I think this my worst day of training..ive been asked to take the final exams which is all in all the final assesment, the fact that i havent took up the first 3 exams.. and our trainer didnt even give me the things that i need to review for the exams.. for me this went tough and now im not even sure if im gonna pass the exams it was really hard for me to answer all the questions .. because i really need to read a very thick book.. plus what i really hate about today is that i aint got no money anymore.. this week is starting to get into my nerves their actually plucking my last nerve already. i failed the last exam.. im the coach and shit im the lowest?? yeah i understand that the other coach has been asked to take a lot of exams but i was not informed by the real operations manager that i should be taking this final exam .. and if i fail this there is no way i could go the Operational check.. .. i really cant take it .. but its really unfair because they all know the answers and our trainer already gave them evrything that they need to review.. and all i did was to read the manual im not a cheater and i really hate this. why dont they just throw me back to the old acct i like it there better. i dont want to loose my job because im planning to study and i love that was given to me by our previous operations manager.. i really hate this and yeah im thinking of backing out really thinking of backing out.. okay i gotta go catch you later..

Im here again inside the training room again.. today is quiz day .. i failed the 2nd exam but im still trying to pass the 3rd exam .. i think im not gonna pass this acct im looking but im still hoping for the best.. hmmm i even hate the schedule im not used to this kind of schedule anymore.. im sick with cough and colds because of teh aircon we have inside the training room.. im not gonna stop whinding because it really pisses me off.. and yesterday was the worst day i ever had..my training class is 6:30 pm.. i went of the house around 6:45..hehe! yeah im aware that im late for work.. imagine when i was about to get out of the house it rained so hard..and i really got all wet .. before i went out of the house i actually asked my younger brother to accompany me to the waiting shed so that i would be wearing a slippers and so i wont get all wet. However he was so lazy that is why i got wet and i decided to head back home and chaNge as soon i changed i found out that its actually my first day of the month. So after i changed eventually my younger brother decided to drop me off the waiting shed and wait for a jeep. Now i know im safe because at least im not all wet,however when i was about to pay my fare i found out that i left my money in my other pants pocket. The man infront me i think noticed that i was actually searching all my pockets.. i realized that i still have my coin purse in my bag so i went ahead and checked on it still im short because i only had 9.50 in my coin purse and i had to pay 7.50 for my first ride.. so to sum it all up i need 17 pesos.. expect the unexpected yeah i didnt pay my fare but i acted as if i already paid because the man infront of me keeps on staring at me wondering why i keep on searching my pockets *sigh*.. i was thinking of going back home but i was so late. W When i was about to ride the 2nd jeep going to work i found out the man infront of me was the man who kept on staring me .. i think he knows that i havent paid for my 1st fare grrr.. anyway i came in to work around 7:30pm .. so late .. i really hate what happened yesterday .. anyway wish me luck i need to catch up with alot of things

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I finally got the coach position but still theres a catch i need to pass training so that i would really be certified. At first i dropped it since i'm planning to study law next semester. I've thought about this and prayed for my decision a million times .. i did not come in last wednesday because i actually called the trainer and advised him that i need to retract from the account . Maybe because i got scared about the information that i need to learn. And since i would be a coach i should know more compared with the agents that are on the floor right. I actually checked on the manual and damn do i hate numbers. I dont know why i applied for this position the fact that some of the coaches under my previous account aLready resigned. I wanted to retract and go back to Bellsouth i've thought about this several times however im still not sure if im doing the right decision or wether im on the right track. They said incase i fail the training i wont be able to work for bellsouth anymore this the hardest risk im willing to take just for my parents. Haha the funniest part is i actually asked advised from someone i dont personally know just so , you know to add up to the advises id been getting from my friends and my teammates .. My mom and dad only knows how to say one thing which is to grab it. whew! Now im being pressured for something i dont wanna do plus i even need to pass the phone certification. Huh things you do for your family. but still i will be studying next semester and iw ill be taking up law couRse by hook or by crook. Whats so different about this acct is that we need to memorize a lot of things. Compared with the previous acct that you dont need to memorize as long as you know a lot about computers you wouLd definitely be able to assist the cu with his concern. I'll miss the team .. and yeah in case i fail this training i wont be having a job anymore that is why i need to do good. And thats why i need to review a lot of times.. i dont know why im so fascinated by my textmate whew i just cant stop thinking about him. The fact that he never did approached me even though he was the one insinuating we meet that day. I'm starting to act so pathetic and last saturday i was with my previous teammates we went to Nevada its a ctually a place that i never wished id be in because for me that place is like hell. But eventually i went there just to see him. G brought his car that day, and well as soon as we went there he actually texted me that he already went home. I cant believe i got turned down that way. That is why im actually planning to change my number this friday. And yeah i will change my number this friday.. ive been using that number for 4 years actually and i really bad now that im planning to let it go.. I'm not sure if im gonna be able to pass this exam wish me luck.

