ARRA , NANETTE, and ME
(( To My sisters ::Lav YaH ))

3 more minutes and i need to log out here at work ... Finally!

I was just visiting websites about Noel Malimban UC's bartopnotcher and well i kinda wish i could be like him. Libre lang nga talagang mangarap pero siyempre ksabay ng pangangarap eh dapat diba sabayan mo ng pagdadasal at sipag naks!.

I'm really thinking of resigning again. I know I havent stayed here yet for 2 mos, The thing is i know sooner or later i would really have a few students and if i only have a few students then i wont be able to get a bigger pay. We just had 3 days vacation because of Chinese New Year!. I know my job is so easy ... but believe me its really hard to get up every morning at 4:30. Sometimes i use 3 cellphones for my alarm clock, because i have this "5 minutes more" sickness, that i add 5 more minutes to my sleeping time before i actually drag myself to get up ( sometimes my five minutes becomes 10 or 20 mins ... worst was 2 hrs! and yep i almost got fired) anyways.. I dont know if i will still continue my studies next sem. I know University of Cordilleras i one of the best Law Schools here in the Philippines. But sometimes i feel that I should be earning more money not for myself but for my family. Just like old days, I used to give them almost like 6 thou a month , i know thats not big enough considering the fact that i get 22k a month (BEfore!... oh i miss those days). Anyway the thing is sometimes i feel like i maybe the reason im studying again is because i just want to escape from my responsibility. Though some of my friends say that its not actually my responsibility to give them money , I actually attempted not to give them money before ... but i cant.. konsensya ko pa rin un nag sasabi na ang selfish ko naman. Kaya lang nag tataka lang ako sa mommy ko minsan kasi she tells me na di daw ako nagbibigay. Eh from what i remembered before i go shopping for what i want , i make sure na natabi ko na un pera na bibigay ko sa kanila. Siguro ulyanin lang siya.

On feb 22 i'll be applying again in a callcenter. I think I told you before that never am i gonna back to being a callcenter employee. But becasue i need money for my studies and i need to help my parents with the bills and yeah ... my Citibank bill. I need to go back and work again in a callcenter.

I really miss my college days, Ang hirap pala ng graduate school. Especially Law School. Actually last night I was going through my exams during my First semester in Law School i found out that my answers before where actually better than my answers today. Last sem talaga di ako nag concentrate eh . I still cant believe na sumabit un isang subject ko . Di ako yun . Sometimes i hate showing my face in class (the hell do i care) they are not the ones paying for my tuition fee anyway. teehee!

I envy Cris.. well kinda.. but im really happy for her.. she finally found what she want. I just hope that Rob and Cris will learn to settle their differences maturely. Sometimes I think that Rob is acting as if he is younger than cris. Cris never goes out the house , seldom do we see each other. But still he accuses her of something so absurd. I know one of these days he will realize hes wrong.

Sometiems i hate my sister. Especially when she sees me reviewing . Its as if shes telling me that no matter what i do I cant pass my subjects. The reason im actually studying is not because i want people to see me as a smart person , nor for people to see me that my life is productive, not even because i want to show people that I can make sense. But because I want to be a Lawyer, I want to do this for my dream and my family. It was my mom who told me that when my uncle died justice was not served, they were not even able to find the person who murdered him, my uncle was a taxi driver, and at that time i thought that maybe i could find the answer to it. which i know is impossible. kasi matagal na yun wh. Anyway I need to answer a question that has been buggling my mind these past few years that lead me to pursue my dream. How can music lead you to success?, the thing is i really have a strong passion for music and i really wanted to be a singer when i was a kid (not granted). What i noticed was most people who succeeded in their llives where at first musicians. A 3 year old kid i watched in Tv knows how to play a certain piece in his little piano , Most of the attorneys in our school are into music , well i know most people are. Anyway all i wannna know is how could a person be successfull with just music. I hope you get the gist of it.. geez im confused now.

Okay i gotta go now.. take care! and see you soon

hmm wich me luck on Feb 22.. 25 rather!