I DON'T EXIST at ALL

I'm feeling sick today!! But in a way, I feel great coz i saw him again.. heheh!! I just read his friendster acct and imagine more than a hundred testimonials. Which really gives me enough reason why were not meant to be! naks. Well I"m planning to look for a different job coz i dont wanna be a call gurl anymore. But the problem is, I wont be seeing him anymore. Well, I think this is for good since, i feel like for him, "I DONT EVEN EXIST at ALL".  I have to move on find  and myself a different life! We just had a heart to heart talk with my cousin at Dev and after all she's not the kind of person I thought she was, I even felt bad for her. She  cried because, she wants  a better job that would pay her  more bigger and at the same time a job that she will enjoy, a job that will help our family FINANCIALLY. I feel for her,, coz i feel exactly the same way,,starting from now on I'm going look for a better job.. I dont want to work as a call gurl forever i want to have a business of my own. Or even a job that i can call mine. Whats really different about my life is i never had a boyfriend for almost 6 years ..coz for me having someone only makes u loose your focus..but yet until now i still dont see myself established..very very sad.until now i still think that i'm loosing focus. Maybe, I should start thinking of something worthwhile aside from what im doing right now.

But hey believe me this is the first time I ever felt this way about someone and to think he's only my crush! O diba napa kafunny kaya nun! but one things for sure the next person I'm going to fall for, would be the luckiest guy in the world.. See I cant believe I'm taLKINg about a guy now.. I think I changed a lot, influenced by my co-workers. I dont know what will happen next week, I'm  planning on resignig and I'll be leaving him for good. About my crush, he doesn't notice me anyway,. But there was a time he said hi! hello.....hmp! It was prolly because a friend of him was right beside me, because I didn't look at the person behind me, It's like I got Hypnotized. 

ANoThEr UpDAtE..The LAst FloWer FeSt! not bad after all

• Today is tuesday another work day. LasT sunday i watched the awaRding of the winners for Flower Festival. Rumour says that UB will win the marching band competiton but SLU took the pitch. Thats' because UB let one person join their group and that person did not enroll for this semester. The same situation that happened last year. They never learn,.my sister is a band member for SLU.. and my youngest sister is also a band member for UB. After they announced that SLU is the winner my youngest sister said most of the UB members really,actually cried. And they almost had a fight with SLU.. I watched the competition and I really thought that UB will win it..SLU's presentation is not that good but they sounded really nice compared with UB.. However, UB's presentation was really  the best, talk about their acrobatic moves, the steps and the colors and the majorettes..they were also doing shoulder stands lang naman, pero mahirap din un. It was also suprising that we already have cheering competiton for Flower Festival. Sana noon pa..I was also a member of a CHEEriNG SQUAd before.  Men Its really hard to do STUNTS!. SLU won the cheering competiton.. my youngest sister said our STUNTS where  more higher and were  more better compared with SLU's StunTS.
•  However, we cant do handstands unlike what  UB did, UB has also good stunts coz they were able to do the handstand without any spotters..the only problem is they lack choreography and Practise, they dance like a bunch of elementary students hehe! talk about being rude. I think maybe if i'm still studying at SLU right now, i'll be part of that the CHERRING SQUAD team coz most of the performers are YFC (Youth For Christ) members. But too bad i'm already a graduate..hehe!!
• Before I talk about good news let me talk about bad news..they the guards at work were   asking me go home and get my id e.. the guards said that once i don't get to use my ID the 2nd time, I have to go home and not report for work.. screw them..anyway they still told me to report for work. Coz everyday is queueing day. Mel! pls give me back my ID. OKay heres the GOOD NEWS I saw my Crush Today and he smiled at me naks kilig naman ako noh! Hes not cute but he looks cute to me, he looks smart, very uhmm, i hope you get the picture. Finally, this time i have a crush on a guy...but maybe not for long. hayy!! wink wink c",)

AT LaST!!!

At last its my day off and i get to take 2 nights rest the best thing about this is im gonna be able to watch the closing of Flower Festival after all..mapapanood ko rin ung FAYERWORKX! (fireworks).. ala lang, i hope id be able to spend this days more fruitfully ayoko nang mag ALA CARTE. Being a CALL GURL is so hard that you really have to take lots of rest after workin... so hard.. AnD after all im not gonna be able to spend too much money anymore coz ill be staying at home for the whole day...I HOPE!! not unless i think of texting MELAI to go out again..hehe!

I really hope id be able to go to church on MONDAY to confess. Imagine I was not able to confess for more than 5 months and thats really really bad.. I remember a friend asked me once, why we  need to go  confes the fact that i can just PRAY and talk to GOD directly and ask for forgiveness.. and the fact that we know we could  go into sin.