Its really hard to have technical friends who knows too much about the runarounds on the internet.. i kept on changing my url and kept on disabling a lot of things here in my blog only to find out that they found it again.. whew *sigh*.. well i know for a fact that its really not a good idea to post an online diary.. i feel like my life is like an open book .. however im still glad that not at all the skeletons in my closet got revealed (but almost all of them). By the way, The HR manager in our center kept on bragging me this past few days to apply for a coach position in Green Dot Com ( a differeNt accouNT) i really wanted to apply however since im planning to study next year im not sure if i would be able to adjust to the new scheduLe.. baka maudLot nanaman pag aaral ko kainis.

Uhmm i met someone hes been my text mate i think for almost 8 mos (im not sure though) all i know is that the #8 is not a lucky number for me.. anyway we didnt have the chance meet like talk the way we use to everytime we exchange sms'.. and here's the funniest part of the story we were so awkward with each other that even though our table was to close he never dared to approach me and i never did as well.. maybe im just not that pretty or maybe im not that approachable but somethings' been different with me this past few days i never felt this kind of spark for a long time for years actually.. But.. yeah i think i like him. Hmm i'll get over this believe me. Nakakatawa pa kasi instead na akong kiligin mga kaibigan ko ang nakikilig sa kin, and they just kept on saying that maybe its about time i let go of what im really focused to which is to get rich and settled~~for my family.. before i think about entering into a relationship.. i dont know i've never waited for something like this but like i said just give me a month and ill get over this feeling.. I wonder why he doesnt look cute like the pictures i see on his friendster acct .. maybe because some people were really born to be photogenic.. too bad i didnt get it :( ..St PauliNes mother superior sent me an email again and said that she will stay here for a week next week. She said as well in her email that she wanted to see me and taLk to me since maybe she thinks Sr Terry doesnt have enough convincing power to let me continue the calling she keeps on saying .. whatever that is . My mom keps on saying that maybe one of these days i might just fall for it .. she said as well that i'll make her the happiest person in the world incase that happens. :) oh God forbid~ i really cant see myself with that veil.

i miss melai very much she even told me once before she left that incase i meet my textmate she should be the first one to know or that i should let her know about it something like that. Whatever happened to that , i texted her that day however she never did reply. well this is my promise to my self i shaLL not yield and that i wont text him anymore. I actually deleted his number however cris saved his number on her phonebook (and she doesnt want me to delete the number,so clever that she changed the name) , she said she might need him in the future since they need an architect. Rob is pressuring her to find a house or to find someoNe to who could help her with their dream house (i think). cris is the luckiest girl i've met so far .. her life is like a fairytale not that im jealous but i really hope she wont forget us and that she wont change.. sometimes money could blind you but as loNg as u look back to the things and the people who helped you grow. You would definitely notice just a single detail as soon as it hits u between the eye. I know she wont change . and ive always been praying for her .. always .. i hope this time God would also give me the Blessing i really wanted .. saglit lang anu bang blessing ang gusto ko!? .. Damn i sound so pathethic always.. aight i gotta go its getting dark now..abi said i need to be careful evrytime i pass by our waiting shed (bad guys just stole a lady"s cellphone yesterday).. i know they cant get anything from me since my celphone is so cheap (im not fond of buying expensice phones) however im too scared that they might just drag me anywhere.. and dilim pa naman sa min..

alright goota go! till next blog *wish me luck*