ARRA , NANETTE, and ME
(( To My sisters ::Lav YaH ))

3 more minutes and i need to log out here at work ... Finally!

I was just visiting websites about Noel Malimban UC's bartopnotcher and well i kinda wish i could be like him. Libre lang nga talagang mangarap pero siyempre ksabay ng pangangarap eh dapat diba sabayan mo ng pagdadasal at sipag naks!.

I'm really thinking of resigning again. I know I havent stayed here yet for 2 mos, The thing is i know sooner or later i would really have a few students and if i only have a few students then i wont be able to get a bigger pay. We just had 3 days vacation because of Chinese New Year!. I know my job is so easy ... but believe me its really hard to get up every morning at 4:30. Sometimes i use 3 cellphones for my alarm clock, because i have this "5 minutes more" sickness, that i add 5 more minutes to my sleeping time before i actually drag myself to get up ( sometimes my five minutes becomes 10 or 20 mins ... worst was 2 hrs! and yep i almost got fired) anyways.. I dont know if i will still continue my studies next sem. I know University of Cordilleras i one of the best Law Schools here in the Philippines. But sometimes i feel that I should be earning more money not for myself but for my family. Just like old days, I used to give them almost like 6 thou a month , i know thats not big enough considering the fact that i get 22k a month (BEfore!... oh i miss those days). Anyway the thing is sometimes i feel like i maybe the reason im studying again is because i just want to escape from my responsibility. Though some of my friends say that its not actually my responsibility to give them money , I actually attempted not to give them money before ... but i cant.. konsensya ko pa rin un nag sasabi na ang selfish ko naman. Kaya lang nag tataka lang ako sa mommy ko minsan kasi she tells me na di daw ako nagbibigay. Eh from what i remembered before i go shopping for what i want , i make sure na natabi ko na un pera na bibigay ko sa kanila. Siguro ulyanin lang siya.

On feb 22 i'll be applying again in a callcenter. I think I told you before that never am i gonna back to being a callcenter employee. But becasue i need money for my studies and i need to help my parents with the bills and yeah ... my Citibank bill. I need to go back and work again in a callcenter.

I really miss my college days, Ang hirap pala ng graduate school. Especially Law School. Actually last night I was going through my exams during my First semester in Law School i found out that my answers before where actually better than my answers today. Last sem talaga di ako nag concentrate eh . I still cant believe na sumabit un isang subject ko . Di ako yun . Sometimes i hate showing my face in class (the hell do i care) they are not the ones paying for my tuition fee anyway. teehee!

I envy Cris.. well kinda.. but im really happy for her.. she finally found what she want. I just hope that Rob and Cris will learn to settle their differences maturely. Sometimes I think that Rob is acting as if he is younger than cris. Cris never goes out the house , seldom do we see each other. But still he accuses her of something so absurd. I know one of these days he will realize hes wrong.

Sometiems i hate my sister. Especially when she sees me reviewing . Its as if shes telling me that no matter what i do I cant pass my subjects. The reason im actually studying is not because i want people to see me as a smart person , nor for people to see me that my life is productive, not even because i want to show people that I can make sense. But because I want to be a Lawyer, I want to do this for my dream and my family. It was my mom who told me that when my uncle died justice was not served, they were not even able to find the person who murdered him, my uncle was a taxi driver, and at that time i thought that maybe i could find the answer to it. which i know is impossible. kasi matagal na yun wh. Anyway I need to answer a question that has been buggling my mind these past few years that lead me to pursue my dream. How can music lead you to success?, the thing is i really have a strong passion for music and i really wanted to be a singer when i was a kid (not granted). What i noticed was most people who succeeded in their llives where at first musicians. A 3 year old kid i watched in Tv knows how to play a certain piece in his little piano , Most of the attorneys in our school are into music , well i know most people are. Anyway all i wannna know is how could a person be successfull with just music. I hope you get the gist of it.. geez im confused now.

Okay i gotta go now.. take care! and see you soon

hmm wich me luck on Feb 22.. 25 rather!

