though the path seems tough we have to go on

Youll never know what would happen so keep holdin on

Believin this is an important stage in this youg lifes journey

Plan our steps towards our goal and do it slowly

One that makes life exciting it futures uncertainty

look up for a life for solidarity

So dont give up stand up
learn from the shadows of you experiences

and hold on to it

Coz

it will give you radiance

whatever failure you encounter be an instrument of acceptanceand continue discovering the mission fo your existence ...

ala kong magawa kanina while i was on a call eh since down na lang ako parati eh ayan nag compose ako..ok ba paki correct na lang hehe!

by the way I have a new crush at siguradong di mag kakagusto sakin un guy.. first of all matangakad siya maputi, malinis tignan taz magaling na leader at grabe napa ka relihoyoso kaya lang huhu! alis na siya.. di bale na gagawin ko na lang siyang isang inspirasyon naks! kainis lagi na lang...

Today was my first day of work .. my day off was not like a day off after all eh panu since i was not able to do the things i should have done like fix my things etc..walang load yung tinatawag kong pillow ko kainis. Di ko muna siya itetext bayaan kong mamiss niya ko hehe! ...I met with andrea last Sunday and for once at the end of the day naging sensible siya sabi niya sa kin sa text its abt time i should face parang another phase or level sa buhay ko...as usual love. Eh kulang na lang silang mag freak out sa kin ok lang man ako di man ako naiinggit sabi pa ni andrea mas magiging mabait ka daw at patient pag may GG ka na as in (Gods Gift).. meron na ito sa previous posts ko eh. Whatever sawa na nga ko mag ka crush, im done with it. i dunno let me think about it deeply..hmp bahala na si Lord.

Yesh before i forget entong salamat pala sa comment mo nakakamiss ka rin pre! dont worry well be taking care of her for you..paghandaaan mo na yung 5k ko ha dahil talong talo ka na sa pusta!! ang Lola mo tatandang dalaga waaaah!!

Grabe i watched Herbie Fully loaded yesterday oh my gosh Lindsay Lohan isa ka talagang "diyosa ng hottie".. she definitely looks perfect..kun bakit pa kasi ako nag pastraight eh di parang mirror sana ang tv namin kahapon at ka look alike ko siya.. ang topak ko ngayong day na ito sige ciao!! baka kun ano pang masabi ko

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Ayoko sana Post ito eh pero deadma na!! this is my picture taken at work habang my call heheh pasaway!

C mah new comment box??

Happy New Year everyone.. i was planning to do do a year to end report of the silly things that happened to me last year but i decided not to.. i dont want to remember the things that made me lonely back then gggrrr... Today is the year of the dog and i just heard yesterday that these year would be a lucky year for me..( yeah right! ngork ngork) anyway i spent my new year here at work .. pero sweet ung family ko eh a minute before new years eve tinawagan nila ako.. kaya kahit papano nakicountdown ako.. ang kapal nga ng mukha ko eh kasi hinold ko na lang ung customer ko sa phone ng walang rason.. pero nagpaalam naman ako ha!

I wonder what would happen to me this year. Sabi nga ng friend (cris)ko sana maayos na ang pasok ng taon na ito sa amin .. hopefully sana nga talaga..

Im not a call back agent anymore kala ko nga maninibago ko eh but i still managed to get 23 calls.. kahit papanu nakahabol ako.. i uploaded 5 pictures here last week i wonder where it went..(blame it on bloggers bugs) ..malamang di mabasa ng servers nila ung picture puro kasi ang gaganda eh hehe!.. i just texted sykes today and i just submitted my resume at teletech .. still waiting for they're reply and goodbye BAguio hello MAnila!


I actually have a resolution for these year i've been ver attached to these thought that; There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous. napa ka narcissitic ko talaga nowonder i never had uhmm a boyfriend?.. but i promise this year i wont be a snob anymore naks okay enough of the corny stuff...

c yah next post! oh by the way abt the comment box i wont be using it anywqays since i dont brodcast my diary hehe! but in case you guys drop by accidentally give me a holler

hAppy New Year!!

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