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Hes wearing red right now.. i think its same red shirt i saw the last time. j/k..i havent seen him for 2 days and i dont think if i really miss him..i really hate my calls today.. imagine this is so far the worst day of the year..maybe because im really concentrate too much on my calls or on my job.. after january 2006.. i will be finding a new job.. ill just have to wait for the tax refund etc and im outta here.. okay i gotta go ..just found out that ill be having my day off on sunday.. and our barkada will go out this sunday.. and ill still be there after all.. he didnt notice me today but i hope tomoroow he will

no money no movie

every day off i usually rent cds for us to watch a movie at home ..but too bad i got no money anymore. we just won a nikko remote control sports car.. they say its worth more than 3k. My grandpa just gave me 100 bucks to spend for this day, and the thing is i told him not to tell my parents or anyone that i borrowed money from him. I always wanted to watch this movie honey and ladder 49. okay i gotta go now.. ill be visiting my friend criz again. I always visit her during day off, and i wonder when will she be visiting me?.. take care!

finally

i dont know if i'll feel happy today or if ill feel sad.. Im happy coz tomorrow is our day off finally its our day off. Imagine weve been working for 8 straight days.. and the last thing i want is to take in calls. Our supervisor just came in again FINALLY!! yesterday a diff supervisor talked to us about our stats and about a corny game that will be doing today and of course our favorite subject: "about ou supervisor".. we told him everything he needs to know about our sup..starting from how he handles the team until why hes handling our team!!???... While i was doing this blog my supervisor passed by my station (buti na lang nasara ko kaagad) hehe!as usual we were not able to play our game anymore, but thats okay id rather choose to take in calls.. andy, nelmies cousin just sent his picture. I think hes okay! hmmp 4 more days to payday,.,,and i cant wait! my GG is wearing red today..and hes so cute. I just found out awhile ago that i was being monitored on my call. i think it would be better if that person didnt inform me about it,,coz i did stammered big time and i even lost my concentration..sobrang inis nga ko sa taong yun eh! sana di na siya magpakita..Promise ko sa self ko ill never talk to that person,ever sobrang kahit kailan...i hate him! i wonder why i cant see him here on the floor where did he go!?? we just had a meeting with my long lost supervisor, i thought this will be an open forum,but maybe because we really felt so bad abt our coach we were not able to cry out our cocerns..kasi nga daw critical na daw yuns sakit niya.. okay bye gotta go till then

change of mind

last post i did say im over him totally for real.. But just today i found out that his cousin just died i feel bad for him really bad.. and then all of sudden i feel like i like him again hehehe!! really so confusing. I dont know i just feel bad about what happened and i cant help seeing him always wearing black, he used to smile always. But now his totally different i really pray hell get over it soon. Its really hard to loose a relative. I once promised myself that before i die i should have fullfilled all my dreams, my friend even made a joke out of it and said, im so lucky to live forever. Hmp thats what she thinks! as soon i turn 40 i'll make sure that WORLD BANK will be mine.. even if its impossible to own it. As usual my supervisor is absent again, imagine hes the one who keeps on telling us that hes goin to give IR's (incident reports) the moment were absent.. and take note hes been absent for 5 straight days.. I really hate our schedule imagine we were asked to work for 8 straight days.. And ill be getting my day off on wednesday and thursday.. when it was suppose to be on sunday and monday.. And this sunday our BARKADA will be going to the beach, and they're expecting me to be there, coz i was the one who planned for it not actually the one who planned for it, but i was the one who thought of it.. April 30 is payday again hehe! its only monday and i dont have any money anymore.. Maybe i should start thinking of a way on how to save money ..lets see when will i start thinking about it?? hehe!.. another supervisor asked us to report to her after work, probably this is about our irresponsible supervisor. We really wanted to kick him off the team hes gay and very noisy.. not that im saying that just bec his gay we hate him or HER w/e.. i enjoy being with gays i mean you can talk to them about anything, anytime, and they really open and frank.. but this gay supervisor is really totally different to the max.. that why we hate him grrrrr.. Hes not even allowing us to apply for other positions.~~~~~~~~~~chaNge ToPic~~~~~~~~

I think i still like him after all!! halp!!