I thought i'm okay .. i dont know if its really true that man doesnt sem to be contented. The thing I was actually one of the first who worked here however i still wonder why i have the most few student. If i were to gauge my skills, i feel like my skills are okay. Sometimes i even hear my co workers use ny tactics . I dont know why is hould suffer to have only few student. Anyway I actually passed the audition . We have to no work from wednesday to friday, on friday i will be attending the workshop.. im kinda not in the mood to tell you all that happened last week. But i'll just try to let all my thoughts out. Oh by the way last week i found out that i have ulcer. I'm starting to lose hope and drift away again I hate this but i dont know how i am going to keep up with my feelings Lord please give me a reason to move on. I guess i really need to finish Cris' bus proposal. Good for her all she worries about is travelling. Yesterday my mom was getting mad at me again because of the money i owe her. I dont really want to quit this job... honestly i dont ... please lord give me a reason to stay. well actually i have lots of reasons but i feel like somnetimes i still need a bigger reason . Lord, please give me a reason to hold on. What pissed me off big time yesterday was that my sister cant find the letter that i actually wrote to myself. I promised to read that letter again come 2008. It's 2008 now but where am i . blood, bowed, i dont know i just hate it , i hate this , ciaO gtg .. see you when im alive

I have a new job!!.. I started working here on January 7.. i'm not sure if im gonna stay long in this job.. but i like the people here. My bosses are koreans and there okay.. Free internet access.. I just have a few students .. teehee!.. and its so good because back with my old job .. if only have few students.. then your doomed .. coz they wont pay you anything .. they only pay you by the amount of students that you have.. although i still need to get up 5am.. whew! there's one more problem.. My uncle was already asking me to start working in his real estate business .. actually when i talked to him over trhe phone.. i told him that i quit my job coz i wanty to try real estate , and he offered me to work in his company. You know what i kinda got confused when he said he will pay me only 6,700 a month, coz while i was working in my previous job he was offering me the same i get. Okay so about the real estate job, his office is still under contruction.. I kinda like the location of the office because it is near cathedral.. a famous church here in baguio.. geesh anyway.. i told him that i cant work yet this week and next week because its our exam week.. I just cant tell him that I actually found a diff job.. because i cant wait for 15 days without a job.. I dont know but I feel like I cant study If i'm not working, I feel like id rather work and study rather than be a full time student(even though someone offers to shoulder my schooling).. I can budget my time better if i work.. I hope Arra will pass the nursing board exam.. I sometimes think that she is our only hope.. Please Lord.. help her pass the test.


I miss my old student speciall Baek, Jason,ricky and Mr kim... (oh i cant remember his ringback tone .. again )

By the way I actually joined the Starquest search .. and i got nervous during the audition coz im not used to singing infront of people already. So yeah I failed the audition... anyway i have another comeback audition tomorrow,,, Im not sure though if i shouLd go.. My passion for music kinda drifted away when i started to realize that I might not get rich if i only sing.. Rich people watch me sing .. id rather be rich than sing.. so probably that was the reason why i failed the audition~ it was because i feeL that i might get rich if i sing. Singing is a passion, it requires discipline and faith... I dont know where i could get that.. right now im not even that motivated to review..and im starting to be spend a lot again.. i hate myself..sometimes..


Ok ill go on saturday! for the AUDITION!


Oh by the way hayyy i dont think id be able to have a boyfirnd this year. Melai and I was talking about having a boyfriend this year.. just for fun... but i cant do it just for fun.. not having a boyfriend for 8 years( melai said its 10 years) is not that easy.. and i cant just waste my time with a person whom i cant rely on.


I have to budget my time ...
oh by the way I need to post a year end detailed run down of what happened to me next Year!
next post.... That would be tough tough,,, (reminiscing shit and evrything) ...oh yah i remember.. Im toUgh Pink!

I just don't know why this show matters to me a lot . Well i guess it also helps me motivated to move on . . . .