My YFC sister, told me before that praying is like brushing your teeth.. of course we brush our teeth to keep our teeth clean..even if we know where going to eat something again.. i hope you get my point!!

okay i gotta go and ill tell you more about my life in BAGUIO as soon as i get hold of a KeYbOarD..hehe!! take care folks

FLOWER FESTIVAL....FREAKSTIVAL?

"I LOVE THIS FLOAT"

Flower Festival is an occassion we celebrate here in Baguio every February.. napaka DRY ng panagbenga ngayon grabeh imagine ang pangit ng session compared sa itsura ng session nuon.. di na nga ko masyadong nakapalibot ng session kasi as usual busy sa work..pero okay na rin kasi kahit papano naka sama kong mamasyal family ko at friends ko..sobra napakagastos ko nga ngayon iniisip ko tuloy paano mo kaya mapagkakasya yung 500 para sa 10 araw o diba napa ka kawawa ko..eh 100 pa naman ang nagagastos ko araw araw..wala na talaga DEDSU na ko.. kaya ko yan ayoko na nga rin gumastos eh minsan nga gusto ko sana nagbabaon na lang ako kaya lang kasi walang nagluluto sa bahy eh..kung meron man napakalate naman kainis..The best Flower Festival experience i ever had was last 1998 heheh!! very memorable kasi nameet ko ung first love ko hehe!! pero wala na siya di ko na siya nakikita kainis kaya ayun isa akong malungkot na babae..Nag ALA CARTE pala kami nung thursday ayun walang katapusang gimik..as usual my friend DADA asked me to sing again. Kainis nga eh di ko naman feel kumanta minsan pilitin ba ako..pero okay lang.. alangan naman kasi hindi-an ko pa he baka mapahiya lang sila..


Incase you guys dont know yet i know - who won the marching band competition and ang tsismis eh pupunta raw sila sa JAPAN.. galing noh.. I  have 2 sisters who plays in a band. Actually they are band scholars.. the other one plays the saxophone and the other one plays the clarinet..Before i used to think na napaka CORNY ng ginagawa nila kasi naman nakakatawa sila minsan talaga eh.. Pero habang tumatagal ayun na-appreciate ko rin sila.. Ayoko talga ng PANAGBENGA ngayon di ko feel.. its a dud sobrang (D U D!) talaga..sino sino kayang nag organize nito.. KALOKOHAN.. NAPAKADRY talaga pati ako naiinis.. eh panung hindi eh i grew up here in BAGUIO, at minsan un na rin ung pinak aabangan ko,..ang Flower FEsTiVaL..pero ngayon hmp di ko na feel..could it be because of the meningo virus.. ang OA naman kasi ng media eh ala na tuloy cute sa session..puro ka cornihan.. well sa sunday Closing na ng Flower Festival and i'm really so glad that sunday is my day off.. at least i get to see the fireworks display chuchuvanese! diba.. bakit kaya walang THE DAWN noh!

Okay 'm still thinking of a way on how to survive with that money.. I feel ashame to ask money from my parents.. coz i just gave them money as soon as i got my salary and i know they need it.. kaya nakakahiya humiram..basta bahala na si BATMAN..wish me luck 10 days to go bago sweldo ang layo pa!

hmmm i have a new crush this time its not a gurl but a boy hehe!! this song reminds me of him

hayy bumabaduy na ako!

Swayin' home as the music starts

Strangers makin' the most of the dark

Two by two their bodies become one

I see you through the smoky air

Can't you feel the weight of my stare

You're so close but still a word away

What I'm dyin' to say is that...

I'm crazy for you

Touch me once and you'll know it's true

I never wanted anyone like this

It's all brand new

You feel it in my kiss

I'm crazy for you

Crazy for you

Trying hard to control my heart

I walk over to where you are

Eye to eye we need no words at all

Slowly now we begin to move

Every breath I'm deeper into you

Send me standin' still in time

If you read my mind you'll see...

I'm crazy for youTouch me once and you'll know it's true

I never wanted anyone like this

It's all brand newYou

feel it in my kiss

You feel it in my kiss because...

I'm crazy for you

Touch me once and you'll know it's true

I never wanted anyone like this

It's all brand newYou feel it in my kiss

I'm crazy for you

Crazy for you Crazy for you

Crazy for you

It's all brand new

I'm crazy for you

And you know it's true (yeah)I'm crazy (crazy) for you

It's all brand new

I'm crazy for youAnd you know it's true (yeah)I'm crazy (crazy) for youCrazy for you,

babyI'm crazy for youI'm crazy for you, baby, ahh...