PERcHaNce!!~

hi PErChance thank you so much for dropping by, finally someone did bother to check out my blog my online diary.. I was abit upset yesterday coz i created a very long post unfortunately i wasnt able to paste it because system was down for like 30 mins grrrr too bad i lost it. Yesterday I wasnt really feeling well, the nurse even gave me like 2 medicines to take in. What i really feel bad about is my supervisor didnt even bother to put me on P2 or P3 (so that ill be getting lesser calls). And ive been on p1 for like 5 mos sH*T!! sometimes i really wish hed be uhmm ,,..NevahminD!

Well about my crush starting from now on im not goin to mention anything about him anymore.. cozZ i'm over him..and this time its for real. I dont know what changed my mind but im over him and i have to move on naks! Maybe because of my co worker.. mish is a very hard working person she has 2 jobs first she works as a call gurl for like 9 hours! (like me, call center agent) , then she teaches piano for another 5 hours.. i used to do 2 jobs before before i go to work i spend almost 3 hours singing in a restaurant here in baguio and belive me ang hirap! sobra the best part of it is You MAKe A Lot of Money. Hmmp okay i gotta go thank you again perchance!!

you might wanna check out this song a song by KitcHie NaDAL cute nito eh

SAME GrOunD

My love
It's been a long time since i cried
And left you out of the blue
It's hard
Leaving you the way When i never really wanted to


Self denial
Is a game so strange i never really should've wanted
Til there was you
Cause i have learned that love was beyond
What human can imagine
More it clears
The more i gotta let you go

'cause what i don't understand
Is why i'm feeling so bad now
When i know it was my idea
I could've just denied the truth and lied
Now why am i the only one standing stranded On the same ground

My love
It's been a long time since i cried
And left you out of the blue
It's hard
Leaving you the way When i never really wanted to

Self denial
Is a game so strange i never really should've wanted
Til there was you
Cause i have learned that love
Is a word just thrown
A litlle bit too much of this
Excuse to fill this infinite of desire
And nevere ever have to fade

Cause what i don't understand
Is why i'm feeling so bad now
When i know it was my idea
I could've just denied the truth and lied
Now why am i the only one standing
stranded On the same ground

If all else failWould you be there to love me?
When all else failsWould you be brave to see right through me?

another bad day..until when LORD HeLp!!

i still dont feel happy today even if melai gave me my med certificate imagine i called work and i was asking them my schedule for tomorrow coz im very confident that its my day off today. Only to find out that i have a 10:00 schedule..but when i checked on my supervisors table coz i was wondering why i was the only person working on our station..it shows in our schedule that my schedule is 1:30 am tomorrow! and im here working instead of sleeping..now how bad is that? im really so F**K*D up..I dont care abt my crush anymore i dont care if hes here or where he is wherever he is i dont care..I really hope id be a break but not "BUM break" im sure nobody wants that..I'm the only agent here and im starting to freak out,,what if ill get a very complicated issue naah i dont think so..i believe i can handle it after all im a pro.. well i should...see ive been doing this job for almost a year. i just had a commendation today my customer was really really happy about the way i handled her concern..but id dont think i did great for that parang the usual.. i promise to myself i wont be thinking of him anymore eh it wont do me good naman eh! i thought that having that big crush on him can inspire me but not at all.. Thats why i think it would be better if i just concentrate on work and my family friends?? i know theyll always hang in there for me well they always do.so where was i yesterday?i was just talking about this butterfly effect movie...well honestly i was having a hard time seeing ashton kutcher play roles out of his usual character and so called real life personalities..i though before that if an actor can be funny he cant be serious as well..but Ashton did good hes really a good actor and if i was to do do a critic job on this id rather review it and not suck the fun out of it. my coach just told me that tomorrow will be my day off again..but if im able to fix my things and wash my clothes today well id be present tonight and do another rest day OT..from now on i promise i wont look at my crush anymore pwamise yoko na nigugulo niya life ko eh.. :]

Bad Hair Day

Im feeling bad today grrr financial reasons..i really can't believe I spent almost all of my salary for just one day. I can't even tell whether or not  I enjoyed. Well as for my girlfriends graduation birthday party it turned out fine i got her a cd of mymp that includes the song Love Moves .. and the song especially for you.. i really hate the way I spend money nowadays sobrang inis na ako. Well I was suppose to be work last saturday but i called MOd {manager on duty} and told them that im having a migraine and dysmenorrhea.. of course that's not a good reason to be absent. So melai told me that shell be giving me a medical certificate this monday to back me up..but honestly, i was really having a bad head ache. My dad even thinks that I'm starting to act the way i was acting the before. I just watched this "butterfly effect" movie today. You really have to concentrate on each scene. it's the kind of movie that lets you think of what you wanted to change if only you can turn back time. But towards the endof the movie,  you sson realize that NOTHING IS PERFECT.

