sheesh! guess i may have have evrything what i want except the guy that i really want.. and its like my life is starting to tumble down.. no kidding! its really starting to.. i can hardly eat, can hardly sleep.. however i have this friend from california, shasha's cousin and hes ben my friend for just 2 weeks.. what i like about him is this man is that hes so sweet.. but i dont have feelings for him yet .. since i got preoccuppied thinking of my textmate.. last saturday i saw him with a girL.. i guess lovely's right... he has a girL.. i really hate this feeling coz this always happens to me .. i sometimes think that he will be for me.. and as my friends say i think to much as and i act as if im his girlfriend the fact that we havent actually met yet.. we just stare at each other.. pero nahurt talaga ako nun saturday kaya ayun nag pshot ako... grrrrr.. neway maybe im just better off thid way alone.. yoko na pinag pray ko pa siya.. i really feel sad.. :( Lord please show me the sun!

ahihi! im back in training.. i was actually begging them that i take my phone certification for this new acct .. however the client said well thats accdg to them , that i will be joining the next waive again in training before i could actually have my phonecertification.. haha! huh im not stupid nor dumb of course i manage to catch up with the lessons we had in our previous training .. but thats okay .. at least i have like 1 month off the phones.. 1 month slacking..





by the way abt my textmate , i found at last saturday that my textmate actually gave my number to his friend ..and im not sure why...well actually i felt like they were tripping on me .. i hate the feeling however i still like him. I dont know why but i havent felt this feeling before.. Anyway Sha-sha gave my number to her cousin ~whos from california.. and believe me he calls everyday .. like twice a day.. he works as supervisor as well and for now their project is making waterproof casings of ipods.. hes so sweet and caring however still i think abt jason all the time.. kahit di man lang kami nag uusap.. i dont know why i'm acting this way.. well maybe because i decided not to be a snob or i decided to entertain aheemm sutors.. haha! i hate the term.. im totally not this.. anyway grabe i still can't feel anything for this california guy.. kahit nga friend hindi eh pero hes so caring and sweet.. my mom and dad,almost everyone at home knows abt him calling everyday..actually i like the idea .. coz i go home around 11pm and he calls me evrytime i get off work .. and stays with me on the phone until i reach home.. ( eh alam mo naman sa streets namin nagtitipid ng kuryente kaya minsan sobrang madilim ).. i cant wait to go out this saturday .. i really wanna see jason.. im not yet ready to talk to him however i just want to see him.. smile , stare ..grrrr.. guess i miss him .. sana nga lang magtext siya kahit simple lang na quote kainis talaga.. bakit kung sinong gusto mo eh ayaw sayo..




melai and i love this song




Mabuti Pa Sila

Mabuti pa ang mga surot, laging mayrong masisiksikan

Mabuti pa ang bubble gum, laging mayrong didikitan

Mabuti pa ang salamin, laging mayrong tumitingin

Di tulad kong laging walang pumapansin

Mabuti pa ang mga lapis, sinusulatan ang papel

At mas mapalad ang kamatis, maya't maya napipisil

Napakaswerte ng bayong, hawak ng aleng maganda

Di tulad kong lagi na lang nag-iisa

Ano ba'ng wala ako na mayron sila

Di man lang makaisa habang iba'y dala-dalwa

Pigilan n'yo akong magpatiwakal

Mabuti pa ang galunggong nasasabihan ng 'mahal'



Kahit ang suka ay may toyo at ang asin may paminta

Mabuti pa ang lumang dyaryo at yakap-yakap ang isda

Mabuti pa sila, mabuti pa sila

Di tulad kong lagi na lang nag-iisa




Mabuti pa ang simpleng tissue at laging nahahalikan

Mabuti pa ang mga bisyo, umaasang babalikan

Mabuti pa sila, mabuti pa sila

Di tulad kong lagi na lang nag-iisa

(Interlude)




Pigilan n'yo akong magpatiwakal

Bakit si Gabby Concepcion lagi na lang kinakasal

Mabuti pa ang mga isnatser, palaging may naghahabol

Ang aking luma na computer, mayron pa ring compatible

Mabuti pa sila, mabuti pa sila

Di tulad kong lagi na lang nag-iisa







wish me luck in my phone certs! hope i could pass it.. oh hehe by the way .. on oct 30 my salary would be officially adjusted .. however i dont want to tell my parents abt that yet..

I think this my worst day of training..ive been asked to take the final exams which is all in all the final assesment, the fact that i havent took up the first 3 exams.. and our trainer didnt even give me the things that i need to review for the exams.. for me this went tough and now im not even sure if im gonna pass the exams it was really hard for me to answer all the questions .. because i really need to read a very thick book.. plus what i really hate about today is that i aint got no money anymore.. this week is starting to get into my nerves their actually plucking my last nerve already. i failed the last exam.. im the coach and shit im the lowest?? yeah i understand that the other coach has been asked to take a lot of exams but i was not informed by the real operations manager that i should be taking this final exam .. and if i fail this there is no way i could go the Operational check.. .. i really cant take it .. but its really unfair because they all know the answers and our trainer already gave them evrything that they need to review.. and all i did was to read the manual im not a cheater and i really hate this. why dont they just throw me back to the old acct i like it there better. i dont want to loose my job because im planning to study and i love that was given to me by our previous operations manager.. i really hate this and yeah im thinking of backing out really thinking of backing out.. okay i gotta go catch you later..

Im here again inside the training room again.. today is quiz day .. i failed the 2nd exam but im still trying to pass the 3rd exam .. i think im not gonna pass this acct im looking but im still hoping for the best.. hmmm i even hate the schedule im not used to this kind of schedule anymore.. im sick with cough and colds because of teh aircon we have inside the training room.. im not gonna stop whinding because it really pisses me off.. and yesterday was the worst day i ever had..my training class is 6:30 pm.. i went of the house around 6:45..hehe! yeah im aware that im late for work.. imagine when i was about to get out of the house it rained so hard..and i really got all wet .. before i went out of the house i actually asked my younger brother to accompany me to the waiting shed so that i would be wearing a slippers and so i wont get all wet. However he was so lazy that is why i got wet and i decided to head back home and chaNge as soon i changed i found out that its actually my first day of the month. So after i changed eventually my younger brother decided to drop me off the waiting shed and wait for a jeep. Now i know im safe because at least im not all wet,however when i was about to pay my fare i found out that i left my money in my other pants pocket. The man infront me i think noticed that i was actually searching all my pockets.. i realized that i still have my coin purse in my bag so i went ahead and checked on it still im short because i only had 9.50 in my coin purse and i had to pay 7.50 for my first ride.. so to sum it all up i need 17 pesos.. expect the unexpected yeah i didnt pay my fare but i acted as if i already paid because the man infront of me keeps on staring at me wondering why i keep on searching my pockets *sigh*.. i was thinking of going back home but i was so late. W When i was about to ride the 2nd jeep going to work i found out the man infront of me was the man who kept on staring me .. i think he knows that i havent paid for my 1st fare grrr.. anyway i came in to work around 7:30pm .. so late .. i really hate what happened yesterday .. anyway wish me luck i need to catch up with alot of things

Ciao!