naahh.. people actually think im crazy .. but the truth is i'm just trying to get myself back on feet. Just today our boss told me that my resignation will be granted .. (no questions asked) . I actually don't know if this is a blessing. This year was really hard for me and finally 5 more days and i'm done. Although i'm still not sure if i'm done with the agony that i feel each day. I dont know maybe im just not counting my blessings or maybe im just too blinded by what i really want.

What do I really want .. i don't know.. well for starters i want to quit smoking . I want to earn money and continue my studies help my family and let my little sister take medicine course. . and of course travel. That's all i ever wanted but I just can't get it. Well I guess you cannot really get what you really want. So whats in it for me then. Is this all it??

I feel like quitting everyday.. each day..Anyway I actually failed one subject last sem and I'm so scared to fail again. I miss my cousins. I kinda hate my friends. I so much hate myself and I'm not sure if i'm gonna be able to carry on .. Well i guess.. i really cant anymore.

I'm looking forward to what would happen to me next year.. I guess i dont know whats the reason.. why am i still here.
School for me is okay however I just blew up my repu...by giving into i-dont-know-happened-all-i-can-remember-is-that-i-got-wasted-and-laughed-my-ass-off.
Lord If something better would ever come my way. Please let my acts not impede the blessings i need. Just Let it be.. allow me shine.. please

By the way I'm so glad i have rebecca and noemi .. kahit papano naaliw naman ako sa kanila .. Thanl you Lord!

naahh.. people actually think im crazy .. but the truth is i'm just trying to get myself back on feet. Just today our boss told me that my resignation will be granted .. (no questions asked) . I actually don't know if this is a blessing. This year was really hard for me and finally 5 more days and i'm done. Although i'm still not sure if i'm done with the agony that i feel each day. I dont know maybe im just not counting my blessings or maybe im just too blinded by what i really want.

What do I really want .. i don't know.. well for starters i want to quit smoking . I want to earn money and continue my studies help my family and let my little sister take medicine course. . and of course travel. That's all i ever wanted but I just can't get it. Well I guess you cannot really get what you really want. So whats in it for me then. Is this all it??

I feel like quitting everyday.. each day..Anyway I actually failed one subject last sem and I'm so scared to fail again. I miss my cousins. I kinda hate my friends. I so much hate myself and I'm not sure if i'm gonna be able to carry on .. Well i guess.. i really cant anymore.

I'm looking forward to what would happen to me next year.. I guess i dont know whats the reason.. why am i still here.
School for me is okay however I just blew up my repu...by giving into i-dont-know-happened-all-i-can-remember-is-that-i-got-wasted-and-laughed-my-ass-off.
Lord If something better would ever come my way. Please let my acts not impede the blessings i need. Just Let it be.. allow me shine.. please

By the way I'm so glad i have rebecca and noemi .. kahit papano naaliw naman ako sa kanila .. Thank you Lord!

I passed criminology. . . i just found out about the result of my crim subject today. I know that i would still need to take more steps before i reach my goal but this is really something to look forward to.. oh i still miss one thing though.. that is earning like more than 20k a month.. i'm actually financially drained right now and next monday is our enrollment.. now i'm quite not sure if i'd be able to enroll next sem.. i guess not..

oh about work i actually sent them an email saying that im about to quit.. well that's how frank i am nowadays

oh i really feel so busy nowadays i need to do lot of things like my laundry, my fone that should have been blocked a month ago, my amnesty process(screw citibank), my office table needs to be fixed, my study guides that i need to send, the money i need to loan for my enrolment. I can do this! I mean i always do things on my own. next story!>>

Anyway i have 2 more subjects to go ... cross your finger for me.. i hope i would be able to pass those 2 subjects.. although tyou know what i think *wink* i think that i might not pass consti~ i think its so impossible for me to pass it coz the truth is .. i was really not sure about my answers during the exam.. o God forbid.. i need to pass all my subjects this sem.. or else.. im doomed .. but anyway i thank Him so much for helping me with my crim subject..

Thank You so Much!

ThiNgs have been tough foR me this year. Im so sorry if i havent had enough time to update mY BLog.Remember they usually say you shouLd count yoUR bleSsings always... i don't know but i tend to count all my oppressions. SchooL pisses me off sometimes though sometimes i feeL that all the topics or things we talk abt reaLLy motivates me more to pursue what i want. When i started working in pampanga at some other point i thought that i wont be able to get out of there anymore. I hated my roommate that time and i hate coming in to work (remember i even countdown the days). The first month of my stay here from pampanga was really okay. I mean i havent had any problems with money. I have enough time to review and go out with my friends. Then came half of juLy everything started to fall. You can call it "disaster". Up until now im still striving, waiting and hoping that i would feel better --at least. Oh my cellphone was stolen last saturday. So its like im paying my credit card for something that i'm not using . Anyway next week is exam week damn i have to study hard coz i really need to catch up with a lot of things. Oh how i wish im back to scratch. see yah!

Lord when would this EnD!???