If only i can turn back time I'd go back to the day i was in grade 4. How bout You?  "If only you can turn back time what would you change in your life??". Well, i bet you would  tell me that you won't change anything coz u learned from your mistakes.. But for me honestly, of course I will change my life. Not that im saying that I'm not contented with what I've become. But, for me there is still something missing. Well, i guess I'd be able to find that missing piece as I cross the bridge..chow..I'm so sentimental today.. bear with me guys

Graduation of a Friend

Today is a fine day and I'm so happy coz its pay day hehe!! ,yesterday was my bestfriends'birthday..she just turned 24 i was not able to see her for more than 6 mos i think. Damn do i miss her..my cousin juts gave a tip on how to win your crush a stupid tip see she said.. If everyone knows about you having a crush on him it would be better if you ignore him as in totally ignore him but ignore him in a way that he will notice you. My cousin even gave an example.. A FUNNY example. But i dont think i can do that. Its Melizas graduation tomorrow and i'm so glad finally where all college graduates ..except for my other friend who chooses to go abroad instead of studying..I really hate my job see if only i can find a job who can pay me higher than the salary I earn here,  I'd go for it but the problem is I cant find a job that can pay me higher or at least as much as i get here.

I wish i can study again take masters or law. But too bad i dont have the money to do the things I want to do,..grrr! and its hard to earn that money even if I have a job.. I once promised myself that when I turn 28 i should be having my own car, house and my adopted child hehe!but, I don't think im gonna be able to keep my promise at all =( .. I hope, I can manage my money this time, how I wish I could be able to do that..wish ko lang..sarap gumimik bukas.. Di pumasok yung GG ko absent kainiz

TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN!!!!>>>>(",)

I know you're out there.  I'm waiting for you.
 I want you to know Im dreaming about you.
 I want you to know I haven't given up on finding you, my Mr. Perfect.
 Every day, I get one step closer to you, to us. I cant wait till we finally meet and this year of being single will all have been worth it.
 I cant wait, all the things Ill do.
All the little conversations well have, all the things I cant wait to tell you.
I want you to know Ive learned alot, and I think I can be the best lover possible.
 I can't wait for roses to have a meaning again, I can't wait to take you out to dinner and obsess over the way you pick at your food or hold a glass.
 I can't wait to talk to you till 4 in the morning and lose sleep cause I cant get enough of you.
 I can't wait for  you to utter that famous phrase I met a girl.

I know you're out there, and I know youre looking for me.
I know you're looking for Mr. Right, and while Im nothing close to perfect I promise I'll give you everything I have.
I'll put my soul into you, I'll make up for all the nights of waiting,
 I'll make up for coming into your life so late.
We have a lot of catching up to do, we have so much ground to cover and so much still ahead.
I can't wait to begin my life with you.

I want you to have faith until we find each other.
I want you to believe that love is possible.
 Even if you've been like me, crying into the godless moon, making small puddles on pillows.
 I haven't given up on you, and hopefully, you haven't given up on me.
 Hopefully you'll still smile at me when we finally meet.
 Im just around the corner, Im just a day away.
Please my dear, dont give up hope of us meeting.
Don't close your heart when we finally do.
I fear this letter may reach you too late, I fear it may never find you at all.
Which is why I blindly write this, to encourage you when your faith is perhaps thin from too many nights alone.

I am here, I am suffering in loneliness also.
Patiently waiting for that phone call or that chance meeting.
 Patiently waiting to start our life together.
 I know youre out there, and I cant wait.
I'm going to spoil you, to make up for having no one to spoil.
I'm going to love you, to make up for having no one to love.
I'm going to be that perfect lover I always talk about.
 I'm going to be the amalgamation of all my prior loves.
All lessons learned, all experiences condensed.
I'll be everything I was, plus everything Ive learned while being single for so long.
All I ask is that you let me be the lover I am; let me touch you, let me love you, let me be everything that is dying to get out.
 Let me bring you into my world.
I know you're out there, and Im patiently waiting.